Santana couldn't take it anymore. The stares. The comments. The disapprovement. And it was all because of Finn, him and his stupid big mouth. She'd been happy in the closet until then.
Through her druggen haze, Santana heard the radio, set to one of her favourite stations, playing 'Fix You'.
"When you try your best
But you don't succeed"
She had tried her best to hide her feelings. Tried her best to ignore the razor blade lying on the counter. But it didn't work, no matter how hard she'd tried.
"When you get what you want
But not what you need"
Santana had all she ever wanted - Brittany. But she didn't have what she wanted so desperately - acceptance.
"When you feel so tired
But you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse"
Santana was tired. Tired of life. Of being judged all the time. Of living up to other people's expectations and failing to meet them. She just wanted it to end. To go to sleep forever meant it would end.
"And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace"
Santana had lost her Abuela. And it hurt. It hurt alot.
"When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?"
Santana loved Brittany so much. But loving Brittany meant being labelled. She didn't want a label, she just wanted to be normal. To be normal and make being in love with Brittany normal.
"Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to ... fix you"
At this, Santana felt her wrist being picked up, and a soft kiss placed upon it. Brittany. Her heart leapt at the thought of her girlfriend. No doubt willing to fix Santana, and make her better.
"And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go"
It would destroy Brittant if Santana died. She hadn't thought of that.
"But if you never try
You'll never know
Just what you're worth"
Santana was worth nothing. She knew it by her Abuela's rejection of her, by the whispered words behind her back.
"Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to ... fix you"
Santana needed guidance. Brittany was Santana's light in her darkest moments. Santana needed that light.
Santana heard the song end, and then heard Brittany speak.
"I'll fix you Sanny. Don't worry."
