New Life/half life
3 days ago my life ended. My human life did anyway, funny how with a single kiss that can be taken away. It's been three days since nick was taken from me, since Issie saw Sumter students being dragged from a bus into the forest, since my family and friends were attacked. Three days since I became one of those things that had killed and hurt so many people in my life. Since I could see my (true) self in a mirror.
Three days and my life had totally and undeniable changed.
I couldn't see Betty, not that I didn't want to but because I didn't know if I could face her the way I am now. I know it's stupid and that she must be worried sick about me, she's called a number of times but I couldn't find the guts to speak to her. What would I say really that your granddaughter has become the thing you probably hate the most in the world. I know she knows this by now but I don't want to face her just yet, not when I can't even face myself without the use of glamour.
So I stay away from her and let her calls go to voice mail, just sending texts every now and then to tell her I'm ok that I'm still Zara, a very different, very pixie Zara, but still the same girl. Mom calls to let me know that she's alright, that my father has not found her yet. These conversations last little more than a minute and telling about her what happened to me is not something I wish to do over the phone at least not while she's on the run.
Because of a string of snow storms school has been called off until further notice, considering how terrible I felt at the dance without Nick this is probably a good thing. To see all the other couples (now including Issie and Devyn) walk from their cars hand in hand, kissing each other, dancing like there's no one else in the world but them. It leaves me feeling empty and sick in my stomach.
My dreams are no real escape either for each one is filled with dead bodies, of burning plains, of blue lips, and wer teeth.
When I return to the room Astley is still sitting on my bed, with his glamour on, not looking at me until I sit on the bed right beside him. "We won't be staying here for much longer," his says eye's finally finding mine "I bought a house on the outskirts of Bedford, it pretty big if you wish to join us there." By us he meant pixie's in his control. In the past few days I was introduced to ten or twelve of his most trusted advisor's and all of them were kind, respectful, and maybe a little to human since none of them let down there glamour around me. Even Astley rarely let down his glamour even when we're not in public, which I know he does for me so I can adjust. So I can get to know them before I judge them just because they are pixie's, which makes me feel like a bigot.
"Maybe I'll take you up on that, since Betty may kick me out for turning." I say this like it's a joke, but deep down im 100% serious. Betty was a Wer, a sworn enemy of pixie's and for a good reason, pixies are absolute monsters, at least some of them are. Like all things in this world, like humans, there is a good and evil and in cases like my father there was a silver lining.
"Your grandmother would never do such a thing," he says smiling at me with sure confidence.
"And how do you figure that."
"Because she love's you."
Sappy ending i know. And sorry for the "catch up" chapter but it seemed necessary for me to map out what happened before moving on with the story. Sorry it took me longer to do decide on this then i thought.
