Sorry it took me months to upload this chapter! Had writers block soooo bad! Anyway, its probably rubbish! This chapter is a bit... sexual... but its not THAT bad. I promise :) As per usual, its for the Scott & Bailet lot who I can't live without!
Oh and Hayley... IM NOT A SEXUAL PERSON!
Enjoy!
Janet watched Rachel carefully as she picked at her food, with a fork. The expression on her face was half way between sad and angry. She balanced her head on her fist. "You alright mate?" Janet asked, trying to make eye contact with the brunette but failing misserbly. Rachel gulped back on-coming tears before looking up to Janet. "Nothing." She managed to stutter out, voice a little wobbly and broken. "No its not, tell me whats up." Janet said in her best mothering voice. Brine escaped through her eyes as a long held sigh was released. "Its Gill," She whispered, protecting the rest of the world from hearing this. "Shes - I think..." Her voice broke, as more frozen tears built up in her eyes. "Alright, lets get you away from prying eyes." Janet got Rachel out of the chair she was so comfterbly slouched into, whilst she cried out her emotions.
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Rachel immediately rushed to the toilets, gagging and vomiting. "Oh shit, Rach!" Janet went to her side, dumping her bag next to Rachels. She gently moved back Rachels silky brunette hair, holding it out of the way as her best friend - and more - projected her puke. "What on earth is wrong with you?!" Janet exclaimed. Rachel sat up from having her head half way down the toilet. Janet caught a quick glimpse of tears in Rachels eyes. "I drank myself to sleep last night," Rachel managed to speak, inbetween gasps for air. "I... I don't think I matter to Gill anymore!" She broke down again, feeling the pain rise up in her stomach. "Thats stupid!" Janet pushed off the floor, and made her way over to the mirror and sinks. She could see Rachel sobbing, in the mirror. "Why would you evern think that?! I've seen the way she looks at you, Rac-"
"Why are you getting so stressed and agitated?" Rachel said each word louder and louder as she went along the sentence, screeching the last word. "Because I love you Rachel! And you chose her over me and it kills me seeing you with her, knowing what you get up to in her office... It sickens me!"
Rachels soft groans of illness faded as she stood up and faced the blonde woman, teary eyes locked on teary eyes. Her mouth opened as if she was to speak, yet no words came out. Her cheeks went bright red, making her cheek bones obvious. "You... you love me?" She stuttered, watching Janet turn away in embarrasment. "Well, you're not just a cheap shag." Janet finally spoke after a long moment of pure silence. Rachel giggled a little, accidently releasing another tear. "Aren't I?"
"No." Janet sighed. "You're not to me." She walked towards Rachel, aiming to hold her hands tight but Rachel backed away.
"But I am. I'm shagging Gill, I'm shagging you, and just last week I was shagging Sean!" Rachel gasped for air. "I'm... Gill doesn't even have proper genuine feelings towards me, and I feel used because I loved her." Rachel cried out all her emotions to her best friend, her lover, the one she was stabbing in the heart with her words. Janet couldn't stand seeing Rachel so upset and damaged. Even though she knew Rachel belonged with her, snuggling up in each others arms like they did the other night, she realised how much Rachel love and cherished Gill.
"I love her, Jan." Rachel managed to say through her crys. "Then why did you go behind her back and sleep with me?" Janet said, in her best interview voice, hinted with jealousy. "I..." Rachel started, loosing words to say, not knowing how to word the sentence. "You make me feel alive, and special, like you care about me. Gill doesn't give me that. As soon as shes done with me, she practically pushed me out the door, telling me to get out before Sammy sees I'm there. But you... It was almost like you wanted to get caught." A small grin arose on both their faces. "Your screams, and moans, its like you didn't care if Elise or Taisie walked in on us, because you wanted to show me off. Prove to everyone that I was yours! I felt wanted." She watched as Janet moved towards her, hearts connecting, pulling the two bodys closer. God, how she longed for that body! "I... I do love you. Janet Scott. I do."
"But..."
"But Gill, She just, when I'm with her I feel like I belong there. She treats my like shit though. I just can't hurt her! Shes been through so much already..."
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"Tell me about Rachel Bailey." Julie asked Gill, tipping on the heel of her stunning red shoes. "'Ey, keep your hands off her, shes mine!" Gill replied, giggling slightly as she thought about the interment moments they share. "Thats not what she told me..." Julie stirred, rather enjoying the painful look on her friends face. She looked questioning yet hurt. Like she had an awful feeling about what she was going to say. "Let me explain," Julie sighed.
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She had Janet pushed firmly against the wall as their lips collided. Her hands explored the older womans body, making her release a squeal. All the previous comments has been stored to the back of their minds. All that mattered now was there and then. Rachel lifted up Janet, causing her to laugh into the kiss, she then wrapped her legs around the brunettes waist. Suddenly, the toilet door flung wide open, and in stormed a raging Gill, face wet with salty tears. Rachel pulled away from Janet quickly, her heart beating wildly, gasping for air. "...Shit." She almost whispered.
And I leave you on a cliff hanger... not a very good cliff hanger but hey ho! :P
Review and I'll give you a *Gill hug* 3
