Chapter 2: Deep Brown Eyes
I helped Charlie get sorted for Harry Clearwater's funeral; he looked a little better when Jacob came over with Billy.
Jake stayed with me whilst our dads left us.
"So bells, what do you want to do today?" he asked me curiously
"Urmm, I don't know, how about we go down to the beach?" I suggested
"Sure." Jake replied
We were putting on our coats when the phone rang,
"Hello, swan residence" Jake said cheerfully into my phone,
"Jake" I whispered as I put my hand out for the phone.
"Nope" he replied to a question I hadn't heard
"Who was that, you were talking to on my phone?" I asked him as soon as he had put the phone back down.
"No one, they just wanted to know if Charlie was here. That's all." He laughed
"Oh, okay then, let's go."
We walked and talked, hand in hand, up and down the beach. I could imagine what this would look like an outsider. A… couple. Although I knew how much Jake wanted it to be, I told him how it couldn't be.
He was my own personal sun, he made my day brighter, but that was it, and how much I wish he was born my brother.
We spent an hour or so under our tree watching the ocean. I couldn't help but to just stare at him, had he grown more? Also was he also this good looking?
"We should get back…" trust Jake to break the perfect silence, "Charlie and Billy are probably going to be back from the funeral soon."
Urrg, do we have to go back, I thought, can't we just stay here; we could stay here all day, and do nothing.
"Yea, okay." I finally said.
Charlie came back with Billy a half hour after we did. So Charlie invited them to dinner.
"So, what did you guys do today?" Charlie asked us at dinner.
"Urmm, not too much, we hung out at La Push beach most of the day." Jacob replied.
"How was the funeral?" I asked them after a few moments of awkward silence.
Although I regretted it, when I saw Billy and Charlie's face lose all emotion.
Jake and I excused our selves and Billy and Charlie watched the game.
We sat on my bed just looking at each other, looking deep into his eyes, its was almost as if I could see into his soul.
I don't know how long we were sitting there but after a while, I took a quick glance out of the window and realized the moon was really close. There were no stars and the sky was almost purple. When I looked back over to the moon it's was even closer, and it was getting bigger. The room was spinning now, and someone was shrieking in my ear. My palms were sweating and my throat was tight, I couldn't breathe. I looked over, back into Jacobs's eyes, but they weren't his eyes. They weren't those deep brown eyes, they were topaz eyes, they were his eyes. They turned coal black, black with thirst. We weren't in my bedroom anymore. We were in the forest by my house. It was the memory that I have tried my hardest to stop my self from thinking. He was about to leave me and walk away, but it wasn't Edward, it was Jacob, my best friend was leaving me. I screamed at him begging him not to leave.
"BELLA!!" Jacob screamed at me.
I sat up screaming at the top of my lungs, I was in my bedroom. I breathed, and relaxed. Jacob didn't leave me, and the moon didn't explode! It was only a dream, dream? I scoffed, yea, more like a nightmare!
"Bells, its okay, love, I'm hear, your okay, your safe, don't worry." He put his arms around me and wiped away a tear from my face, I didn't realize I was even crying.
"Bells, why would I ever leave you?" He looked into my eyes, confused.
"What? What are you talking about?" How did he know about my dream? Was I talking in my sleep?
"Bella, you haven't shut up for the last hour saying, 'Jake don't leave me, don't leave" He mimicked me.
"Oh, well yea, I guess I had a nightmare." Huh, I guess I was talking in my sleep. I wiped the last tear away from my cheek and hugged Jake tighter.
I knew how much this would hurt Jake when I pull away, but I couldn't think about that right now, I was too scared.
I looked over at the clock; it read 4:37 am.
"Wait…" I looked at him confused, "Where's Billy? Does Charlie know you're here?"
" Nope Silly Bella, of Corse Charlie doesn't know I'm here, he thinks I'm at home sleeping, I drove Billy home about an hour after you fell asleep, I didn't want to leave you but I kind of had to, sorry, and he thinks I'm out off doing wolf Patrol."
"Oh" I laughed
"Now sleep my Bella, you look tired." He commanded
I opened my mouth to protest, but instead I just yawned. I wanted to tell him that I just wanted to stay awake, that I didn't want to go to sleep incase I had that horrible nightmare again. But I was too tired. So I nodded my head in agreement and closed my eyes and reality began to fade away into blackness.
I woke up with surprise to see sun coming from my window. Was I in forks? I questioned myself, I looked out side, it certainly looked like forks, except for no rain, or clouds. It was a blue sky and the sun was shining its hardest on this tiny little town in the state of Washington.
I sat back on my bed and ran my fingers through my knotted hair.
Jake had left a note on my pillow, it read;
Bella,
You look so cute when you sleep; I have to leave before Charlie wakes up, other wise,
well I don't want to know the consequences. Call me later, or something,
Love you, Jake
Why couldn't he of stayed, yea, well I guess I already knew the answer. I
Walked down stairs and grabbed the box of cheerios and looked at the clock
On the oven, 11:14 am. Really? I had slept that long, my eyes scanned the room
and noticed the phone had one new message;
I listened as I began to eat my cereal,
Hey bells,
Urmm, Jake here, call me when you get up, we can hang out all day, only if you want though, sams giving me the day off, so yea, bye
Why did his voice make me so happy? Why did just the thought of hanging out with him make me thrilled?
I finished my cheerios, had a shower and got dressed, it realized that the clock read; 11:45. Why was I hurrying?
I decided I wouldn't bother to call, I mean, he did say we could hang out so, I don't see why I would have to call.
When I pulled up I saw Billy wave for me to come in.
"Hey Bella, nice to see you." He greeted me.
"Hey Billy, yea same, is Jake here?" I asked anxiously.
"Urmm, yea, but he's sleeping right now, he was out all night patrolling." He said,
Patrolling, I thought, all night, wow, I felt guilty he shouldn't of stayed that long if he was going to be tired.
"Oh, okay, ill be at the beach, will you tell him when he gets up?" I asked
"Sure Bella."
No one was on the beach, which was surprising considering how nice of a day it was. I watched the waves, and let my eyes wonder, when they came to an abrupt stop at the cliff. It was almost as if I could see my self standing on top of it. About to jump, it looked…. Fun, I could not understand why I had wanted to do it. I stood up from were I was sitting, took my thin blue sweater off that I was wearing so I was just wearing my white tank top, and long blue shorts. I walked over to the cliff stood on the edge,
No, don't be stupid Bella! He almost whispered
Did he not care anymore? But then I realized it wasn't his voice, it wasn't the voice I had been longing to hear, it was Jacobs' voice. Why was it Jakes voice? Did I, love him?
No, I couldn't. I turned around my head to was confused to think straight. I saw him staring right at me, he looked disappointed, and then he burst out laughing.
