!Rewritten!
Cause it kinda sucked...
So, this is the actual first chapter...
Chapter 1 : Left in the shadows
Spiritkit was happy today! Today was the day she would prove to her mother and father that she wasn't worthless, that she wasn't just a nuisance. She was hopeful, but in the back of her mind, she knew that the outcome would always be the same. If they couldn't love her now, why would they love her when she was an adult? Spiritkit pushed those thoughts away, once again trying to convince herself that she would prove herself.
Spiritkit wanted to go catch something! She, as said before, wanted to prove herself today. She wanted to prove that she was just as good as her sister, Goldenkit. Spiritkit knew that if Goldenkit went out and caught something everyone would be amazed, their parents would fuss over her and that she probably would be given any punishment. It just how their family was, Goldenkit was the perfect one, the one that the whole clan adored. The one that their father, Smokeleg, brought tasty prey and taught different things to. The one that their mother, Silvermist, cared for and fussed over. Spiritkit was the one the whole clan disliked for some reason. She was the one her father abused because she wasn't as good as Goldenkit. She was the one her mother screamed at.
Maybe they just want me to be better? Spiritkit scoffed at that idea, who was she kidding? Her parents despised her and nothing she would do would make them love her. Just some time ago, she had unrealistic expectations, dreams even. She needed to get back to earth and remain there. Leave her mark and move on. No one knew how big Spiritkit's mark would be...
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Spiritkit settled down in the edge of the camp, near the nursery. She wanted to nap a little before she went out, maybe think too. As time passed, Spiritkit got more lost in thought. She was thinking about Breezeclan and how it worked. She was so lost in thought that she didn't see a golden silhouette creeping behind her.
"Goldenclan, attack!" Someone yowled behind Spiritkit as she was suddenly attacked by shapes her size.
Spiritkit felt fear in her veins for a few moments before realizing this was Goldenkit and her gang. Goldenkits gang was composed of Ryekit, a small wheat orange she-cat with red paws and tail, Hazelkit, a light brown lean she-cat with darker paws, ear tips and tail. Lastly, there was Rabbitkit, a stocky grey tom with long dark, light paws and a short tail. He resembled a rabbit, hence the name. They were all younger than Spiritkit and Goldenpaw by one moon.
Spiritkit felt small, sharp claws dig into her pelt. The claws scored down her sides, drawing a small amount of blood. To Spiritkit this wasn't painful but she was sick of this. Goldenkit and her gang always did this, attacked her. They were smart about it though, they made it look like a rough but friendly tussle. The clan wouldn't care either way, they disregarded these occurrences.
Spiritkit was sick of this, sick of Goldenkit hurting her. This time, Spiritkit would fight back. Spiritkit composed herself, her eyes zoomed onto Goldenkit who was in front of her. She unsheathed her claws and scored them down Goldenkits pelt whilst yelling to stop and back off. Goldenkit eyes became angry as if they were sneering at Spiritkit and then she smirked. Goldenkit started yowling loudly, attracting attention. Silvermist, Spiritkit's mother, burst out of the den and ran to her firstborn, checking Goldenkits injuries, asking her if she was okay. Goldenkit was making it look way worse than it actually is! Spiritkit angrily thought. Silvermist asked who did this and Goldenkit lifted a trembling paw pointing towards Spiritkit. Silvermist's dark eyes glared at Spiritkit. Trying to contain the anger within, Silvermist gave up and started yelling.
"Why did you hurt your sister?" Silvermist's eyes were wild, angry. " Why did you ruin her pelt? You, you CURSED creature! I knew that you were always a mistake!"
What. Spiritkit's mind went blank. That was really harsh, parents weren't supposed to do this, were they? Granted, Spirikit knew her parents didn't love her, but still, that was very harsh. Spiritkit felt prickling at the corner of her eyes, she could not allow herself to cry.
"What is the meaning of this?" Spiritkit's father, Smokeleg, padded towards them.
"She hurt me! I just wanted to play!" Goldenkit wailed, pointing at Spiritkit.
"How could you?" Smokleg's eyes were pools of cold anger. "You were jealous of your sister, weren't you? Of course you were."
No. Why would I be jealous of her? Spiritkit glared at her father. Smokeleg saw her glare and scowled.
"Well then," he said coming closer to her, "you should learn."
Spiritkit saw Smokeleg move before she was thrown back with a stinging cheek and ear. She was winded, her heart was pounding. Spiritkit moved her head to stare at the few cats mingling around camp. Are you okay with this? Spiritkit wanted to scream at them. Spiritkit caught the eye of some of them, most looked away, eyes full of guilt. Some narrowed their eyes at her.
Why? She knew why, her mother spread rumours. Silvermist said that a Starclan came to her and told her that Spiritkit was cursed. The clan believed her. Maybe because her mother and father were respected warriors or maybe because the clan had such a strong belief in Starclan, maybe both. Spiritkit didn't care for the excuse. She just wanted to know why no one cared for her.
Just like that, Spiritkit was left in the dirt, alone. She stood up, racing away to her secret place, her wounds hurting. The secret place was a stream she found, it as enclosed by rocks, bushes and thorns. No one knew about it. It was Spiritkit's safe place. She started cleaning her injuries, deciding that she would treat them tomorrow. Spiritkit settled down on the big, soft, comfortable nest she made. Spiritkit felt exhaustion creep up on her, and she let it.
YYYYY. Its finally rewritten! I like this chapter now.
(4.9.2018)
