"Tsuruga-San!" Kyoko sang as she roused me from my bed, " If you don't get up you will only have to get ready for your photo shoot immediately and won't have time for breakfast, and we don't want that to happen do we?"

As Kyoko finished her strangely threatening speech I quickly hopped out of bed. Kyoko could be quite scary sometimes.

Although Kyoko continued to glare at me I could only smile thinking, In less then an hour I can kiss you, I can finally touch you without pretending, Kyoko… Kyoko I can be yours, I can belong to you, and you to me. We can be together.

Thinking these thoughts I couldn't help but laugh out loud, and on a spontaneous impulse I twirled Kyoko around.

"Well… um… Er- Did Tsuruga-San have a good dream?" Kyoko asked hesitantly, seemingly wondering what could have caused my bout of insanity, yet not altogether finding my insaneness unpleasant.

I felt my face dim, remembering my nightmare; Kyoko seeing this change abruptly backpedaled sputtering as she said, "Oh sorry! I did not mean to pry! Here, why don't we eat now?"

"Fine." I said hating how I sounded so cold, and I desperately wanted to scream, No Kyoko! I was just thinking of how you could leave me… I felt angry because you might leave me, not because you brought up dreams! Why can't I tell you this? Why is it that I am such a coward?

But despite thinking all of that I could only walk behind Kyoko as she led me to the sweet smelling breakfast that Kyoko made just for me.

We sat down and we said together "Itadakimas!"

And we began eating. At first there was an awkward silence but after a few minutes Kyoko relaxed again and we began a conversation.

After breakfast Kyoko looked at her watch and yelped, "Tsuruga-San! You have to be a your photo shoot in an hour!" As Kyoko frantically ran around preparing my outfits I couldn't help but roll my eyes. It took me ten minutes max to get ready and twenty minutes to get to the photo shoot. But even as I thought that I noticed how Kyoko was running around with such a determined look in her eyes, how she was so set on making sure I got to my photo shoot on time, despite the fact that her duty, making me eat, was over and done.

I kept my eyes on her the entire time she was scrambling to put together the outfits that had already been selected for me. As she finally messed up my clothes to her satisfaction she turned towards me. Seeing my watching her she became self-conscious started to fidget with her own clothes. She was looking down now and while she wasn't looking I walked towards her, until I was standing right in front of her.

I lifted up her chin so I was staring at her directly in the eyes. This was it; he would tell her he loved her. The time was now when Kyoko was looking at him with a slight blush on her cheeks and her eyes were dewy and wide. I would confess now, when time seemed to slow down so it felt like I could be this close to Kyoko for forever.

I tried to put all my love and admiration into my eyes and voice. I opened my mouth to speak to her the soft praises I had sung to her in my mind countless times, to tell her that I had only to think of her in order to cheer up or be more motivated. I even moved slightly so one hand was touching the small of her back and one was cupped on the back of her neck. Taking a deep breath so that Kyoko's scent filled my nose I began, " Kyok-"

"Ren! You are going to be late for your photo shoot if you do not come with me this- Am I interrupting something?" my idiotic, interfering, no-good manager said in awe.

"No." I said smoothly, after I had quickly and effortlessly extricated myself from Kyoko. "Let's go to the photo shoot." With that last word I walked briskly out of the door, only glimpsing Kyoko's expression. That one glimpse was enough to almost make me go mad. It was the same one I had seen in my dream. Less than twenty-four hours after making a promise to myself I had broken it. I had abandoned her. I had abandoned Kyoko in a way I could never dream could hurt her that badly. I had left her when she was most vulnerable, most open. When she had finally started to accept love again I was embarrassed and I left.

Although I left the apartment quickly I could swear I heard someone sobbing, and that's when I realized it was me. Big, fat, albeit silent, tears were flowing down my face. I was crying. I was crying because I loved Kyoko.