The Spinner's Lament
From the point of view of
Severus Snape
about
Lily Potter nee Evans.
Stealer of Hearts, you swept away with mine into Death, leaving me with no choice but to continue on as I was.
So gentle and unassumingly intoxicating, I clung to my last memories of you, those sweet years melding into decades of bitterness and of hatred… anything to keep alive, the feeling of you inside of me.
Where are you now?
Where are you now that I've made the ultimate sacrifice?
A sacrifice willingly made so that you could live on through your son, so like his arrogant stag of a father in every way save two.
A sacrifice I would have made willingly over and over again if it meant I could have but one more childhood memory with you… a sacrifice I would have made willingly over and over again if it meant I could have finally won your heart.
Proud doe, you chased away all traces of innocence I had left when you chose your beloved stag over your oldest friend.
My only thread connecting me to the world outside of my nightmarish existence, you broke away so easily, acting as if you had never been attached at all. If only you knew how the separation pained me… how it still pains me still; even now, in death, as I wait for you to find me.
Where are you now?
Where are you now that I'm finally free of my earthly shackles?
Earthly shackles I would have gladly kept had they meant I would see you again. Even now, in death, I can still feel the torn remnants of a letter never meant for my eyes in the breast pocket of my robes… even now I can reach into the same pocket and pull out a tattered half of a photograph and look lovingly upon a face that never aged past twenty-one years.
Where are you now, Stealer of Hearts?
Where are you now?
I promised myself once that I would never let you go and I've kept that promise through all the bitter, wasted days and weeks of my life… and in death I keep it now and will forevermore.
Always.
Inspired by the lovely Just-Giddy..
