A/N: This POV came out of a mix of Evenescence's "Imaginary" and Linkin Park's "Numb" and a very BAD day...
Everyone's gone fucking crazy. And it's not just me. They think that I would like to kill Batsy. I probably would. Sometimes the damn creature just pisses me off. I'm sor- It's just hard to think of him as human, ya know? Every once in a while it crosses my mind that with Batso gone there would be no status quo to upset, no anarchy takeover. If you get down to it, there is always a status quo to upset, always an anarchy takeover to, um, plan, weather there is or is not a Batgoon.
But haha, that's funny, cause that's really what chaos is all about. Upsetting the status quo. So I really don't want to kill him, we've got too much of a history. He makes the"quo" for me to destroy in the first place. Ooooha, it's crazy right? I guess because they finally think I'm sane enough to be out of the damn straightjacket for thirty minutes a day...but you don't get it...I've been sane this whole time. Chaos is what makes me think I'm normal -- I've brought everyone down to my level. Except the damned bat. He's still just this creature that just won't be corrupted. He won't give up the ridiculous policy of his about not taking human life. I've pushed him, and pushed him. Maybe a part of my demented mind has a death wish. I do love a challenge. It's almost like a high stakes game of Three Card Monty. The thing that the thing does to make me the most mad is his silly demand of why I wanted to kill him. He didn't get the joke. It's so silly and stupid its funny. I don't want to kill you, stupid bat. You're just too much fun. Trouble with you is you don't see the fun you're causing. You've got them running like scared rabbits. You're not as different from me as you would like to think you are. I know you had it. Just one bad day, and it multiplied into several. And somehow you just manage to hold on...with batwings.....
I stared blankly at the padded wall, I tried to adjust into a more comfortable position, but it's kind of difficult since I'm in this straight jacket. Damn. Because of this one time that Bats broke the rules and my neck in the process, getting stuck in a position for hours and hours is getting more than just an annoyance. I broke it the rest of the way, did you know that? Damned proud of it, too. Just had to make me finish the job. That's Bats for you. It really hurt at the time but gods, my face hurt worse than that. I guess there really isn't a way to explain it. The psychos, up here, say I have some kind of psychoanalytic personality psychosis disorder. Its a crock of phbbt that's what I told them. Well, actually, I cracked up laughing. And the poor doctor was so serious. It's so tragic it's hilarious. They think they can fit the jack in the box. heeheee. Please tell me that was funny. Well I guess what they mean by those big long medical terms is that I both have a death wish, but it comes and goes. They told me it's some kind of control issue. Whatever. Har always said...gosh I haven't thought of her in forever. Does she think about me? Probably not. Probably found a better man with a better face. Serves her right for running off like she did. Doubt. It. She smashed people's heads almost as good as I blew them up. I think the only person she probably was nice to was me, but hey, I always come across the wrong way anyway. I remembered she smelled like Tang perfume with something else. I guess I just never got around to killing her because she always laughed at my jokes. Maybe it was because she was half-crazy too, he he...
Day she packed to leave, it was just one of those things when friends leave. You say goodbye, you promise to be in touch. The whole bit. She didn't want to leave, she just wanted to get out of Gotham for a while. Didn't matter to me, I got too much to do. I can't just pull up stakes and leave. Everyone asks why I let myself get caught. I like it here. True, I'm not too fond of the damn jacket, but hey, at least I get fed regularly. I wouldn't admit it to anyone, but I think I went crazier after she left. I doubt I'll even admit that to myself, but who knows? I admit I'm crazy, but that's who I am, if I wasn't crazy, and wasn't such a freak, I wouldn't be me. Oh, I can tell you don't get it. I don't care. That's the cruel irony of it all....
Plead insanity. Of course. And its so damn easy to get out of here. Pity the new doctor. Gah...he's incredibly....hmmm...bored. Sulking around, he stares at me with an intrested as though I am some sort of freak in a cave. I bet you want to know how I got the scars, doctor. Too bad. Finding out weather the story I choose to tell you is true or not is up to you. Even I don't remember anymore. It depends on the situation. You see, the crazies, they can be played. Me, I've reversed the playing. Hee...oh come on! Cut out the serious face...I don't need a reason for anything, because if there isn't a reason, I'll just make one up. Maybe that's why I have a permenent smile. Oh, come on, you're no fun. Please tell me that was funny. You don't like explosives, you don't like death. It's kind of obvious you don't like me. At least you have feelings. Consider yourself lucky. Just one bad day, and I went crazy. You can understand that, I think. Don't look away, look at me.
Oh come on, don't feel bad. Remember the little fiasco I caused at Dent's fundraiser? You had to have read it in the papers. Unless you're an idiot. Just a little thing. I never saw Wayne. Ever. There was just a...bat. I'm just saying. What crazy doesn't come to his own party, even in a disguise? It doesn't make a lot of sense does it. That was easy to figure out. Getting rid of his lady friend was easy, and it was just the beginning.
You wanna know how I found out? First place, everyone thought it was all about Dent. Bats just let me mention his assistant and he just went crazy. For once I had the upper hand. Right where I wanted him. And the plan got set in motion. Then for once I'd change things. Forever. It was like a dozen houses of cards. Flick one, and the whole thing goes, it all burns. Collapses on top of each other. You don't get how funny it is, do you. I just take plans and turn them on itself. Because that's what I am. An agent of chaos.
