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"I always thought of you here with me that you will only smile because of me...like me to you and how can I improve my whole self just because of you...but now...How can I?...you're happy at his side not mine...I Don't know how can I live by just knowing you're holding his hand...You're kissing his lips...and not mine..."

Tezuka thought. In the middle of the night he's holding a history book but his thoughts were at Fuji. A week ago Fuji confirmed that Saeki is courting him. And now there he is thinking about it for hundreds of time and still he's hurting and he didn't know what to do.

That very next day...before their daily practice starts.

He and Fuji accidentally bumped at each other after a week of not talking to each other.

"oh long time no see. Ne Tezuka?"

"ah" he replied still hurting.

"where are you going Tezuka?"

"on our lockers" he briefly replied

"can I accompany you to your way to our lockers?" Fuji asked

"ah" he replied

"before, I just let time pass by being with you but now it's hard to be with you for even a single minute...It's hard." Tezuka thought while staring at Fuji at his side.

"is there something wrong?" Fuji asked. He caught Tezuka staring it him. Concern is at his voice. Then he opened those blue eyes.

Tezuka just continued to stare at him "those blue eyes...I hoped that can be mine...I hoped...only to know that they can never be mine, it's for him" he's still thinking.

"uhmm Tezuka I'm just here if you'll need me I'm a friend at your side...you can tell me what's bothering you..." Fuji said really don't know what to do.

"that concern I need that but...not as a friend...i need more that just that.."

"TEZUKA!!" Fuji almost shouting just to get his attention.

"ah" he replied

He nodded and continued his way to the lockers. Leaving Fuji behind clueless of what Tezuka is really thinking.

By the time he reached their lockers, he could do nothing but to remember those days that Fuji was at his side they were happy, all the regulars were cheering, laughing while they, Fuji and Tezuka were just sitting at a corner with their silence that everyone knows. They can communicate to each other with just their silence and he misses that.

"If only I have told you what I really feels maybe you're here with me by this time" Tezuka thought.
Fuji just observed him. He's so concern why Tezuka's acting strange lately and he wants to know what's really going on him.

"Tezuka..."

"Fuji...Who am I to you?" he asked

"well...you're the "captain of Seigaku" you're my classmate and also a really good friend of mine..." Fuji answered

"good friend of mine...friend of mine...friend of..." Fuji's last words echoed his mind "only friend...you only see me as your friend?" he thought. He was so sad that Fuji only sees him as a friend not anything more than it.

"ok...you have to warm up before training hard ok" he just replied

"but Tezuka..."

"no I'm okay"

After their practice Tezuka ask Fuji privately to play a match against him. He asked him privately so that no one will watch them...so that he could express what he really feels without others knowing about it.

"ah...a match with me?" Fuji asked repeating what Tezuka have just said.

"ah"
"ok"

"This will be a one set match. I want to have your full focus and concentration not just like the last game we played. If i did not see your full focus in it you have to run laps is is that clear?"

"ok"

"let's start"

While they are playing dark clouds are starting to form, wind blew harder and big drops of rain started falling but the two are too serious to stop until.
Fuji slipped but before he reached the ground Tezuka caught him with his arms. He was glad that he was in time to catch Fuji and save him before he could hurt himself from falling.

"thanks Tezuka.." said Fuji

But Tezuka realizing how close Fuji to him just stared at Fuji

"you're so beautiful...with those blue eyes you're...undoubtedly Perfect.."he whispered

Fuji heard that soft whisper Tezuka did.

"Tezuka----"

But before he can continue what he wants to say, Tezuka wrap his arms to him hugging him tightly in the rain.
Then he noticed Tezuka crying...

"Tezu-----huh...Why are you crying?" he asked.

But the boucho didn't answer his question, instead he kissed him.

Fuji was so surprised he didn't now what to do...Is Tezuka in love with him...does this is the reason why there is great sadness and regret in Tezuka's eyes.

After kissing him, Tezuka softly whispered..."I Love You"

But Fuji instead of answering what Tezuka have had just said, he removed his arms from him get up from the ground picked his racket and started to walk away...without saying anything...

Seeing this, Tezuka got up from the ground run to where Fuji is and embraced him tightly from the back.

"please don't do this to me...can't you feel it...I'm hurting, I'm dying just seeing you with him...seeing that you're happy and contented at his side" Tezuka said while hugging Fuji tightly whose still in the rain.

But instead of answering (again) Fuji removed his arms then he faced Tezuka wearing his mask.

"we'll get sick doing like this staying in the rain so we have to change our clothes soon" he just replied

Then he continued his way to their lockers leaving Tezuka behind still crying and still...hurting but greater this time.

That very next day.
On their tennis practice...Tezuka drag Fuji to their lockers when no one can notice them. He dragged him inside so that can talk.

Inside.. he made Fuji pressed his back against the wall his left hand pressing on the wall near Fuji's face then he put his face near his face.

"Tezuk----" Fuji said but he can't continue because

" I really mean what I have done and said yesterday" Tezuka cutting him off and placing his face nearer to Fuji's

" I know he's courting you... but still I want to give it a try" Tezuka whispered almost kissing Fuji's ears

" you know...I don't know how many times I had thought about this, telling my true feelings to you, before, i thought that I have to forget my feelings because you're a man but I failed it got even stronger and stronger when I have seen you with him, I got jealous and felt weak that i even compared myself to him" He whispered softly that it tickles Fuji.

After a while Fuji replied.
"But Tezuka, do you know why I like Saeki?" asking Tezuka almost with a teasing smile

"why" Tezuka replied annoyance in his voice

"Because he's Brave" then he pushed Tezuka away then he hurriedly run to the door and went outside...crying..

Tezuka just smile "but Fuji don't you think I'm brave too" he said to himself After a moment of thinking he finally went outside that room then walked straightly to the court but surprisingly he saw everyone resting.

"What do you think you're doing?!" he shouted

"but Tezuka we had just finished our training and we decided to rest for a while" Eiji explained

"all of you resting there run 50 laps around the court!" he shouted

"but Tezuka" Inui tried to explain but...

"okay make it 70 laps around the court"

"nya nya!!!" Eiji exclaimed

"mada mada dane"...

While the others are running Tezuka's eyes are only looking for someone.
"Boucho where's Fuji-sempai? Ryoma asked while running "ah" Tezuka briefly replied

Then he called Oishi "can you take over for me...I'll just have to go somewhere" he requested "ah...ah...ok" he answered then Tezuka walked away...

Tezuka walked to the library hoping to find Fuji there, but much to his dismay he's not there, then he searched next to their classroom but still he's not there, then to the cafeteria, then to the grassy spot where they find it relaxing and a perfect place for their silence...but again he's not there. Tezuka have the faintest idea where Fuji is...when suddenly an idea popped on his mind. He hurriedly entered their building ignoring those persons who are greeting him a good afternoon. But while ascending the stairs toward the rooftop he's silently praying that he'll find Fuji there and before opening the door he again prayed.Then by the time he opened the door he felt relieved and happy to find the boy there, but suddenly he felt hurt to find the tensai crying.

He just observe Fuji...at that moment, he didn't know what to do...he knows Fuji is hurting and crying because of him.

But when the tensai sensed that someone watches him from his back, he eventually stopped crying wearing again his mask, he turned to his back only to find Tezuka standing there.

"ah...Tezuka" Fuji greeted him.

But seeing Fuji wearing his smile again he felt his heart was being hammered into countless pieces. He suddenly walk towards Fuji he stopped at his front and lie on his knees:

"Fuji I'm so sorry" he said trying all his might yo control his tears from falling

"but...ah Tezuka let's talk about it about it...but not in this way so stand up...please...stand up...I don't want to see somebody kneeling down before me so please...stand up"

"but Fuji---" he tried to say sorry again but Fuji cutted him off

"you know, a single sorry is more than enough for me" then he smiled seeing how sincere Tezuka is on apologizing on him opening those blue eyes again, then Tezuka hugged him while saying " I love you so much" but when Fuji is about to hug him back he saw a very familiar figure standing beside the door. It's Saeki!!

Fuji noticed him holding a bouquet of flowers. upon seeing him, Fuji reflexively pushed Tezuka away from him.

But Saeki's very shocked of what is happening he accidentally dropped the bouquet of flowers and he didn't know what's the right thing to do so he ran thinking that he have to go to the farthest place his feet can bring him. Fuji decided he have to run after him leaving Tezuka behind, but the latter did nothing he just bended and placed his face on his hands trying to hide his tears...

chapter 2