Sequel to Would you Believe It?
Don't Leave Me…
Song theme: Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol, and Memories by SugarCult.
Hikauro's POV.
I woke with a start when Kauro jumped on me.
"Hikauro!" Kauro happily sang as he jumped onto me and my new bed. I jerked upward from the most terrible dream, pushing Kauro to the floor.
"Hey! That wasn't very nice!" Kauro rubbed the his bottom as he stumbled upright. I just stare at him, terrified.
"DON'T LEAVE ME!!!!! Don't leave me by myself! Pl-please!! I want to go back!! To-to when it was the two of us!! No-no one else!! No one to take you away from me!!! I don't want to be alone!! God! Don't leave me!!!!!!"
"Kauro! Where are you?!?!" I look through the darkness finding no one. I run around with no trace of where I'm heading until I trip.
And then there he is. Lying there fight in front of me.
"Don't leave me…" he whimpers as I look upon his d-
Then Kauro jumped on me and I woke up. I think back to the present and look at my trembling hands gripping the covers of my bed.
"Are you okay Hikauro?" Kauro sits on my bed and puts one of his hands on one of my trembling ones. I stare at his golden eyes.
"You're lying." I state coldly. Angrily.
"No," I say truthfully remembering what I had said to my twin nearly three months ago.
"What's wrong?" His eyes search mine for an answer. I hold his hand tight.
"I swear, I will never leave you." I whisper so quietly that he can barely hear me. Kauro's face was horrorstruck at the memory of that day in the classroom. I watched him compose his face to a worried smile.
"I know Hikauro."
"No you don't…"
Kauro's face was surprised. He was telling the truth, but I knew that somewhere in the back of his mind that he refused to listen to and had sealed off, doubted my word.
"Yes you are. I can always tell when you're lying."
"I'm not lying."
"I'm not lying." Kauro put his other hand on my check, and I shake it off.
"I know." I reply and hide my worry with a fake smile. "Let's make sure we tease Milord today!"
Kauro smiles back at me. Though he knows my smile is fake, he doesn't want to press the depressing matter further. He pulls me out of bed and over to our shared closet and takes out our Ouran uniforms.
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"Don't leave me…"
I glance around at the empty bathroom, making sure no one was hiding, and then turn toward the mirror and look into it. What did I see? Myself or Kauro? Neither.
"I swear, I will never leave you. Damn everyone else in this whole fucked-up world. We'll go back to when we hadn't met Tamaki, ignoring everyone else, if that's what you want. We'll quit the host club and always be together. No one else."
I saw neither in the mirror, knowing that I wasn't complete without Kauro. And Kauro wasn't complete without me. I smile and nod, as I remember my dream.
And then there he is. Lying there fight in front of me.
"Don't leave me…" he whimpers as I look upon his d-
I shake my head. I refuse to remember the last of the dream.
I walk back out of the bathroom to the doors of the host club. The doors that me and Kauro opened for the first time two years ago. Where was he now?
"Hikauro? Are you waiting for someone?" Haruhi comes up behind me and asks.
I stare back at her.
He looks up at me through his tears, "No Haruhi?"
"No Haruhi."
"No." I smile at her, "I guess I just I got lost in thought." I open the host club doors.
Without Kauro.
Kauro's POV.
"Hikauro? Are you waiting for someone?" the cross-dressing girl asks my twin. He stares back at her.
I look up at him through my tears, "No Haruhi?"
Hikauro bit his lip and thought for a minute before saying, "No Haruhi."
"No." he smiles at her, "I guess I just got lost in thought ." He opens the host club doors.
Without me.
I just stand there watching as my other half leaves the room I'm in..
"Don't leave me…"
What had Hikauro been dreaming?
"I swear, I will never leave you."
That scared expression of pain. That expression of which he looked strait at me. It sent shivers down my spine. What had pained him that much?
It was empty in the halls of where I stood.
"I love you Hikauro."
"I love you too Kauro."
Hikauro's POV.
I looked out the window into a garden. Could Kauro be in the garden?
"Hikauro?" a worried voice called my name. I looked at Hunny, nearly choking his Bun-bun. Mori sat starring at the shorter blond with the pink bunny.
"What is it, Hunny-senpai?" I ask.
"We'll go back to when we hadn't met Tamaki, ignoring everyone else, if that's what you want. We'll quit the host club and always be together. No one else."
"Are you ok?" Hunny asked.
"I'm fine." I lied. Only Kauro could tell when I'm lying.
"Where's Kauro?" Hunny held his bunny closer.
"Ummm… I don't know…" I rub my head and close my eyes.
"Kauro's been acting strange the past few weeks. Since last month I think."
He has?
Hunny pats the top of Bun-bun's head and crawls over to Mori. "Is something wrong with Kauro-chan?"
"It's okay…" he says when I finally stop the kiss.
"Ummm… I don't know."
"Yes… it's okay Kauro…" I hug him again.
"Did you two have a fight?" Hunny asks with worry.
"No… you aren't going to give all that up for me."
I can't answer. Has Kauro been acting weird?
"What? I'm not giving anything up. The only thing I need is you."
Happier then normal. People act happier when they don't want anyone else to know that they're hurting.
"No! We will stay in the host club and you will continue on with your attempts to impress Haruhi!" he says angrily to me.
That gruesome image of Kauro appears in my mind from the nightmare.
"No! You are more important!"
Could that be what he's feeling on the inside?
"You are gonna make your life a living Hell if you give all that up."
Or was it the future?
"Then why did you break down like that?!?!?!"
My face twists into horror.
"Because I needed to know if you loved me enough to hurt yourself!"
Kauro wouldn't dare- couldn't dare!
"Of course I love you Kauro! I would kill myself if that would make you happy!"
"KKAAUURROO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I cry and jump out of my seat.
"I feel the exact same way Hikauro." he smiles at me as he pulls me closer.
"Of course I love you Kauro! I would kill myself if that would make you happy!"
"I feel the exact same way Hikauro."
Kaouro's POV.
I stare off into the sun. Seeing nothing. Would this make him happy?
"I swear, I will never leave you."
The pain-filled my mind so that tears are on the brink of my eyelids. .
"What do you mean? Of course I'm all right!"
"I'm sorry I lied."
I press my lips softly and tenderly to his.
"I love you."
"I feel the exact same way Hikauro."
"I want you to be happy. More than anything."
"I may leave you…" Hikauro says hesitantly, "But I'll always come back to you when you need me."
Tears slide down my face as I take one step forward.
"DON'T LEAVE ME!!!!! "Don't leave me by myself! Pl-please!! I want to go back!! To-to when it was the two of us!! No-no one else!! No one to take you away from me!!! I don't want to be alone!! God! Don't leave me!!!!!!"
"I'm sorry Hikauro…" I take another step forward.
"I swear, I will never leave you. Damn everyone else in this whole fucked-up world. We'll go back to when we hadn't met Tamaki, ignoring everyone else, if that's what you want. We'll quit the host club and always be together. No one else."
"…I know that if you keep your word…" another step.
"So you don't have any need to cry!" Hikauro wiped away my tears.
"…that you won't be happy…" I pause.
"No! You are more important!"
"..So I have to break your word for you." I cry. Tears pouring out.
"Don't leave me…"
"I love you Hikauro." I cover my face with my hands.
"Don't leave me…"
"I hope that you can forgive me." I let my tears fall.
"Don't leave me…"
"I love you." I take the last step forward.
"Don't leave me…"
Only to think he will now never know this.
"Don't leave me…"
"I love you."
"Don't leave me…"
"I love you Hikauro."
"I love you too Kauro."
"I love you." I say for the last time.
"Don't leave me…"
Hikauro's POV.
They didn't find him for a long time. Almost two years later, only then did they find him. Some fishermen pulled him out of the river. How long had he been floating in that river? The river that had that bridge that was nearly 40 feet high from the river. And below that bridge, were rapids. Very strong rapids. That bridge that he had…
I break down and cry. I had gotten the news only minutes ago. That my other half was no longer here. And he was never coming back. Never to smile at me. Never to tease Tamaki. With me again. Never anyone to talk to. Not anymore. No one. There was no one.
I fall onto the floor. During those two years I tried to believe that he had just run away without me. That he would come back. And we would smile, and play and laugh just like we did when we were 16. Now he was gone.
"No. You're not gone. If you were gone, I'd be gone to, right? Right. Cause you're my other half. A person who's missing half of them self can't live right? Right." I cry out and then laugh. And laugh. "So you aren't gone! You're still alive! You have to be!"
I crawl around our room tearing everything apart. Looking for my missing twin.
"Where are you Kauro?!?" I cry out and laugh. "I give up! Where are you?!?!?!"
There was no answer. No one.
"YOU FUCKING LIAR!!!!!!!!" I scream out to Kauro, wherever he may be. "YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR KAURO!!!!!!!! A FUCKING LIAR!!!!" I scream louder, burying my face in my hands. The tears stain the carpet. I turn my head up towards the ceiling and stand. I scream at the ceiling. "YOU WERE THE ONE WHO MADE ME PROMISE YOU THAT FUCKING PROMISE!!!! AND THEN YOU MAKE ME BREAK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!? I LEFT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY!??!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!?!?!? WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO AND DO SOMETHING AS STUPID AS SUICIDE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!?!?!??!?!!?!?!?!?!??!!?!? YOU FUCKING BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I pant and wait for my answer.
"DON'T LEAVE ME!!!!! "Don't leave me by myself! Pl-please!! I want to go back!! To-to when it was the two of us!! No-no one else!! No one to take you away from me!!! I don't want to be alone!! God! Don't leave me!!!!!!"
"YOU FUCKING BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU LEFT ME BY MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU HAD TO GO JUMP OFF THAT DAMN BRIDGE DIDN'T YOU?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!!??!!?!?!?!? YOU HAD TO TAKE YOURSELF AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!"
I collapse to the floor waiting for Kauro to answer my questions.
"Don't leave me…"
"Don't leave me Kauro…"
And then there he is. Lying there fight in front of me.
"Don't leave me…" he whimpers as I look upon his dead body covered in blood. His face pale white. His eyes wide open, but seeing nothing. His mouth open as blood choked his lungs.
"I'm not gonna leave you Kauro…" I whisper in a barely audible voice. And then I remembered what he said to me two months after he had broken down in the classroom.
"Hikauro. I'm going to ask you to do something important for me."
"Like a favor?"
"Yea… like a favor…but it also requires for me to put all my trust into you."
"I'll do whatever you say."
"That's good to hear. You see this box? I don't want you to open it till our 18th birthday, okay?"
"Okay."
I glare at the box. Our 18th birthday was only two weeks away. I trusted him and he killed himself. I took the small box in my hands, and opened it. A note fell out.
Dear Hikauro,
If you are reading this then I am probably dead. I'm sorry. I just want to make you happy. I knew that if I stuck around that you would break your promise, and I just couldn't have that because you then would have beaten yourself up about it. Making you feel worse. So this way you can't break your promise, because I took myself away from you. I'm sorry if it makes you sad.
Do you remember those two songs? Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol and Memories by SugarCult? Those are the two songs stuck in my head right now. I wish we had never fallen apart and could just lie next to each other forever.
My dying wish is that you have to keep living. I don't want you to join me. Not yet. I need time to think, but I look forward to seeing you in heaven. So you better not kill anyone or do anything that makes you go to hell!!!!
I will miss you. I will always love you. I'm sorry I lied to you. Please be happy, for the both of us. Always know that you will always have me, your other half, watching you. I will keep an eye on you so that you don't have to go through everything alone. I hope you can forgive me. I love you. Please enjoy life for the both of us. I love you. I love you. I love you.
"Don't leave me…"
END.
