"you better let me patch you up mai. otherwise your uncle will kill me, and we wont be able to get anywhere with a sick future firelady. You know you act like zuko when your not feeling good, And we can't go around stealing peoples personalities can we?" she said with a grin so azula like it gave me shivers.
"that is by far the creepiest smile you've ever given ty. Even worse than the normal ones." i said slowly undressing so she could reach the wounds on my back and chest. those were the worst the others were insignificant compared.
"i had to get you not to argue somehow." ty said. she lightly pressed some ointment on the large burn on my back. i hissed at the surge of pain. she repeatedly mummered sorry cringing each time i twitched at the pain.
"hey so tell me, how was it to see zuko again? you were acheing to kiss him weren't you." ty said trying to distract me. even though she knew damn well that i hated her trying to distract me from my composure. i couldn't hold in the hiss that escaped my lips as both the thought of zuko and the pain of losing him again on top of everything finally weakened my resolve. The injuries weren't helping either, but to admit that would make me sound like my winey prince. Then I remember that ty asked me a question. So I try to give a response with conviction to my anger with him.
"I hate him ty. he left me, with a letter. Not even a well written letter. He betrayed my trust. He... As far as i'm concerned we're over." I said trying not to make eye contact when she came around to face me. I know I'm being ridiculous but if I admit I still want to be with him after everything. That would make me weak. wouldn't it?
"So why are we looking for the avatar then?" she asked with a corked eyebrow and smartass smirk. she really was hanging around me too much.
"Because i'm trying to do the right thing. It will piss azula off... and i'm bo-"
"Let me guess, Your bored?" Ty lee interupted me with a roll of her eyes and shake of her head. "Please mai. If you were just bored you would've thrown knives at someone. Your going because you want to be all romantic with him and you know it." she finished her thought with a small giggle, unaware of the battle in my heart and mind.
"ty i should've told him, shown him i'm not a stone, something. Maybe then... we could've... been happy." i blurted as i rested my chin on my knees sighing and wishing he were here to hold me, or do something stupid so i could laugh. wishing i was stronger, wishing none of this had ever happened. mostly wishing i could turn back time and follow him wherever he wished to go. be the girl who i always wanted to be. Or at least the one I think I want to be. The one he wanted.
"there's still time. don't worry.." ty said holding me as i wept into her shoulder. knowing full well that all this pain i felt was my own fault and there was no one to blame but my stupid self. i only hoped my family would be ok. i wish i had told them all i loved them instead of being so cold and rude. i wished i'd never met azula, that horrid bitch. i hoped i'd get scars from my wounds so when i took azula down i'd have something to remind me that i have no reason to feel guilt about betraying her or making her pay. then i suddenly thought about what zuko would think if he saw them. would he be angry? or would be care at all? of course i'd have to allow him to see first so i could probably just hide them forever. Unless... then the idea of being that naked in front of zuko made me blush and squirm. damn him. one day soon i'll make him pay for this.
ty giggled and said, "thinkin of zuzu again? geez and you say i'm bad." ty got up and checked to rice then piling some on a plate handing it to me as i finished tying my belt.
"i don't know what your talking about. You practically throw yourself at guys, I mearly had a thought about one guy. or idiot is probably a better description. thanks for the rice ty, what did you put in this?" i asked in attmept to get her to drop the fact that i was thinking about him agian.
"ok mai. ok, just keep tellin yourself that. lets eat and get some sleep. maybe you'll dream about handsome zuzu some more?" she teased nudging me making me blush more. damn my inability to control that.
we quickly finished and cleaned up so we could leave as soon as we woke in the morning. i quickly dozed off dreaming of course of zuko. damn, why did ty always have to be so right.
