Chapter 2
You were meant for me- JEWEL
I hear the clock it's six am I feel so far from were I've been.
I grabbed my eggs and my pancakes too.
I got the maple syrup every thing but you.
I break the oaks and make a smiley face.
I kind of like it in my bran new place.
I wipe the spots of me. Don't leave the keys in our door.
I never but the towels on the floor. Cause dreams last for so long .
Even after your gone.
And I know you love me and soon you will see .
You were meant for me and I was meant for you.
I called my mama she was out for a walk .
Cause hole a cup of coffee but it didn't want to talk .
Picked up the paper .
It was more bad news.
My hearts been broken and people been used.
Put on my coat in the poring rain.
I saw a move it just wasn't the same.
Cause it was happy , oh I was sad, And it made me miss Ya oh so bad cause dreams last for so long even after your gone.
And I know you love me and soon you will see you were meant for me and I was meant for you.
I go bought me business, doing fine.
Beside what would I say if I had you on the line .
Same old story .
Not much to say .
Hearts are broken every day.
I brush my teeth.
I put the cap back on.
I know you hate it when I leave the light on .
I pick up a cup and turn the sheets down and take a deep breath and a good look around.
Put on my Pj's and hop in to bed.
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead.
I try and tell myself that it will be alright.
I shouldn't think any more tonight cause dreams last for so long.
Even after your gone.
And I know you love me and soon I know you will see.
You were meant for me and I was meant for.
Ya you were meant for me and I was meant for you.
It's been hours of thinking and I'm still lost. Do I believe him or them. I mean it's not like I have proof. But I could get some. Getting off the bed I walked over to the computer and sat down. Logging on, I noticed that Lauren was on. Thank god. I clicked her screen name.
I. M CHAT:
Juno17: Lauren, you said that Edward slept with you and Jessica. Well I want proof.
Xxxsexyslutxxx: I have pictures
Juno17: Then send them to me.
Xxxsexyslutxxx: Bella as much as I love to put you in pain. I don't know. Your like water would break or something.
Juno17: ok, then I don't believe you. You don't care about me so don't start acting like it now and send me the fucking picture you slut.
Xxxsexyslutxxx: Fine, but don't say I didn't warn you. Bitch. Now I do hope your water brakes cow.
You have a new message. My computer said.
After taking several deep breaths, I clicked on the message. And there they were. Several pictures of my husband, Lauren and Jessica. In different positions and places. Our bed. Our bath room. Alice's Closet. His Car. His couch. The kitchen. The pool. The pool house. The guest room. God it was almost every room and on everything in the house. I felt sick. Really sick. Tears and uncontrollable sobs were my best friend for the next hours.
Torn- Natalie Imburglia
I thought I saw a man brought to life.
He was warm
He came around like he was dignified.
He showed me what it was to cry.
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know , seem to care what your heat is for.
Well I don't know him anymore.
Threes nothing were he use to lie.
Conversation has run dry.
That's what's going on.
Nothings fine until
I'm all out of faith.
This is how I feel.
I'm cold and I'm ashamed, lying naked on the floor.
Illusion never changed in to something real.
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn.
You're a little late and I'm already torn.
So I guess the fortune tellers right.
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light.
But you crawled beneath my vein's and now I don't care.
I have no luck.
I don't miss it all that much.
There just so many things I cant touch until
I'm all out of faith.
This is how I feel.
I'm cold and I'm ashamed.
Lying naked on the floor.
Illusion never changed in to something real.
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn.
You're a little late and I'm already torn.
Torn.
There's nothing were he used to lie.
My inspiration has run dry.
And that's what's going on.
Nothings right until
I'm all out of faith.
This is how I feel.
I'm cold and I'm ashamed.
Lying naked on the floor.
Illusion never changed in to something real.
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn.
I'm all out of faith.
This is how I feel.
I'm cold and I'm ashamed.
Bound and broken on the floor.
You're a little late and I'm already torn.
Torn.
I'm not shore when but I did stop crying. I could hear people trying to get in but the bolt I kept on the door stopped them. And if that didn't work I highly doubt they could get past my hundred pound dresser. I guess a broken heart gives you strength. The only way I could get out was the fire escape. It would have to do because I can't face them. Any of them. I had to get them out and if I have to call the cops to do it then I will. One things for shore is I'm going to the court house now and filing for a restraining order and a divorce. Then I'd have to file for full custody of my daughter when she's born. Maybe they'll let me do it now. Pulling my big but off the floor I changed in to black pin striped pants and a white maternity shirt with a small vanilla colored bow the goes under my breast's. I put my boot's on and grabbed my purse. Opening the window I took a deep breath and swung my leg out on to the fire escape. Ducking under the window and I brought my body as well as my other leg out. I was on the second story so it wasn't to bad. I climbed on to the ground and waddled as fast as I could to my car. Another present from Edward. Starting up my car I could see Edward standing near my computer. Probably looking at what I left on the screen. Good, Fucking bastard. With one last look I was on my way to the court house.
