First of all,
I wanted to thank to all of my reviewers from the last chapter: donut
patrol, mi-amor91, xSilentxDreamsx, divine divinity, DirtyxxBlondex,
.Ink, elinnilell, and SopranoandBass. I really appreciated
all of your comments! Here we have Chapter two. Hope you like
it!
Completely relentless, I couldn't remain still…my heartbeats wouldn't slow down, and I definitely couldn't help feeling a twinge of panic, haunting every nerve of my body.
There was nothing I could do. It wasn't like I was able to go back in time and change that very moment when Edward and I found each other in the most pure gesture of our love. I could not bring myself to regret that moment, because it was, and it would always be, one of the happiest events of my life. Nothing had been wrong there…we were in love.
I still was in love.
I closed my eyes strongly. I've had always known that Edward was too good to be true, and that I obviously didn't deserve him…so I couldn't really be mad at him when he walked away from me. He didn't want to be with me…he had said it to my face. But what was I supposed to do with this? The fact that he didn't love me anymore didn't mean he wasn't kind. Edward was a gentleman.
I trusted him blindly…he would come to me, and help me raise this child. Wouldn't he?
A sigh escaped from my chest. It hurted like hell, but I needed to be prepared to take it. Edward would never come back for me…and if he came, it would only be for his son, and nothing else. I forced myself to cut all of my expectations. Dreams and fairy tales had disappeared from my life a month ago, when he disappeared and took my heart with him.
But how to find him? There were no addresses, no telephone numbers, and no clues. And it wasn't like I owned a "Vampire Phone Guide", and could call to any of them to ask. Hey, Victoria, I know we don't get on very well and I'm really sorry to bother you, but I've got a problem, you see…I'm pregnant, and I really need to find Edward Cullen. Do you think you could smell around and see if you could find him?
And yet, there was one single person who would understand. One person who had been there for me all this time. One person I really trusted. One person who would absolutely hate this…
"Jacob." I called him in an inevitably extinguished voice while I walked in his direction.
Barefooted, I felt the humid sand of First Beach in every step I made. It was an especially windy day at La Push, and the grey clouds covered irregularly the horizon, as one great heaping of dirty cotton. Somehow, it matched my mood.
Jacob, instead, seemed really happy while he chatted cheerfully with Quill and Embry, just before he noticed me. At first, he greeted me with his breathtaking smile, but then, he saw something in my face that immediately told him something was wrong…wronger than usual.
His smiled vanished, and was rapidly replaced with a worried look.
"Hey, guys, I'll catch up with you later." He said to his pals, and these two looked at him cheekily while they walked away, holding the laughter and making whispered comments between them.
"I heard that, Embry!" Jacob shouted with amusement, and then, when his friends were far enough, he came closer to me.
"Hey" I said with a knot in my throat, and as soon as he was in front of me I wrapped my weak arms around his enormous body, feeling that if I didn't, I'd fall apart. He held me tight as well, confused, but knowing I needed him.
Two tears trickled down my pale cheeks. It was as if time had stopped…everything seemed so unreal between his strong and warm arms.
"Bella…?" He asked cautiously after a minute, but he didn't let me go.
I shook my head slowly, near to his broad chest. I didn't want to talk about it now. I just wanted to feel someone close to me…It kind of remembered me the way I used to feel when Edward put his protective arms around me.
"Bella, what's wrong?" He insisted, slackening his hug, so that he could see my face more clearly.
I bit my lip and tried to hide my face. I just couldn't look into his deep dark eyes at that moment.
"I'm p--." I took a deep breath before I was able to speak again. "I'm pregnant"
Well, that's it for today. I'll probably be updating before Friday! Please, review and tell me what you think :D
