I stood in quiet in the shower. Usually, I sing, but not today. The only thing that could be heard, was the running water. I walked out of the shower because I couldn't take the heat anymore. I didn't need a shower in the first place, I just felt like it. What is Kira doing now, I thought.

Shame was what I felt when I saw myself in the mirror. How could I live with myself after what I did, what I'm still doing. Kira doesn't deserve this…

"Yes, he does." My reflection said.

"Kira is such a… nice person. He doesn't deserve this… I should end this now before it's to late. If I just stop now, we could start over again. I now it will work. I know that."

"Kira promised us! He said he would protect Father's ship."

"…"

"You haven't forgotten have you?"

I stared hard into my own grey eyes. How could I forget my Father's death. I saw it myself. "Revenge, huh?"

"All coordinators should die…"

This is stupid. I'm talking to myself. I starting to go insane, if I haven't already…

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I walked back to my quarter. Our quarter. Kira was lying on the bed. His expression told me he wasn't having a pleasant dream. He looked very tired too. Some shiny tears rolled halfway down his cheek. What was he dreaming about?

Slowly, I sat down beside the sleeping brunette. I touch his face carefully, wiping away his tears. Such a crybaby… I took off my pink uniform and lay down beside Kira. He made some small noises and turned so that he faced me. His eyes opened halfway. Amethyst met grey. They say that the eyes are the window to ones soul. Kira must defiantly have the most beautiful soul in the universe, but I knew that he wasn't happy. He was fighting his own kind. And his best friend…

"Fllay," He mumbled and closed his eyes.

"Kira…" I whispered before placing a light kiss on his forehead.

Did he love me? Would he still do after he finds out about me? Did I love him?

As I wiped away the rest of his tears, I thought about the times I had spent with him. It was sad that it had to end soon. Maybe tomorrow. I did not know. "Fight until he dies just to make me happy."

A part of me didn't want it to end, but I had to finish my plan, avenge my father. I had to use Kira.

"I'm so sorry…"

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"Fllay? Are you awake?" I heard Kira whisper.

I pretended I was asleep. He said something, but I didn't understand it anyway. He was now sitting and stroking my hair. Couldn't he just go now? I wanted time for myself. I needed time for myself.

The alarm went off. Someone was attacking us.

I opened my eyes slowly and saw Kira getting dressed. He noticed me, but didn't say anything. Quickly, he went out of the door and to the hangar. He didn't even say a thing to me, not a bye, not a good morning. Nothing. Our relationship contained a very small amount of talking. Stupid Kira. He should have said bye to me…

"What if he's not coming back," I thought