'Alex'
'Yeah?'
'Are you only doing this to get over that girl? Because, I don't want to be used by you. I love you too much'
Alex grasped my face in his hands and pulled it closer. He stared into my eyes. I felt the truth of his words when he spoke them.
'No, I'm not. I love you too, I would never use you, or do anything to hurt you'
I had no words. I never thought Alex would feel the same way about me. Our eyes were still locked on each other. Alex pulled my face even closer, almost touching. We kissed with a passion that I had never experienced before. His tongue slipped between my teeth, exploring my mouth. We stood there, in the middle of the kitchen, wrapped in our own little bubble of pure passion, for what seemed like a lifetime. When we finally pulled away from each other, the only thing I could say was,
'I love you Alex. I want to be with you like this forever'
His triumphant smile made me realise something; this could be for real. I'd never been with a man before, but I knew that If my first time was with Alex, I'd be safe. He'd take care of me.
'I know this sounds a bit awkward Charlie, but, have you ever been with a guy before?'
'No I haven't.'
He chuckled softly, 'It's okay, I've only ever been with one guy before. It wasn't for very long, I guess it just wasn't meant to be.
But I'll be gentle with you. I guess I'll have to show you the ropes.'
'Show me the ropes?'
Being gay sounds more complicated than I ever imagined.
'Well yeah, I mean, there are rules and errm, haha…..techniques.
I think you'd better sit down for this, there's a lot.'
Alex sat me down on the sofa and went back to the kitchen and fetched 2 cups of tea. I sat there on the sofa listening intently at what Alex had to say.
He went on about how we would have to use lube a lot, and how there were things we could do that you can't do with girls.
