I am pushed out of the black Mercedes by a fat middle-aged man, my face scrapes the pavement and I cry. I don't know how my life got so wrong. How did I end up giving blowjobs for five dollars when I used to be paid fifteen? Oh well, I made two hundred dollars today, which will only last a day if I'm lucky with my extreme crack addiction. Maybe I should try rehab?

I ponder all these deep meaningful thoughts as I get out my crack baggie and snort some crack. After a few minutes I get strength to lift myself up off the sidewalk. It's beside a playground and everyone is giving me disgusted looks, which brings tears to my eyes again. If only I was a child again…

I am jolted out of my musings as a group of elementary kids point and laugh at me. One throws a rather large rock that hits me in the face. I fall to the ground for a second time that day yet this time is doesn't hurt. I feel no pain. The crack makes me feel so wonderful I start rolling around on the ground until I am interrupted.

" What the fuck Simon you crack whore?!" It's my boyfriend/pimp Alfonso. He is a 36-year old Greek man who moved here to become a taxi driver but became involved in the sex trade. I love him. He is my soul mate.

"Hey Alfy! I missed yooou!" I scream as I get up for a hug only to have him punch me in the face as I came close.

" Hey Simmy," He started dragging me to his car, " I have a present for you when we get back to the apartment ok?"

I shriek with glee, I wonder what kind of gift he got me? I will have to mark down this glorious special day down in my "diary".

We pull up to our apartment building and I run till I reach our room. I am so excited you don't even know. No human in the world could ever feel as excited as I do in this moment.

I burst through the door after Alfonso and he goes into our bedroom to get my gift. When I see it I drop to the floor weeping at the most beautiful gown I have ever seen. It is fuchsia pink with giant pink bows on the shoulders reminiscent of the 80's.

"I saw this at the discount store and knew it would suit you, now put it on and show me!" Alfonso instructs.

I start stripping off all my clothes hoping that my emaciated body still sexually excites him.

As I pulled up the dress Alfonso screamed and it wasn't in pleasure, and that's when my life- as shitty as it was- got even worse.