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VERY IMPORTANT PLEASE READ: Ok…. This chapter is dedicated to three very important ppl. First, to twilight hood, because she gave me a suggestion, one that I AM using (just not in this chapter), then to .writing. And luvtwilight4evah (DANIKINS!) for being the ONLY ppl to answer my question. COME ON GUYS! They're there for a reason. Oh, and after you read this story you should check out my other one "I Want You to Want Me." Have you noticed how that one is a song title, and so is this? Teehee!

Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters, they all belong to the goddess, Stephenie Meyer.

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Edward POV (earlier that night)

As I made my way up the stairs to Bella's dorm, I fingered the box in my apartment. Tonight was the night, the night that I would propose to my Bella. The thought made butterflies in my stomach, electricity fly through me… and wow I sound like a girl. Anyway, I was pretty sure she would say yes. I was hoping she would say yes. I loved her with every single fiber of my being, and somehow, some way, my prayers were answered and she loved me that way too. I was going to take her to my meadow, a place I had never shared with anyone. It wasn't very far from campus. I would have shared that with her sooner, but I had always envisioned proposing to her there, and it would be even more romantic because it would be her first time there.

I knew I was supposed to meet her outside of the coffee shop, but I couldn't wait to see her. Any second sooner that I could see her, I would take it. It would just be a surprise. I chuckled to myself thinking of how much my Bella loved surprises… (sarcasm there). But, it didn't matter, all I had to do was "dazzle" her, as she so often put it, into letting me surprise her. I walked up to the dorm and saw that the door was open. That was strange… maybe she was just about to leave.

However, when I got there, the sight that I saw pierced my heart like knives. She was making out with that vile Mike Newton. The one who I hated with a passion, who had always pursued her, but she had always rejected his advances. Until… now? She had her hands against his chest and was still kissing him. I ran out before I could see anymore.

I ran into my dorm, and started to cry. I wouldn't care if Emmett walked in right now and laughed at me being such a wimp, the love of my life just CHEATED on me, I think I deserved it. How could she do this to me? I thought what we had was… special? I was going to marry her. But, who knows? Maybe, she wouldn't say yes. Maybe, she was going to leave me for Mike. Or… maybe she wouldn't have said yes. Maybe, she has been with Mike for awhile now, and just never planned on me finding out.

I briefly considered the idea of hurting her just as bad as she hurt me, showing her how it feels. But, no, no matter if she didn't love me, I still loved her and I could never do that to her. So… I decided that I would just drown my sorrows in Emmett's Kaluah.

2 Hours Later…

"I briefly considered the idea of hurting her just as bad as she hurt me, showing her how it feels. But, no, no matter if she didn't love me, I still loved her and I could never do that to her."

Yeah… right.

I had gotten out all my sorrows with alcohol and Linkin Park. I hardly every listened to that because I only did when I was upset. With Bella, I never was… until now. Now, I was drunk. And pissed. I needed to hurt her, show her how it felt. She needed to feel like a knife was stabbed into her heart then ground and ground and ground. She needed to feel like a zombie. She needed to feel my pain. (A/N: Remember, good ol' Eddie boy is DRUNK… he doesn't know what he's saying)

I realized that she would probably be coming for me soon… wondering why I didn't show up for our date. The date where I was planning on asking her to be my wife… while she was savagely attacking Mike Newton with her lips…

She would probably come up to my dorm, sometime soon. I needed to let her see me hurting her, and I knew just who to use to do it. I took out my cell phone and scrolled down to the L's until I reached Lauren Mallory, one of my many unwanted pursuers.

She answered on the first ring.

"Edward?" she asked excitedly.

"Hello… Lauren… Bella and I broke up."

"I'm on my way."

Click.

Lauren was there not 5 minutes later. The minute she got there she led me to by bedroom, tore off my shirt and started kissing me. Kissing Laruen was like kissing a poodle… it was nothing like the soft, sweet kisses I shared with Bella. It was rough and… sour. It was disgusting. But, I just had to wait until Bella came to catch me in the act. Just a few more minutes…

"Edward? You there?" I heard Bella say, coming into my apartment.

Bingo.

I heard her come into my room and I continued to kiss Lauren.

"Edward-" my- I mean Bella called out, "What are you doing?"

I looked over to see her eyes got glassy, and immediately felt disgusted with myself, but then I remember what I had seen, and quickly put an "evil mask" on my face.

"Hey Bella." I had a hard time trying to sound indifferent while I slurred, but I managed.

"Eddie, what's wrong? Why'd you stop?" Lauren said. Oh, how I loath thee, I thought in my head, but she was vital to my plan. Lauren finally saw Bella.

"Oh, hello Beatrice." Bella. I wanted to correct her, but I needed to sound like I didn't care. But, Bella corrected her anyway.

"What are you doing here? Eddie loves me, isn't that right baby?" Wrong. I thought after Lauren said that, stroking my cheek, I felt sick.

"Edward is- is this true?" Bella asked crying. No, of course not. I love YOU.

She kissed Mike, she kissed Mike, she kissed Mike.

That helped.

"Yes, it's true. Honestly, I never loved you. You're too plain for me, I don't want you anymore." I said preying on all of her insecurities. I desperately wanted to tell her the truth and I was gripping the bed frame so hard, my knuckles were turning white. But, I had always been an impeccable liar, this was no different.

Just hurting the love of your life…

She kissed Mike, she kissed Mike, she kissed Mike. I thought to myself in my internal battle.

Now for the final blow.

"So… If you could go now." I said coldly. I went back to kissing Lauren until I heard the soft click of my apartment door. I quickly ushered Lauren out, ignoring her pleas that I call her tomorrow.

It wasn't until Lauren left, that I realized how badly I screwed up. I was starting to sober up, and I realized what I did was really wrong. I hurt Bella… my love. It didn't matter if that love was unrequited, it was still horribly wrong. What just happened?

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