Disclaimer: i do not own One tree hill

A/N: It's been so long since i've updated. had a bit of writers block. Next chapter will be up quicker than this one. ENJOY!

Lucas lay on his back looking up at the ceiling; he knew he needed to get up for school soon but he couldn't stop feeling guilty about kissing Peyton.

All Sunday he had felt like he had betrayed Haley and he didn't know how he could have been so stupid.

Haley had been his life and how could he replace her?

How was Nathan going to react?

This morning he would have to face her at school and with everyone staring. He knew they would think he was rushing and he couldn't bear it.

He dragged himself out of bed and looked over to that picture of Haley on the mirror and he felt a tear trickle down his face.

Brooke was making two coffees in the apartment's kitchen.

That weekend she had talked to Nathan, she knew she had got some where but she knew there was more to uncover.

He hadn't been to school since her death and today he had promised her he would go.

She knew how hard it must be having everyone staring at him but he had to do it otherwise he would never go back.

At least today he would have her their for him; she had decided to transfer back to tree hill high for her final year at least this way she could be here for him.

As she headed to wake him up the phone rang and she ran to pick it up placing the two coffees down on the counter.

"Nathan, babe is that you? It's Mom."

" Mrs Scott, this is Brooke."

"Brooke, how are you? How's Nathan? Have you spoken to him? Please tell me he is ok."

"Deb, calm down. Haven't you spoken to him since Haley? "

"Nathan never picks up the phone and Dan's tried to go around but he won't answer the door. I know he hates us but he needs to speak to someone. He needs to let his anger out like us and let people in."

"Deb, he is doing ok .I've managed to get something out of him but there is more to heal. How about you come around this afternoon."

"Thanks Brooke, Hales would have been so proud of you."

Brooke hung up the phone and turned around to see Nathan standing in the hall.

"Why were you talking to my Mom?" Nathan said angrily.

"Nathan she is so worried about you and so am I. You can't shut her out Nate she loves you."

"She only cares about me 'cause she feels guilty about not being here for me and Hales before"

Nathan voice was getting louder and tears were filling up his eyes.

Brooke put the phone down and reached out and gave Nathan a hug; he flinched and then relaxed into her arms.

"You have to let people in Nate. You have to let people help and you can start by stepping into that school building. Ignore all the whispering, stares and let you're true friends fix you. Let Haley be there with you in your heart and soul 'cause you now that she will never leave you. The people you love never really leave you."

Nathan let his tears fall on to Brooke top and he knew she was right.

Today he was going back into that school. All those memories good and bad were going to be faced but he knew deep inside that he was going to make it.

Some how he was going make it and it scared him that he was going to have to find himself again with out the one person who had helped through the first time.

It was time to face the world.