Theme number 88- Pain.

Characters: Mello (Matt/Near)

Spoilers: End of Series.

Warnings: Thoughts of depression.

Disclaimer: Still don't own Death Note.

Mello POV.

There are many types of pain. Most are likely to receive the first kind, physical, more than the rest.

Physical pain can be anything, even in the extreme of, say for example, blowing yourself up in a last ditch attempt to save your skinny arse from a supernatural killing note book. Feeling the fire dance across my body as it licked away my skin, leaving me with the worst scare that could be found- although, it does look kind of cool- was the worst physical pain I have ever felt. And, as a Mafia dog, I've had a lot of physical pain.

There's another kind of pain, physiological, that will always be with you, that can also be anything, although it's fairer to say that it can be caused by anything. For me, the physiological pain of always being second t that big-headed twit Near is the worst physiological pain that I've ever felt. And then the embarrassment of being used as a tool to be solved in his stupid puzzle in front of the stupid, useless SPK.

Yes, and it also left me with a complex, what's your bloody point?

No, physiological pain only hurts you if you let it.

The last kind, emotional, is a lot more specific and one of the most common after physical. Emotional pain doesn't give you any warning, it just creeps up on you at any time and pounces! Emotional pain is the most common kind of pain that I have ever felt, even though many fools would have you believe that I am an unfeeling git. But that's far from the case, I just don't show it. The first time I killed someone was the worst, I still see his broken, lifeless, crumpled face in my sleep, on the rare occasions that I do sleep.

Funnily enough, at this hellish moment in time, I am feeling emotional pain. Guilt and so many emotions that I don't want to name, and many others that I don't have names for are circling around my system as I feel the lost of my oldest friend killed, and it is all my fault. It stings like a bitch, worst than any physical pain… even fire.

"Matt…I never thought you'd be killed…I'm sorry …Forgive me." I muttered as I felt a twinge in my heart.

Ah yes, it was only fitting that I would experience all kinds of pain when I died.