Numb

Sorry If This Is Overdone!

My favorite songfic I've done yet! I really love the piece of the story that goes with the part, "And I know I might end up failing too…"

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Draco sat in the living room of the Malfoy manor. Lucius stood before him. "Now Draco, it's time for the Malfoy destiny to be fulfilled. Draco felt like crying, he glanced at the window, and saw two emerald eyes staring back in, Ginny. "She's crazy, she's going to get caught!" he thought, staring back at his now silently sobbing girlfriend. "You arm left arm please." Lucius said. Draco rolled up his black sleeve and looked back over at Ginny, she was sobbing even harder, mouthing, "No! Don't do it! Get Up and walk out!" He considered his options, he thought about it, and then jerked his hand back. "What the hell do I care, it's not like I have anything here, you killed my mother! The only person that ever showed me any sympathy or love, and I have nothing to lose!" he yelled while jerking open the door. "Oh No, CRUCIO!" Lucius yelled. Draco fell to the ground, in searing pain. Ginny ran to the other side of the house through the bushes, wiping her eyes. Draco got up and ran out the door and passed Ginny completely. Ginny ran after him, and climbed over the huge hedge as she had done before and ran after him. When the manor was out of sight, Ginny yelled, "Draco!" It was now pouring down raining. Draco's cold blue eyes met Ginny's. He fell to the ground in tears.

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

"Ginny!" He sobbed, "I can't take it, he's making me crazy, I hate him, they classified my mother's death as a heart attack, and they don't know the truth! I watched him use the killing curse on her! I know what happened! I know!" "I know you do, I know," she said, resting her head on his shoulder, rapping her arms around him. "God forbid he ever found out about us, he'd take the one bit of happiness that I had in my life, just like he did two years ago!" he said between sobs. "Listen, you need somewhere to go, you can hide out in the burrow if you want, I don't think my parents would mind." She said sympathetically. "Oh yeah, I could hear your brothers now, it wouldn't be a pretty sight, especially if they knew what I was running from." He said. Suddenly, a boom came out of no where. A flash of purple boomed. "The Knight Bus" Ginny said. "Hello!" Stan called from inside the bus, "Need a ride." "Desperatley" Ginny said. "Oy! Your Lucius Malfoy's son!" Stan exclaimed. "NO I'M NOT!" Draco hissed. "It's best not to leave us alone, if you would." Ginny said. They sat on one of the beds. Ginny took the top blanket off and wrapped it around Draco. He was still trying to catch his breath. "It's ok." Ginny said as a tear fell down her face. She kissed his forehead and held his hand. "Everything is going to be alright now, your with me, you know I'd never do anything to you." She whispered. He nodded in agreement. They arrived at the burrow about 15 minutes later. Ginny checked her watch, 1:30, then she flipped the head, to reveal one just like in her families kitchen, her mother's hand was on asleep. "That's good!" she said outloud. "What?" Draco asked, his voice still not back to full capacity. "My mom is asleep, my dad is working late tonight, and my brothers are all sleeping too." She said. He didn't reply. Ginny gripped his hand tighter. They got to the burrow, she quietly opened the door. She put her finger to her mouth to signal "quiet". He nodded. They got upstairs. She rooted through her drawers and pulled out a black pair of pants and a Chuddley Cannons T-Shirt. "Are these yours?" Draco asked, his voice now stronger. "No, there Ron's, my mom gets us confused sometimes. "I am going to attempt to go into the bathroom and change with out waking the whole house up, so wish me luck." Ginny giggled. She came back in a pair of pink cotton capris and a light pink tanktop with a bright pink dog on it. Ginny realized a problem now, one bed, two people, bad planning, she didn't care though, it was her boyfriend, who very possibly, was in mortal danger. If he was possibly going to get killed, she wanted to hold him as many times as she got a chance to.

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

As they lay in the darkness, Ginny's mind sailed off to what happened at the Malfoy Manor, she now hated Lucius more than ever as she looked at her sleeping boyfriends, scar that had been cut into his right temple when he fell. She remembered how he flinched several times when she bandaged it. She pushed a piece of blonde hair out of his face as he stirred. "Ginny," he said. "Are you awake?" "Yeah, never went to sleep, to worried about you." She smiled. "Don't be, I'll be fine." He said. "I don't know, won't You-Know-Who kill you for not following him?" she said. "I don't know, I really don't, You can never tell with Voldemort- Sorry- anyway, he won't have sympathy, so probably, but I have to tell you, I'm really scared, I want to be here with you, but I don't know if things will work out. If they don't, I want you to tell your brother, Potter, and any other guy, for them to never smother their son like my father did I, because, you see how I'm falling apart, and how many mistakes it has taken, how long I've wasted, to come down to this. I couldn't stand anyone else suffering as I have." He said. Ginny had started crying. She wrapped her arms around Draco's neck and cried on his shoulder. "I-I won't have to, you aren't g-going to die, I'll- I'll fight off a thousand death eaters if I have to, no one is taking you from me!" She sobbed. Draco kissed her on the head as he held her tight and thought about all that had happened in the last five hours. With those thoughts in his head, and Ginny in his arms he drifted off to sleep.

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

He was in the living room again. This time it wasn't only his father in front of him, but, a load of death eaters including, Crabbe and Goyle's father, Pansy's mother and father, Wormtail, Snape, Karakoff, and the Lestrange's. His aunt, who had once shown slight like-ing for him, now stared at him with a look of increasing hatred. Coming through an isle of the Death Eaters, was Voldemort himself. Draco's eyes got wide. "Do you know what you have DONE!" Voldemort yelled. "Y-Yes, B-But I don't care!" Draco said. "Fine, Crucio!" he hissed. Draco seared with pain. When it retained he sat back up, "Would you like to try that again?" Voldemort said. "N-No, I DON'T TAKE IT BACK!" He yelled. "CRUCIO!" he yelled back. Draco fell to the floor again, "GINNY!" He screamed. "GINNY HELP!" he yelled. "Oh, your girlfriend can't help you now!" he said, pointing to Ginny who was tied to a chair in the back of the room. "AVADA KEDAVRA!" Voldemort said in Ginny's direction. "NO!" Draco yelled. "Draco, Draco wake up, what's wrong?" he heard a familiar voice say. "G-Ginny?" he said. "Yeah?" she replied. "Ginny, you're alive, thank you." He said throwing his arms around her, pulling her in tight. "What happened." Ginny asked. Draco told her about his dream, Ginny sat in total shock. "H-He killed me?" she said in disbelief. "Yeah, It was awful!" Draco said. "I can't let that happen, I can't let you die!" he said. "I'm right here," she said, holding out her wrist and putting his hand on it, "I'm alive see, calm down." She said. "Ginny, I have to tell you this, just incase this happens today, Ginny, I love you, I will always, dead or alive, I will always love you." He said pulling her in and kissing her passionately. "I love you too." Ginny said, smiling back at him. "Just remember, we're not going to die." She said, putting a hand on his shoulder.

Chorus
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Over the next few days, Ginny and Draco stayed at the burrow. The start of the second half of the term started the next day. "Gin, come on, we have to go!" Draco said to Ginny who was still shoving stuff into her trunk. "Give it up, It's not going to go." He said, just as she got it locked and smirked at him, "And again you prove me wrong." He said as she kissed him on the lips. "Do you want to apparate to 9 ¾?" he said. "Yeah." She said, holding on to his arm as they all of a sudden were at Platform 9 ¾. "That didn't take so long did it?" Ginny said. Draco rolled his eyes, then his eyes locked on another set of cold, grey ones. "Oh No, Ginny get on the train." He said. "What?" Ginny replied. "Ginny, trust me, just do it." With that Ginny ran. "Crucio!" Lucius screamed. Ginny ducked. It hit a back wall with a loud smack. Ginny got up on the train. "What are you doing here?" Draco asked. "Just wanted to tell my son good luck on the last half of his wizarding education." Lucius sneered. "Well you've got the wrong person, I am not your son!" he hissed. "You must be right after all, because my son would be a death eater and would not be dating a Weasley behind my back." He said. "See, Ginny is the only one that ever proves me wrong, not even my father, because with you, I know I am always correct." Draco said. "Ginny, Ginny, Ginny, another way I know you're not my son is because you wouldn't be saying the name of a blood traitor." Lucius said with malice in his voice. "She's a pureblood." Draco replied. "I know that, I'm not stupid, but she's a muggle lover, if you were more like me.." he said. "THAT'S IT EXACTLEY! I DON'T WANT TO BE A CARBON COPY OF YOU, I WANT TO BE MY OWN PERSON, I WANT TO BE WITH GINNY, AND FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT, AND FOR KEEPING ME FROM THINKING I COULD DO THAT, I HATE YOU!" he yelled. "You'll be sorry you ever stepped out of the Malfoy Manor!" Lucius yelled as Draco got on the train and put his arm around Ginny's neck. "No I won't, because I'm happy without you." He replied as the train pulled out of the station, and Lucius grew farther away, he kissed Ginny, and walked back to a carriage and sat down, knowing he'd be safe with Ginny, and without his father.