A/N: Thanks for the reviews and I hope that you all enjoy this chapter.
I felt a small smile grace my lips as the sun started to come up, but it didn't help the empty feeling inside of me. I had turned my phone off after it started to buzz for 20 minutes straight once I had released the Instagram post that was heard around the world. I was sitting in Arizona with no camera crews, no assistant, no entourage, and the only person I really needed was my sister. I had shown up in the middle of the night, and she welcomed me without question.
"Here." a voice said and I looked up to see Brie handing me coffee. I hadn't slept yet, and in fact I had posted that on Instagram as the plane was leaving Tampa for Arizona. I needed my family now more than ever. I knew that I had been dumb to not listen to Mom or Brie's concerns early on, but I thought love was a stronger force than someone's selfishness.
"Thank you." I said and took it as she sat beside me. She rubbed my back and I leaned on her shoulder.
"I am the worlds biggest idiot." I said and she shook her head no.
"No, I'm pretty sure that was his ex-wife because she went through with the marriage instead of walking away." she said and I chuckled. I had always thought Liz must have been a petty bitch, but now... maybe she was right. I had decided to pull the plug on not just the wedding, but the whole relationship just a day ago. I couldn't take it anymore. The closer we got to the wedding the more cynical, angry, and selfish he became, but it all came down when we were 'discussing' it and he told me that he had never lied and he really didn't want to get married. I guess I was grateful for that since it was happening before anything really happened.
"I feel like an idiot." I said and she chuckled.
"Everyone has those moments." she said as I sat up and looked at her.
"I know, but I just thought he was it... we were supposed to have what you and Brian have. I am jealous... so jealous." I admitted to her. She pulled me into a hug and I felt tears well up in my eyes.
"You will find that, Nikki... you will. I am just glad that you didn't force it. You stopped this before it became a real problem." she said and I nodded. I knew that she was right. I had picked out everything, but it never completely felt right... I thought it was nerves, but it turns out my gut was right. I didn't want to change John, but I wanted to be different.
"I just thought I was different." I mumbled and she nodded.
"I did too, but I'm glad that you got to see the real side of him before you said 'I do'." she said and I smiled at her.
"Besides, we can always go to Mexico and have more fun than you and him would ever had." she said and I smirked at her.
"You going to bring your mom bathing suit." I joked and she rolled her eyes.
"One joke and it's now a thing." she mumbled and I sighed.
"Nikki, you will be fine. You don't need anyone to be successful, to be yourself, or to do what you want. John Cena being a selfish human being might be the best thing that could have happened to you." Brie said and I nodded as I hugged her again.
"I know, but it doesn't feel that way right now." I admitted as Brian walked out with Birdie. She went to Brie, who immediately handed her to me, and I smiled.
"It's hard to be upset when you are holding such a cutie." Brian said and gave me a small hug. I hadn't seen him last night, but I was glad that he was an understanding brother-in-law.
"True." I admitted as I bounced Birdie in my lap and smiled down at her.
"You know... she was right the whole time... she always screamed around John." Brian said as Brie and I started laughing at that revelation.
"Birdie, you were just trying to warn me, weren't you?" I asked her as she smiled up at me.
I looked out as the sun got higher in the sky, Brian was holding Brie, and I knew that one day I would have this. I would be happy, but I would be happy on my own terms. I wouldn't give up my dreams, my ideals, my thoughts, or changing anything about myself just to become what I think someone else wants. I am Nikki Bella... I will be fine.
A/N: Should I make this into a real story? Or this is it?
