Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter or its characters.

Warnings: Slash (RL/SB), Rape, Cutting, etc.


Just Believe Me

James had left Sirius on the common room while he retrieved the marauder's map; they were going to look for Remus. He wasn't back yet and James was starting to worry and he knew that Sirius was concerned too, the other boy may be mad but it wasn't like he didn't care about Remus at all. He was halfway down the stairs when he heard Remus yell something, and then came the sound of skin meeting skin. He stopped mid-step, he knew Sirius was angry but he never thought he would hit Remus; Sirius wouldn't do that…

He heard fast footsteps approaching and then saw Remus running up the stairs, crashing against him.

He was able to stop himself and Remus from falling and then pushed Remus farther away to see his face, it was covered in tears, had his bottom lip split and a hand print on his cheek (probably Sirius' job). Just at that moment Remus broke down crying, burring his face on James' chest and clutching his shirt. James was mad at Remus for apparently cheating on Sirius but he couldn't ignore his friend's pain and tears; he was torn between pushing Remus away and comforting him. He was about to push Remus away and ask for and explanation when he saw the bruises on the werewolf's wrists.

"Remus, come on, clam down…Everything's okay…" James starting pulling Remus into their dorm while trying to calm him down. "Tell me what happened, please…" James sat Remus down on his own bed, brought a glass of water and some tissues for him and then sat next to him. "Now, tell me what happened"

Remus took a deep breath and started telling James everything.


***Flashback***

Remus was walking back to Gryffindor tower, when he felt someone pull him and was pin him to the wall. He looked up to see that it was Malfoy who had him trapped and before he could comprehend what was happening he felt lips on his. He started pushing Malfoy but to no avail since he was two years older and much stronger that Remus.

Malfoy was kissing him roughly, and he was sure he would have bruises after this. He heard footsteps and soon after he heard a gasp and Sirius came to view. He wanted to call for help but as soon as he opened his mouth Malfoy deepened the kiss. He tried to push him away again but it was useless. Remus looked back to Sirius, hoping the animagus would help him, Sirius was strong he would surely be able to push Malfoy away, but Sirius was nowhere in sight, he had left him alone, with Malfoy…

Malfoy stopped kissing him then, but it wasn't over yet. He grabbed Remus by the shoulders and pushed him into an empty classroom.

He pushed Remus onto the floor and magically tied his wrists together and to a desk nearby, then he started kissing Remus again.

"Stop... Malfoy stop...Please!" Remus pleaded between the rough kisses.

Malfoy starting undressing Remus as he kissed the younger boy's pale neck. Remus tried to pull his arms free but couldn't even move his hands properly. Finally Malfoy looked at him with a scary smirk.

"Please, Malfoy, I don't want this. Please…" Remus had tears falling and he was shaking with fear, trying to get Malfoy to leave him alone.

The older boy just leaned close to Remus' ear and gave the earlobe a small nip. "Don't worry you'll like it." Remus gave a choked sob and tried to move away but the older boy just chuckled as he placed a silencing charm on the room.

***end of Flashback*** (A/N: hope you understand what happened, I just can't write it!)


James didn't know what to do as Remus broke into tears when he finished.

"Remus…I…I think we should tell Dumbledore or… or your parents or something"

"My parents kicked me out, remember?" Of course James remembered, Remus had told him at King's Cross station at the beginning of the year, when he had asked if his parents were dropping him off.

They had kicked him out when he had told them he was Sirius' boyfriend, he was now staying with a childhood friend and his parents, his friend was a squib so he didn't go to Hogwarts. James had never met Remus' friend but he was thankful to him all the same, he didn't want to imagine Remus alone and with no one to turn to. Remus had made James promise he wouldn't tell Sirius, or the pureblood would blame himself. Sirius still thought that Remus had just convinced his parents that he could go alone and that they just didn't have much time to write.

"I'm sorry for bringing that up" James felt confused and lost; he didn't know what to say to his friend "why didn't you tell Sirius, about this?"

"He didn't give me time, besides, he's right, I am a whore" Remus he pulled his knees to his chest and put his head over them. James shook the indignation over Sirius calling his boyfriend (even if it was his ex-boyfriend) something so hurtful.

"No…no Rem, this wasn't your fault. I really think we should tell him, he'd forgive you, for sure" At this Remus looked up at James, with a frightened expression.

"No! No, don't tell him!" Remus looked at James desperately. "Please James! He can't know!"

"Okay, Okay! I won't tell him but you've got to tell me why it's so important." James, waited for Remus' answer inquiringly.

"He'll be so disappointed." Whispered Remus sadly. "He can't know I'm so weak…"

James just sighed, and looked at his friend dejectedly. Sirius meant everything to Remus, and now he had lost him.