This is the alternate ending to Missing. I just couldn't leave it like I did. It's a songfic to the song "The Last Night" by Skillet.
Taylor held the razor over her wrist, shaking as a million thoughts raced through her head. It was all a lie. She wasn't perfect, she was the exact opposite. She had been so close for so long and her mom's biting words had just pushed her too far. She had literally felt herself break and die inside. The words rang through her head. Taylor can't you do anything right! You messed everything up! Just leave, I won't miss you! Taylor's eyes filled with tears. No one would miss her when this was over and she knew it. She wasn't worth it. She never had been. Her parents split because of her and she ruined her mother's life. She pretended to be stuck up and dumb at school to hide her pain which made people hate her. Suddenly a sob rose from her throat. Could she do this? She felt herself sink to her knees. She dropped the razor and pressed her hand to her mouth as she starting crying. What was she doing? Was she that pathetic? She felt all the emotions and memories she tried to forget come to the surface. She just wanted it to end. She wanted to make it stop. She tried to take a deep breath and pick up the razor again. It will all be better once this is over. That's at least what she told herself as she pressed the razor into her skin.
Eric was sitting in his room trying to muster up the courage to call Taylor. She had been really distant lately and he wanted to know if she was okay. Of course last time he asked her she blew up at him and slapped him, but he didn't care. That just made him more worried. "Eric, get down here now!" His father's loud voice rang through the house, bringing Eric out of his thoughts. He then headed down the stairs to see his father sitting on the couch watching TV. His father gestured towards the door and Eric sighed. His dad wouldn't even get off the couch to get the door. He then walked over to the door and pushed it open. He was surprised to see a soaked Taylor standing there. He opened his mouth to say something then he saw the deep red scars across her wrists.
"Taylor?" He asked softly. She whimpered then shivered from the cold. He didn't want her to have to stand out in the cold but no way was he letting his dad see her. He then stepped out into the pouring rain and closed the door behind him. He wrapped his arms around her feeling just how small her body was. "What's wrong?" He whispered. He felt her shudder against him.
"I had to say goodbye, I couldn't leave without saying goodbye." She cried into his shoulder. He pulled back from her to look her in the eyes. "I'm fine; I just needed to see you." She said not meeting his ocean-blue eyes. But he knew it was a lie.
"What do you mean goodbye? Taylor what's going on?" Eric asked squeezing her arm a little for comfort. She finally met his eyes and he could see the pain and anguish fighting beneath the surface.
"I can't do it anymore. This is the last night. I want it to end." She said determination clear in her voice. His eyes widened. Then he was hugging her again.
"No, I don't care what your mom's been telling you. I don't care what your friends have said. It's not your fault. None of it is your fault. So don't you dare… don't say stuff like that, okay." He said his voice cracking near the end. "I need you, and I won't let you be alone again." He said with the same determination she had. It was her turn to be surprised. She pulled away this time, looking him straight in the eye.
"Why?" She asked softly. Her own blue eyes searched his for something she'd never noticed before.
"Why?" He said confused. "Because I love you," He finished simply. She gasped another sob tearing its way from her throat. He stepped closer to her until his face was only inches away. She thought he was going to kiss her so she closed her eyes. She was surprised when his lips just brushed against her forehead, pulling her against him again. He knew better than anyone, right now, she just needed a friend. So they stood there for what seemed like forever that night, the rain pelting against them as they held on to each other. A night that started out that last night of something turned into the first night of something new.
I told you it would be happier. I think I like this version better just because no one dies. :) So review and tell me what you think.
