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****************** [REMORSE] ******************
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"Huh?"
'… Why…?'
"******?"
I can't feel my body
"… ***?"
Everything is so dark
"…***…!"
'…***…? Ah…'
"FOR FUCK SAKE ****** STOP!"
'… I'm dying'
"You shouldn't have helped her"
'Ngh!...'
"That's not an excuse for…!"
'This… Hurts…'
**Boom… Boom… Boom**
'Explosions…?'
**Boom… Boom… Boom**
'No… It is the sound of my heart about to explode…'
"Why the hell did you do that?!"
'A-ah…!'
"Move aside ******"
'It hurts!'
"I won't let you do it"
'It hurts so much…!'
"It was her choice"
'My choice?'
"…"
'It hurts!'
"…***!"
I can hear someone screaming my name…
"***!"
'She sounds… Sad…'
"***…"
**Drip**
'Tears…?'
The pain gets worse and worse with each second
"…WAaaAaAa"
But I can't scream…
I only want to scream…
Show my pain to the world
[God doesn't listen]
I've have always heard how people…
"Get down!"
… Could see their lives right in front of their eyes when there about to vanish from existence
"AAAAHH!"
… But I can't see anything
[You can only see darkness]
'Adonai…'
"It's not too late!"
'Yahveh…'
"Hurry! Before she…!"
'Hashem…'
"¡*******!"
'Elohim…'
"****!"
'Whatever is your name…'
[Give me another chance]
"Ha… ***, you're tougher than you look"
I can feel something hot going up my throat…
"Khufg…"
I vomit blood
"…***!"
In this eternal darkness, time has stopped
'I'm sorry…'
"***!"
'… Who am I apologizing to?'
"***** Get out of there!"
'… Why am I apologizing?'
"***** We cannot leave her!"
'… What do I get by? …'
"Lady ******* Please give the order!"
I don't get it…
"****** END *****!"
I don't get anything!
"Gh…".
In this eternal darkness, time has stopped
[Give me another chance]
But just how this pain suddenly appeared…
"***!… ***!…"
'Don't cry…'
[… Make it end]
It dissapears
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********** [SOLITUDE] ***********
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How long has it been?
"Hoshiko, do you have today's Math notes?"
"Huh? Of course, here you have them Saki"
"Yay! You're the best! I love you! Marry me!"
"Aaaaaah! Saki, stop~! I'm going to get angry~!"
I puff my cheeks, and smile while watching those memories
"…"
"Hoshiko…"
"Everything is okay… Mommy is here"
In the middle of the rain, my mother tries to calm me after losing our pet
"Hoshiko! Hoshiko!"
"Akemi!"
"Look, look! Saki and me are in the same classroom this year!"
"Ah~ I'm glad~"
"Moo! At least fake that you care!"
"Ah! But I really care!"
Akemi looks at me inquisitively
"Pffft"
And then starts laughing
"I'm just kidding~ I know you care, dummy"
How long…?
"Hoshiko?"
"Shhh!"
"What?"
"Ma-da…"
I point towards that nostalgic sakura tree on our academy
"Oh~ Oh? Madara huh~?"
I nod nervously
"Oi! Madara! You're free this Saturday?!"
"S-saki?!"
"Sure! Wanna hang out?!"
"Let's go to a Karaoke! Hoshiko is coming with me!"
"Sounds good! Tell me the details on Line!"
How long has it been since…?
"¡Hoshiko!"
"¡Hoshiko!"
"HANG ON!"
"HOSHIKO!"
"Akemi! Call a doctor! No… Call an ambulance!"
"Ah… ¡A-ah…"
Just how long?
"Miss Cariel… We are very sorry to inform you… But we found your daughter's corpse today at 17:00"
"Ho…Shiko?"
"Two young girls yet to be identified called for an ambulance just before the incident, we s–"
"Officer, there must be a mistake"
"Miss Cardiel?"
"Hoshiko"
"…?"
"… Is in her room"
Was I living a lie?
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In this eternal darkness, time has stopped
"Tell me, why papa left me?"
"I don't know, maybe because you are extremely ugly?"
"How cruel!"
"But it is true"
"Is that why Madara never wanted me?"
"That's why Akechi left you"
"Who is Akechi?"
"Who is Madara?"
"…"
"…"
"… Who am I?"
"Who are You?"
"I am You"
"Then You are Me"
"Well said"
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In this eternal darkness, time has stopped
"Tell me, why papa left me?"
"I don't know, maybe because you are extremely dumb?"
"How cruel!"
"But it is true"
"Is that why Arata cheated on me?"
"That's why Daichi used you"
"Who is Daichi?"
"Who is Arata?"
"…"
"…"
"… Who am I?"
"Who are You?"
"I am You"
"Then You are Me"
"Now we're talking"
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Time…
"What is time?"
"Is it tasty?"
"I think it is some kind of game"
"Ah! Is it dangerous?"
"Yes, it goes on and on, it never stops, it never waits for anyone"
"What an interesting game"
"Wanna try it?"
"Can I?"
"Sure"
"You just have to sign here"
"Sign?"
"Just sign here"
"Me?"
"Sign"
"…"
"SIGN!"
'Time never stops, tim never stops time never stos, time neve stops, te neer stops, ime ever stops, time ne stps, tim neve sops,ti neve top , ti neer stops, tieever stp, ti never stop, tme neve stop, tvps,neerstops, time ns,time ever stops, tie never sps, time neve stops,time nevers stops,tim never tops, tim never stops, tme nevr stops, time never stops, tme sp, tim never stops… Time… Never…'
"Tell me, why papa left me?"
"Are you insane?"
"Tell me, why papa left me?"
"Leave me alone"
"Tell me, why papa left me?"
"You don't have parents"
"Tell me–"
"SHUT UP!"
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Me… Is broken
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How long has it been since I started trying?
A couple minutes? A few hours? Days? What if it has been a couple years?!
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¿Cuánto tiempo ha sido desde que comencé a intentarlo?
¿Unos minutos? ¿Un par de horas? ¿Días? ¿¡Y si han sido un par de años?!
"…"
I don't know
But I no longer feel pain
This void has become my friend
It's been so long; I've had too much time in my hands
Too much time to think
"Ah~ Ah~ I'm so bored!"
At some point, I gave birth to a second personality
"What is Me doing?"
It only had one function
"Nothing"
To keep me busy
"I always thought that the whole 'Being alone for too long will drive you crazy' was a lie"
"But you were wrong?"
"But I was wrong"
"Although, what drives you mad is not loneliness, it is–"
"Not having something to keep you busy"
"After thinking it over and over again–"
"During quite some time, I reached the conclusion that this madness was created by how us humans are not used to hear our own thoughts"
"There is nothing scarier"
"Than You"
"…"
"Ah~ Ah~ I'm so bored!"
"…"
"Why don't you tell them?"
"Tell them?"
"How even though you don't have a body, for some reason you can talk"
"…"
"That shouldn't be possible under human standards, right?"
"…"
"And then you would ask them if after so much time they still think you give a damn about human logic"
"…"
"You cannot let yourself get trapped by common sense"
"ENOUGH!"
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"Hey, Me"
"Yes, Me?"
"How long are we going to be trapped here?"
"I don't know, maybe a couple millennia?"
"Ugh… Sounds so boring"
"But I thought you liked this place"
"No... I don't"
"That's not your line"
.
"Hey, Me"
"Yes, Me?"
"How long are we going to be trapped here?"
"I don't know, maybe a couple millennia?"
"Ugh… Sounds so boring"
"But I thought you liked this place"
"No… Don't get me wrong, I learned to like this place, it is peaceful, and being alone–"
"Being alone stops being a problem after a while… But being trapped with Me is hell!"
"Hey… You should be careful with your words, or I might leave you…"
"That's right!"
"Ah… I'm sorry… No… Don't go"
"Humpf! Pfffft~!"
"Mu…"
"Mukyu!"
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Situations like me talking 'with the other Me' are more common than what you can imagine.
However, you tell me… What would you do in my place?
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"It's time"
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**Tic**
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"It was fun making you company"
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**Toc**
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"Please, remember that I will always be right at your side, survive and conquer everything in your path"
"No…"
"Hah?! What's up with that weird speech?!"
"NO!"
"H-hey… You are scaring me…"
"Enough!"
"Hey, Me! Are you there?"
"¡Stop!"
"… Me?"
"… Please"
"Heeeellooooooo~"
"WAAAAAAAAAH!"
The pain that once left me
"… Human"
"Human~"
"Human!"
"Human?"
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"***!"
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Is back
