This is inspired by a situation my bestfriend is going through.
Italics=flashback.
Regular= present.
Bold=usually just is the date or a text message. :P
And if it's bold italic, that means it's important although not being said, it just means something. :P You'll find out. [:
And if there's an italic by itself in a sentence, it's just emphasized.
Chapter 2:: a little bit longer than the last chapter, and you'll find out more about what happened during the summer.
Enjoy!
Kairi walked home to her empty house, where her mom was still at work, not that it would have mattered if she was home or not.
Since the summer had started, the two didn't talk unless necessary.
Kairi liked to be alone now.
Kairi's mom, Joan, liked to not have to deal with a daughter and her stupid problems.
So not talking worked out nicely for both.
She slipped her feet out of her shoes and messed her hair up even more by running her fingers through it.
"Freaking a."
Throwing herself down onto her bed, and picking up her iPod, she stared up at the ceiling.
Trying to block everything out and pretend the day had no affected her in the slightest.
Things went that way for two more weeks.
Roxas would talk to her a little bit at lunch, but when she stopped replying, he'd walk by, look at her, then go to Namine.
One Saturday she was in her room, laying there, waiting for her iPod to charge. She had been there all morning, and was still in her pajamas even though it was past noon.
Her wrists were covered in long red cuts from the night before, when she'd gone distraught after receiving a phone call from Olette.
A very horrible phone call.
Driven insane.
She sat up.
Had there just been a noise in her living room, like the front door opening?
There was a change of light, then suddenly, Roxas came into her room.
He gasped. "Holy shit. Kairi? What is this?"
He gestured to the trashed room, her being in bed.
"How the hell did you get in?" She asked shortly, lifting herself off the bed and standing across from him.
He lifted a key. "Your mom gave me a key forever ago, like sixth grade. That isn't the point. What the hell happened to your room?"
"What do you mean?" Kairi retorted, defensive.
"It's a fucking disaster, Kairi. Your room used to be neat as a pin. If I so much as dropped a piece of fluff from a pillow onto your floor, you would spazz out. And now it's a disaster. It looks like a tornado went through here!"
Kairi lifted her arm, running her fingers through her totally messed up hair. "Look, Roxas, it's nothing. I've just spent a lot of time in here and never cleaned up after it all. I'm working on it."
"This is working on i- Oh my God. Are those cuts on your arm?!" He shouted, crossing the floor to her in three large steps and grabbing her gently by the elbow.
He examined the cuts. "Oh God, Kairi. What the hell are you doing to yourself?!"
"Nothing of your concern, Roxas. I have my life under control."
"No, Kairi. You used to have your life under control. This is falling to pieces and I refuse, as your friend, to let you fall any further into this."
Kairi glared at the floor. "Yeah, my friend. If you are and were my friend then why didn't you check up on me before now?"
Roxas sighed. "Look, it wasn't that easy, Kairi. But I've been here. You pushed everyone away. Me, Namine, everyone. As soon as Sora ga-"
"DO NOT mention him."
Roxas shook his head. "Ignoring what happened won't help you here, Kairi."
"I'm not ignoring what happened, Roxas. If I was ignoring it do you think I'd be like this?"
Roxas sighed. "I suppose not. Kairi...look at this room, like really look."
Open your eyes.
Kairi turned. And wanted to faint.
Her bed was rumpled and looked as if the sheets hadn't been washed in months, which they hadn't, seeing as they'd been there since the fifth of June.
That horrible day.
Her floor was covered in all kinds of clothes and stuff, out of the times Kairi had changed and not cared where the clothes were.
Her bookshelf and computer desk were both covered in a fine layer of dust and her room smelled like dried blood.
She gazed down at her arms, the many cuts, the healing, healed, and open.
Tears welled up hot behind her eyes. "Roxas...Oh my God. I'm....pathetic."
Roxas' face softened and he wrapped his arms around her. "No you're not, Kai. You've just had a horrible summer."
"I don't know what I had but God...just look at this."
At me.
Roxas sighed and helped her to sit down on her bed. "I'm staying here until tonight. I'm going to help you clean up this mess and you're going to take a long, hot shower and put some clothes, not pajamas, on, and we're going to clean and listen to Fall Out Boy and chill."
Kairi sniffled and wiped her eyes. "O-ok. I'll go...I'll go take a shower."
Roxas nodded. "You do that." he said, handing her a towel while she pulled a pair of jeans and a t-shirt out of her dresser.
He waited until the water was running to yank the blankets and sheets off her bed and throw them into the hallway.
He glanced around the room and crossed to the window, yanking open the blinds and opening it, letting in the breezy island air.
"Let's get started." he mumbled to the room.
Kairi got out of the shower 45 minutes later, toweling her wet hair and feeling slightly better.
She walked into her room, a chilly breeze hitting her face pleasantly as she surveyed her room.
Clean sheets and pillowcases, warm comforter straight from the dryer.
And there was Roxas, sprawled out on the completely spotless floor, playing solitarie with Kairi's cards.
A Fall Out Boy song, 'I Don't Care', was playing on her CD player.
"Fall Out Boy...nice touch." she commented.
He nodded. "Hell yes. Sit why don't you."
Kairi smirked and sat down across from the blonde.
"So....I wanna talk to you about something." He said casually.
Kairi's eyes widened in curiosity. "Hmm?"
"Sora."
Kairi's small amount of stability that had been recovered in the past hour seemed to be slowly disnintegrating.
"W-why?"
"Before I tell you...I want to know exactly what happened between you two. He refused to talk about it, with anyone."
Kairi sighed and draped her towel over her chair.
"Well... I guess it's storytime."
"Sora...I NEED to ask you something."
"So that's why you had me come to the park at ten thirty in the morning a week after summer begins?" He asked. His blue eyes were far away, and he wouldn't even look directly at her.
"Sora...what are your feelings for me, honest to god truth?!"
Then he looked at her. With the saddest blue eyes she'd ever seen.
"My feelings for you...
Are weak."
Kairi stared at him. The wind blew her red hair into her face but neither reached up to tuck it away.
"So your saying..." she said, slowly.
"That we can still be friends, Kai. But we...together....just not working."
"But...but why? You said you loved me, forever!"
Sora sighed. "You're a cutter, Kairi."
"What? Why would that...nothing can ruin love! We're meant to be together! You...you've said it yourself."
"Masochism can destroy anything." He said darkly.
"But I..I'm not- Sora..."
"Just fucking leave me alone. Don't talk to me. I don't want you in my life anymore."
"You just said we could still be friends!" The redhead was full on crying now.
"I lied, dammit."
Then he left.
She tried to contact him after that. Texting, voicemails, myspace messages.
He finally told her to just 'fuck off.' That the fire was burnt out. There were only ashes. And he was certain you can't even get a spark from ashes.
After that, it got really bad. She told everyone to leave her alone. Didn't return their calls or texts. Stayed off her computer. Laid in bed.
And the cutting just got worse....as she did.
Kairi let her tears fall onto her jeans as Roxas hugged her. "My twin is such a dick, Kai. You should not have let him affect you."
But he was a knife. A knife right through the heart.
"Ugh. I wish I hadn't. But Roxas...it's just so hard. Seeing him with Olette, knowing he hates my guts, and especially that since I still am deeply in love with him, it all hurts like hell."
"Well then I have somewhat good news."
"And what is that?"
"Sora. He broke up with Olette. And has been asking about you.
Apparently he wants to be friends again. He hoped I would ask you to call him. He wants you to talk to him...he wants to apologize."
Kairi's head hurt. "Oh my God."
She moved to her clean bed, realizing as she did so just how great a clean bed feels. And how much she needed the shower, the bed, her bestfriend Roxas who happened to be her ex's twin brother.
But hey. This stuff happened.
She motioned for Roxas to sit next to her.
"Rox...I can't take this."
"I'll tell the inconsiderate asshole to fuck off and die." Roxas' voice was hopeful, as if he was really, really wanting to tell his brother that.
Kairi laughed. "No. Don't tell him that. I want to talk to him."
She bit her lip before adding, "I'm just scared to."
Roxas sighed. "I know you are. But you have to choose what's best for you. So if you think talking to him today is that, then do it. If you think you need to wait, then do it."
Kairi nodded as Roxas' phone went off.
"Hey Nam. Nah, I'm at Kairi's. Yeah, I can come over. Uhm give me a half hour to an hour. Yes I know."
Kairi bit her lip again. She didn't want Roxas to leave her just yet.
"Look Nam. She's my best friend. And she needs someone right now. So give me an hour."
Sighing, Roxas hung up.
"Just go. I want to think."
Roxas started to protest.
"Alone, Rox."
Roxas nodded.
As he was leaving, Kairi moved and ran to the living room as he opened the door.
"Oh, and Roxas..."
He turned. "Yeah, Kai?"
She surprised herself by smiling, genuinely smiling.
"I love that I'm your best friend."
Roxas came back and hugged her, then left.
Kairi smiled softly before returning to her room.
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Chapter two. Hate it, love it, like it slightly, detest it but still find yourself reading?
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