"Elena?" she opened her eyes to a pair of icy blues and a smirk that she would always remember, "Damon." she whispered as he pushed a lock of her hair behind her ear. "I missed you, why did you leave?" he smiled weakly, "I never left, you know I could never leave you."
Elena woke up with a gasp, the dreams she has been having are all similar, teasing her, making her think the moment she woke up he would be waiting for her, but he wasn't, he never was. She stood up from Stefan's bed, looking at herself in the mirror across the room. Stefan was never there in the morning and wouldn't return till night, it was as if she was dating a ghost, which wouldn't be such a long shot considering everyone she knew now a days was a vampire. She started off every day with her morning ritual, shower, brush teeth, brush hair, etc. then she headed down to the kitchen, making herself breakfast and walked out on to the back porch of the boarding house, opening up to a new page in Damon's journal.
May 23, 2009
Today I met a girl; she was on the phone with her parents. I could hear her talking, asking for them to pick her up from the foolish high school party in the woods. We crossed paths and she looked just like Katherine, all the way down to the eyes. She said her name was Elena, never had I heard such a beautiful name. I regret it now, but I had to compel her, I didn't want anyone to know I was in town just yet. I told her what she wanted to hear, what any sixteen year old girl wanted to hear. I told her she wanted adventure and mystery, someone fun and caring, all that kind of junk. Because deep down, I didn't want her to wind up with some jerk like that Lockwood kid. Later that night though, she had gone over that bridge with both of her parents after they picked her up. They died but Stefan saved her, it should have been me, but she deserved something better, a guy she could count on which clearly wasn't me. Then I look back at it and didn't I send her straight into baby bro's arms! I should have never come back, but I did and I don't plan on leaving anytime soon, at least without tantalizing Stefan first.
Elena closed the book, stunned at what she had just read. So she didn't meet Stefan first! That's what he meant the night he left! She curled up in the wicker rocking chair, she felt so stupid, but it wasn't her fault, like he wrote, he compelled her to believe she wanted Stefan instead of him. She heard the door open and shut, she headed back inside to put her dishes in the dishwasher and found Caroline sauntering into the kitchen, "Hey Elena." Elena turned to face her best friend, "Hey, Care?" "Yeah?" "Can I tell you something?" worry swept across the blonde's face, "Yeah, you can tell me anything, you know that." Elena raised a brow, "Without blabbing to Tyler." Caroline placed a hand over her heart, "I'm hurt." "Remember how you told him how I thought Damon was going to die and I kissed him goodbye?" "Ok, fine. I won't say a word, pinky promise?" she stuck out her pinky. Elena grinned, "pinky promise." they linked pinkies and chanted, "never will I ever speak a word of our secrets." they giggled at their 3rd grade choice of words as Elena led Caroline up to Damon's room, knowing that he had a witch spell the room so no supernatural could ease drop. In her hand, Elena held Damon's notebook, "Caroline, when Damon left I found this." she held it out for her to see, "when he didn't come back for it, curiosity got the best of me." Caroline's eyes widened, "you read his diary?" Elena smiled weakly, "I just had to know what was going through his mind all these years." "well it couldn't be much, like you said Damon is a caveman, it probably just says, me love Elena why Elena not love Damon?" she giggled at her own words, "not funny, what I just read before you got here, it's something I never knew." Elena said. "Oh come on Elena, what do we actually know about him?" "Care, it says I met him first." Caroline stopped talking, looking confused, "but wouldn't you know who you met first?" "Here read it for yourself." Elena handed over the journal, as Caroline began to read. Moments later she gasped, looking up from the book, "and he calls you a martyr!"
Elena chuckled lightly, "Yeah isn't that just great, all this time he has been pushing me away without even him knowing it!" "So what are you going to do?" Elena sighed, "The only thing I can do." "And what is that?" "Wait for him to come back."
