Forbidden love-

A/N: I revised the first chapter again just so ya no. not sure if it is much better but I changed a couple of things. Sorry it took me so long to update my computer is being stupid and I lost internet connection for the longest time kicks computer anyway hope u enjoy!

Disclaimer: I do not own ouran high school host club!

Chapter 2-

The digital clock beeped and buzzed as the sun peeked through the window, casting rays of golden light over the soft blue covers on the bed. Kaoru lifted the blanket over his head and dropped his hand on the 20 minute snooze button.

He didn't want to get up today. Thoughts about Hikaru had been buzzing through his aching head all night and had kept him from sleeping. He slid the covers down slightly, exposing his green eyes, and looked up at the white ceiling. He sighed; he didn't know how he could ever get out of the rut he had fallen into.

Reluctantly Kaoru pushed himself off the bed and sat up, and let out a yawn, extending his arms and stretching. If he didn't start getting more sleep, the already dark circles under his eyes would start to become a problem.

He trudged out of bed and into the clean bathroom that was in the dorm room. Kaoru sighed as he looked at his disgruntled reflection that stared back at him. Kaoru yawned again before opening up the cabinet behind the mirror to get his tooth past.

He reached into the cabinet to grab his tooth brush but hesitated when he saw what was next to it. A sharp razor sat on the shelf. It was so tempting and it would be so easy.

Kaoru let his slender fingers grasp the metal handle and pull it off the shelf. Staring down at the pale skin on his wrist Kaoru brought the razor to the exposed flesh. He pressed it lightly, barely scraping the skin. Kaoru could almost imagine the blood pouring from his wrists onto the tiled bathroom floor, surrounding him in a pool of crimson.

It almost seemed too easy, ending it right there and then. He put a little more pressure on the blade and let it nick his skin, barely doing any damage. The slight pain felt like heaven and a small smile played on Kaoru's lips.

Suddenly Kaoru jerked the razor blade away, reviling the small scrape that wasn't even bleeding.

"No," Kaoru said as he looked at the razor in his hand that he had been ready to end his life with. "How could I even let such a stupid thought cross my mind?" Kaoru couldn't even believe what he had been thinking about.

"How could I be so selfish?" he felt sick, how could he have done that to Hikaru? Maybe he didn't love him the way Kaoru wanted him to, but he did care about him.

"He would be devastated if I killed myself," Kaoru let a single tear slip through his closed eye lids and down his soft cheek. He felt like crawling under a rock and never coming out.

More tears streaked down his face, leaving shimmering trails of salt water. Kaoru put his back up against the wall and slide down, throwing the razor under the sink.

He buried his face in his knees and cried. He let his feelings pour out with his sobs. Kaoru was surprised that Hikaru hadn't even woken up from all the noise he was making.

Letting out a couple more sobs, Kaoru looked up at the clock that was sitting on the desk next to the bed. The vibrant red numbers read 7:10.(i)

If he didn't start getting ready then he would be late since it always took him a while to get his hair the way he wanted it to, unlike Hikaru who took less than two minutes to get ready.

Wiping the streaks off of his face he got up off the floor and started to get ready, giving an evil glance towards the metal handle that stuck out from under the sink before kicking it under all the way under.

Soon enough Kaoru had his school uniform and his hair perfect. He looked at the lump in the bed where Hikaru was sleeping. Picking up his book bag he walked out of the door.

XOXOXOXOXOXOX

Hikaru woke with a start as the alarm clock went off. The annoying buzzing rang through his head. Rolling over with a lot of effort, Hikaru noticed that he was alone in the bed, and he didn't notice any sounds coming from the bathroom. Kaoru must have already left.

Hikaru felt awful! Last night it had just been a sore throat, but now it felt like his head was filled with cotton. His throat hurt even more than it had the night before, and he felt very nauseous.

Half of him wanted to get up, but the other half protested as he made a feeble attempt to push himself off the bed, making his stomach jerk, threatening to release anything that was in it.

He just couldn't miss school today. A big meeting was being held at the host club, and staying in the dorm all day would not help him warm up to Kaoru to try and find out what was wrong with him and making him act so depressed.

Making up his mind, Hikaru got out of bed and dizzily walked to the bathroom trying to shake off his nausea. Black spots appeared in front of his eyes, blocking his vision. A wave of nausea jolted his stomach again.

Hikaru doubled over, clutching his stomach with one hand and putting the other clammy hand over his mouth, desperately trying to keep whatever was in his stomach down. Practically falling to his knees, Hikaru grabbed onto the door frame in the bathroom and stumbled forward bending down over the toilet and retched. He gave a few dry heaves, managing to only bring up saliva and water.

Grasping the edge of the toilet bowl tighter, Hikaru frantically tried to take short breaths of air in between each heave, having much difficulty. It felt like his lungs were going to explode if he didn't get a breath of air.

Hikaru could have sworn he felt his heart stop before he could finally take a deep breath of air.

The black spots returned, dancing in front of his blurred vision as he staggered out of the bathroom trying to keep his balance but doing a very poor job of it.

If he could just get to the phone then he could call Kaoru's cell phone. It seemed so far away. With each step he took his feet felt heavier, like weights were being attached as he moved his legs forward.

Hikaru fought for consciousness, while his dizzy spell fought to bring him down. The dots that obstructed his vision finally took over and every thing went black. Hikaru's body went limp, as he collapsed onto the floor, landing on his side, panting heavily.

Hikaru's lips twitched as he tried to speak "Kaoru," Hikaru mouthed the word but nothing came out.

XOXOXOXOXOXOX

Kaoru tapped his fingers on the wooden desk he sat in, barely listening to the monotone voice of the teacher. He kept glancing at the empty desk next to him.

Hikaru was not the lightest sleeper but he would never sleep through the alarm clock. Maybe he just turned off the alarm on accident and fell back asleep. Kaoru tried to sooth his mind with the many possibilities of why Hikaru had not showed up for class, but he just couldn't shake the feeling that something was very, very wrong.

Kaoru was so wrapped up in his thoughts that he didn't even notice the angry science teacher calling his name.

"Kaoru, are you paying attention?" He was answered with a blank stair out the window. The teacher walked forward as the rest of the class watched silently.

"KAORU" the teacher screamed, slamming a ruler onto Kaoru's desk. The daydreaming student had not even heard the teacher saying his name but now he had his full attention.

Kaoru was so surprised that he fell back in his chair.

Waving his arms frantically trying to grab something to catch his fall, Kaoru grabbed the desk and brought it down with him. Papers scattered and fluttered around the classroom before settling around Kaoru. The whole class was laughing, while the teacher stood over him, not looking very impressed.

"I suggest you pay better attention next time." The teacher said, as a blush spread across Kaoru's face, as he began to pick up the papers on the floor.

XOXOXOXOXOXOX

"Kaaaaaaoru!" Haruhi called from down the hall way, waving her hands. Next to her was Tamaki, Honey, and Mori. Haruhi was wearing her regular boy's uniform.

Kaoru forced a small smile to spread across his lips as he waved back and walked towards his friends.

"Kaoru what happened to you?" Haruhi questioned as she looked up and down at his crooked tie and messed up hair.

"Nothing," Kaoru forced another smile "I'm just not having a very good day. Science wasn't very fun; I swear that teacher has it in for me." Kaoru laughed, but inside he felt like crying. He really was having a horrible day.

First he had been having suicidal thoughts and then being embarrassed in front of his entire class, and on top of that, he was worried about Hikaru, even though he probably just over slept. Kaoru was normally over protective of Hikaru, and showed he cared for his older sibling.

"Where is Hikaru?" Honey asked glancing around the halls looking to see if he was walking towards them of just lost in the crowds of students.

"I think he over slept, in fact, I'm on my way to go check and see if he's still sleeping, Bye" Kaoru turned and waved flashing another fake smile at his friends before letting his face be consumed with worry as he picked up his pace and headed towards the dorms.

Kaoru entered the long hallway that lead to his dorm, pulling out his key and sliding it into the lock once he got to the right door. Turning the key Kaoru opened the door and saw that the lights were on, indicating Hikaru was awake, but the eerie silence only made Kaoru more worried about his twin.

Moving quickly into the room Kaoru called out to his brother. "Hikaru," Kaoru walked to the bed that was empty.

'Where could he be?' Kaoru caught sight of something in his peripheral vision as he turned to check in the bathroom. Lying on the other side of the bed was a very still form. Kaoru's eyes widened as he took in what he saw.

"Hikaru!" Kaoru ran to Hikaru's side and dropped to his knees onto the carpet. He laid his hand gently on Hikaru's shoulder. He was so still Kaoru couldn't even tell if he was breathing. But when he looked closer he could see Hikaru's bare, sweat covered chest moved up and down.

The short breaths were very shallow and uneven but at least he was breathing at all. Another thing that Kaoru noticed was how hot Hikaru was to the touch. He was obviously burning up with a fever, and his hands felt like they had been soaking in ice cubes.

Whipping out his cell phone Kaoru dilled a number, praying Hikaru would be ok.

(1): I have no clue when the school starts so I made up a number that is close to when my school starts.

A/N: ok this chapter was not much longer than the first one but I think the pace picked up a little bit. Excuse my horrible spelling I had to post this chapter quickly because my computer was flipping out and if I didn't there was a possibility of everything getting deleted. I used spell check but sometimes it doesn't pick up all the mistakes. I suck at spelling as u can c so don't come down too hard on me for that. Uh oh Kaoru was having some suicidal thoughts there. You'll have to c what happens next time! HikaruxKaoru all the way!XD