01-06-10 (part 2)
At No Limits
As we walk down stairs to relieve his hunger I realize this had been a close one. I had almost lost him. He had begged me for forgiveness laying his heart out for me to see how much he loved me. He deserved the same honesty from me. But right now I just want to kiss him so that's what I'm gonna do.
He gives a surprised laugh when I stop his progress towards the bar counter and kiss him. Miriam walks by us and teases us, "Thank God. You two made up."
I try to act surprised, "Wait! Is it that obvious?" but can't help grinning like a fool.
She just teases back, "No, not at all!" and laughs.
I have to let go of Christian so that I can man the counter.
"Could you see if there's some food that needs to be eaten. I'm ravenous."
Christian needs food pronto, and Miriam is happy oblige him as she says "Sure!" to him chirpily.
Anna is relieved to see me arrive and I send her off home.
I turn to Christian he is smiling up at me I am about to lean in to kiss him again when I see that man enter.
His long drawn out "Hi," makes Christian's smile disappear but he says "Hi!" politely back to Rob.
So he really is keeping his promise to me and controlling his temper.
But what the fuck is Rob doing here? We definitely didn't have an appointment today. Seeing him standing there beside Christian also makes me realize there is something that I haven't told Christian as yet.
The first time he kissed Rebecca Christian himself told me about it and I was witness to the second kiss. But I hadn't extended him the same courtesy I hadn't told him about my kiss with Rob until he had prodded me and I still haven't told him about Rob's grotesque strip tease.
"Is there a special reason why you're here." I demand of Rob.
"Definitely! We need to check out a party location," he tells me.
I look at Christian and watch his face. He looks like Rob had just slapped him. In that instant I know who and what is number one on my priority list - Christian, of course.
Rob continues talking "It's in the Meatpacking District,"
Which is this new place that has suddenly sprung up in Dusseldorf I wonder and ask puzzled "The Meatpacking District?"
Then he tells me that the place he wants to check out isn't in Dusseldorf at all, "In New York!" New York as in that city in the U.S of A.
I'm flabbergasted and I'm sure it shows on my face because he continues talking, "Exactly! And next week it's on!"
"What's on?" what is this guy babbling on about has he lost his marbles.
He tells me about some new crazy themed bar, lounge or whatever.
I am intrigued by the whole concept but then I look at Christian. His shoulders slumped, the look of utter resignation on his face which says, *so I'm about to play second fiddle to Rob again as usual* hurts me. My answer to Rob is an abrupt, "No,"
I like the surprise that I see on Christian face.
"Whatcha mean 'no'?" Rob asks in shock I realize I have never refused him before.
"I can't," I tell him but I keep looking at Christian's face the joy I see there is my reward.
Rob tries to tempt me but only ends up strengthening my resolve. "I know. But my priorities are someplace else," I'm more than satisfied to stay exactly where I am.
I see a smile blossom on Christian's face. Even though he is in close quarters to Rob Christian is beaming. I feel proud that I can make him smile. He leans over and kisses me. I couldn't have asked for more. My heart is home and that's where I am needed at the moment. We need this period of healing.
Rob tries to sway me with, "It would only be for a few days,"
But my answer is simple and concise, "Still...we have a lot of catching up to do." speaking directly to Christian rather than to Rob
Christian nods back in agreement.
I head off to the kitchen to find that Miriam has just sliced the foot long loaf. I send her back out and make two sub sandwiches for Christian just the way he likes them - with every thing.
But I hurry back as I don't want to leave Christian alone with Rob. but I worries are quelched as I come back to find Christian involved in a deep conversation about horses with one of our patrons who is a jockey. I approach Christian plate in hand he comes back to sit at the bar counter and almost snatches the plate from me. He picks up the sandwich and takes a big bite out of it. His facial expressions as he enjoys the morsel is a treat to watch. No one else can appreciate food the way Christian can. He is every chef's delight. He makes me feel like the greatest chef ever when he hums as he appreciates the simple meal I just prepared for him.
Rob again starts his squawking in my ear. But all his efforts are in vain. I pile refusal upon refusal my eyes never leaving Christian's face even for a second. Ultimately Rob gives up and says "I mean it's a pity, but it's enough if one of us goes there." Finally he had got a clue.
Giving him a passing glance I quickly agree, "I think so too." Christian obliviously keeps eating then he playfully offers me a bite I lean towards the offered treat and he kisses me instead. That kiss tells me that everything is getting back to normal between us. Offering food and then kissing me instead of giving me a bite has always been his favourite ploy when he wants to steal a kiss. It's only now after he just kissed me that it's dawned on me that Christian had stopped indulging in this play ever since that man suddenly barged into our lives. Our relationship had been shaken to the core by Rob.
Rob's sarcastic "Second honeymoon or what?" Is answered with a curt and forceful "It was about time" by Miriam.
She really is a true friend. If she hadn't been around and pricked my conscience every chance she got, I might have not been able to keep my hold on Christian as long as I did even though things had gotten so very messed up between us.
I want to be alone with Christian so I ask him, "How about going to the movies later on,"
"Love to," is his quick and cheerful answer.
Rob's constant stare makes me want to sock him but I decide ignoring him is a much better way to get my point across that I don't want him there.
Christian's glowing face is all I see and want to see today. His happiness is food for my soul. I give into my urge to touch him to reassure myself that our reconciliation isn't just a dream made up by my yearning heart.
As I'm about to kiss him again the damned espresso machine picks that very moment to act up again.
Stupid piece of rotten junk.
Miriam calls me over to take a look at it. But the damage this time is beyond my amateur expertise. Rob tries to muscle into my good graces with, "Should I? I have a way with these things."
But my answer is swift, "Don't bother. This time we need a real pro." Just like me that poor coffee machine as well is tired of being fingered by Rob.
As I make the call to the repair man Christian starts speaking to Rob I quickly make the appointment with the repair man but keep my eyes fixed on my man to gauge his mood expecting him to blow up at Rob at any second. But Christian seems to be in control. As I end the call I'm relieved to see the glow on Christian's face as he proudly declares to Rob, "Cause Olli loves me."
"Is everything okay?" Christian asks me as I resume my place before him It is an odd question the coffee machine going on the fritz is hardly a disaster
"Everything's okay." I tell him with a smile.
He thinks for second then says, "Even though you're not going to New York?"
So Rob had needled him about my refusal to accompany him to New York. That man really couldn't keep his nose out of my personal life.
"Even though," I reassure Christian and kiss him to further prove my point.I sense Rob leave but I frankly couldn't care less. Good riddance to rotten rubbish.
All I want and need is sitting right in front of me. Christian offers me his sandwich again, I expect him to pull back his hand as he had done before but he keeps holding the sandwich up to my lips and I take a generous bite of it.
Christian sharing food!
That's something new. We truly are healing.
My cup runneth over!
