Sorry my chapters have been so short. ill make the next one longer.

I dont own twilight unfortunatly. =[[ not even jasper...

The next months drowned in a sea of loneliness. I had my mother, but being her was often out doing skydiving or bungee jumping or shopping. She egged me on to go to things like this, but what was the point of extreme sports if you knew they couldn't kill you. Or shopping when it just reminded me of Alice. I shuddered at the memory I had playing over and over in my head a thousand times a minute.

My mind was elsewhere all the time. I felt dead, really dead empty of all warmth literally and metaphorically. But then my mother came up with a great idea…

"What about school?" She asked one day. I didn't know what. I didn't really keep track.

"I finished school and I look too old anyway" I sighed and went back to my scribbles on a notepad.

"With that response Bella I think you should go back to school" I looked at my mother quizzically "You're a shape shifter stupid head!" I immediately laughed at my mothers' insult.

"I still don't get it," I said. And sighed. I hadn't laughed since… well a long time.

"Just shape shift or whatever it is you do into you when you started year 7 or something".

{AN – I'm Australian so I have no idea how American schools work. But year 7s when we start high school so yeah}

I gawked at my mother… a new start… my life without Edward. Not making the same mistakes. Being able to have more friends than before. My mother was looking awkwardly at me probably wondering if I was going to laugh or yell at her for her stupidity. "MUM YOU'RE A GENIOUS!" I said. And she generally looked surprised. But then exited that I was actually showing some signs of vague humanity. She ran off. And I wondered where she went. I caught up with her in a heartbeat. She was going through the old school photos and pulled one out of when I was in year 7. I looked at myself. Hmm. I know mum said I looked gorgeous but I thought differently. Hmm. I told mum I needed quiet if I was going to do this. I stared at the photo until the familiar tingling came into my arms and moving around my body. I sat there waiting for it to stop. When it did I got up and looked in the old hall mirror. I was…little. And not looking like the photo…well I was but… I noticed the vamp qualities about me. I looked older. And probably a lot better looking than the poor girls in year 7. I laughed at my own vainness I must have picked it up from Rosalie. I found mum on the phone talking to the principal who was someone who knew about vampires. She explained the whole thing and then said all my details. I decided this was gonna be a while so I went outside. Lucky mum had this whole secluded garden. It reminded me of the meadow me and…

No, bad thoughts.

I walked into the sun and remembered how sunny Jacksonville was how was I meant to live here! I looked at my arms anticipating the diamonds I'd once envied. They weren't there. My arms were… non shiny!

I ran. I didn't have my speed. I went to attempt to pick up a tree. I didn't have my strength. I put one hand over my heart it was beating… I was a human.

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