Chapter 2 - Needs and Wants

Bella's POV

Lying in Edwards arms, I closed my eyes tightly as the early morning sunlight shone brightly into them, blinding me briefly before I was able to refocus and enjoy the warmth it brought with it, as it spread across my cool skin. My head rested on Edwards strong hard chest, one arm tucked toward me the other loosely wrapped around his middle. I could feel the full lenght of his hard toned body as we lay there together, naked. My skin warming and his cold like marble. I hadn't been awake for very long. Edward was quiet, I wasn't sure if he'd realised that I wasn't sleeping any more or perhaps he just chose to enjoy the peaceful moment of contentment that we both felt. One of my legs was draped over his thigh, the sheets barely covered the bottom half of both our bodies.

I let my thoughts drift back to the previous night, remembering everything that had happened between us.

Flashback

Edward pulled away from what had been a long unrelenting assault on my lips and neck, the full weight of his body was on me now apart from his arms which were strained on either side of my head as he looked down at me through fiery eyes that burned with an intensity and left me trembling below him. He didn't hide his feelings from me, I could read his face, there was a hunger there. It terrified and exhilarated me all at once. He leaned down on his elbows now, bringing himself closer toward me but his eyes remained fixed and focused on their prey. He seemed to have stopped breathing, not that he needed to but it made him appear very still, almost unreal like a statue. He was frozen. I didn't know what he was thinking in that moment and I desperately wished I did, what thoughts were running through his mind? Was he deciding, was he making his decision to go through with this? I wanted him to, the need for it scorched my insides. I couldn't wait any longer, why should we? I needed to feel him. He barely had to touch me to draw the most thrilling, fervently unrestrained, wild and wanton emotions from me. Edward must have known the effect his touch had on me. To have it taken away was nothing but torture and in this moment, if he stopped I think I would have honestly died.

"Edward" I gasped at him, the irrepressible thirst in my voice was blatant.

A low, deep imperative growl slowly escaped his lips coming from deep within him. I took a sharp intake of breath at the sound which made my senses react wildly. No more words were able to come from my lips, I lost the ability to talk now. My mind was racing and my heart thudding loudly in my ears. A combination of a whimper and a sigh slipped from my mouth between my heavy uncontrolled breathing.

He closed his eyes then, very slowly taking a moment before opening again. His topaz eye's had turned very dark, almost onyx, reminding me when his hunger for blood was becoming a necessity for him. My trembling was growing at an overwhelming rate as the seconds passed by, the anticipation was becoming too much.

"Bella" his voice was shallow and throaty. "I do not think I am able to stop myself…….. I…can… not!" it sounded like a confession. "Ask me to stop……….……beg me" he pleaded in a strained whisper and he let the full force of his eyes fall on me, a craving which pierced, mixed with uncertainty and fear.

"No" my shaky whimper was barely audible. "No!" I repeated to him.

He closed his eyes briefly in defeat before bending his head closer towards me, allowing his cool lifeless breath to arouse my skin.

"You have to listen to me Bella, do you understand?" he asked. I could only nod in response. "You need to let me to take the lead, you must allow it. There is no other way we can do this. Do you understand that?" he repeated, his voice had become more audible and his tone serious as he desperately tried to emphasise the words to me. He was scared, he was going to take things further than he'd ever allowed before and he didn't know what he was capable of. I understood that clearly but I trusted him and needed him. I also knew that he wanted this as much as I did. I nodded slowly again at him. He seemed to swallow hard as he concentrated on my silent answer.

I gasped as he suddenly pulled away from me and leaned right back. He was on his knees, sitting on the bed before me. I remained still and unmoving, obedient to his wishes. He was going to take the lead and I had to wait patiently for his actions. His head began to tilt very slowly to his left side before doing the same on his right, and his eyes never left mine. It was almost animalistic, as if he were a predator hunting his prey, the scrutiny of his concentrating gaze was intense. Then his pale fingers slowly began to unbutton his dark blue shirt, so carefully, distracting me. I watched as it was thrown away from him and floated to the floor at the side of the bed. My eyes moved to take in his toned marble white chest, the muscles appeared smooth and he looked so beautiful. I desperately wanted to reach out and touch him but I knew that was impossible. A rush ran through my middle as my stomach began to coil tighter and tighter. So tight that it hurt.

His hands reached down towards me and he quickly pulled off my shoes and socks before moving upwards, he paused staring at my waist. The concentration strained across his forehead. His fingers brushed lightly over the waist of my jeans, a second later they were completely peeled from my body and I gasped when my bare legs felt the air of the room around us. Leaning over me swiftly, too fast, he was above me now then I felt him slowly lower himself towards me. Black eyes locked with mine. Cool fingers crept under my t-shirt making me shiver before I suddenly realised that too was floating to the side of the bed to join his shirt on the floor. Now in just my bra and panties a burning began to built between my thighs in anticipation to his touch. The rush through my middle gave me no peace and my heart thudded deeply at terrifying speed.

"Calm…….be calm my love" he whispered so gently that my stomach lurched forward and I nearly whimpered. I was trying to be calm but the exhilaration I was going through would now allow my body to feel calm. Tense. I felt on the edge of something new, unfamiliar and utterly salacious. It was thrilling and I could only shudder.

He smiled slowly, a dark carnal smile as his onyx eyes seemed to shine. Then I gasped as he brought his lips unrepentantly to my neck, kissing and licking me. My head leaned right back into the pillows and my mouth fell open at the pleasure his cool lips brought to the burning skin there. I could feel his hand reaching behind my back as he unclasped my bra and a second later it was gone. I let out a surprise breath, realising I was exposed to him for the first time, my bare breasts in plain view of his predatory gaze. I felt a pull between my legs again as my muscles contracted within me. I bit my lip nervously and glanced down to see his black eyes piercing mine, that his mouth was hovering over one my breasts and a wicked lustful grin tugged at the corner of his lips. Unashamedly his gaze pulled down to its desire and his wet mouth was on my breast, his kissing and licking continued. An audible groan slipped from my lips as his teeth crazed my nipple between sucking and kissing. My hand instinctively reached for the back of his head and my fingers found their way into his thick bronze hair, clutching it tightly. His hand grabbed my other breast and his fingers teased the nipple there taut. All I could do was moan deeply in response to his fervid and forbidden actions.

Edward took his time. Cool lips, tongue, teeth teasing and tasting my breasts. He was savouring every second, and those seconds turned into minutes.

My head pressed deeper and deeper back into the bed and my chest arched up towards his lips. I felt his hand slide slowly down my body and his fingers pushed under the edge of my panties. His fingers were so smooth and cold making goose bumps rush across my bare flesh. The fingers moved unhurried down below the fabric reaching for their goal. I gasped loudly as he touched my core. Fingers rubbed circles around my damp sensitive nub over and over. I felt a faint glimmer of embarrassment when I heard the deep groan that poured from my lips, I was moaning shamefully and I could not stop. The ecstasy he brought me was indescribable. His actions became gradually more hurried and harder then his finger slipped deep within me before another joined.

"So warm..." he almost sobbed.

Edwards palm pumped hard against me as his fingers pulled in and out roughly. I thrust up to meet them with every stroke, gasping at the pleasure and heat it brought. Edward was growling lowly against my breast his assault there had been unrelenting also. As I felt myself beginning to cum his lips pulled away and I opened my eyes when I felt his icy breath against my face. He was watching me. Onyx eyes dark and focused, he concentrated on my face enjoying the pleasure he brought me, wanting to watch me cum. I was panting and my eye's were locked with his.

"I love you" he mouthed silently and my insides convulsed and contracted so intensely my eyes shut tightly as came loudly moaning Edwards name.

My first orgasam with him.

I'd had many with him before this moment. But they were thanks to my imagination and I had been utterly alone. Trying to relieve the tension he'd always left me with.

But this was real. This was him doing it to me. This was really happening.

Panting deeply, and breathlessly I took a long moment to recover. When I opened my eyes once more his face was leaning over mine intently. A curious look in his eyes. I felt his fingers gently brush wet hair between my legs and I realised I was completely naked now. I didn't feel shy anymore or embarrassed. I felt only safe, wanted and completely loved. I could also feel Edwards bare legs and cool skin. He had removed what was left of his clothes and I hadn't even felt him do so. He continued to stare at me and brushed the sweat from my forehead gently.

"I love you so much" he said quietly.

"I love you Edward, I love you forever" I whispered back and my voice was strained with emotion.

"Make love to me" I begged him now.

His expression changed and he seemed to focus and his eyes intensified. I felt his knee begin to push my damp thighs apart, as he leaned right over me now. He rested his weight on one elbow easily, I brought my hands up to rest on his strong muscular back. I let out a breath when I felt his cool hardness rubbing against my inner thigh. I dared a glance and saw him for first time. He was larger than I expected. A nervous thrill ran through my body in anticipation. My heart began to race and my breathing became short and shallow. I wanted to reach out and touch him but I knew I couldn't allow that, not now. This was complicated enough and I knew everything that had happened up to this point must have taken Edward so much restraint and self control. His thirst for my blood must have been beyond anything he'd ever felt before now. He leaned lower and both of his legs forced mine to spread apart wide enough to give him the room he needed. His black eyes burned now, with a blistering fire that he fought to keep control of. He pushed forward slowly and I could feel him at my entrance.

"Do you trust me?" he whispered with need.

"Eternally" nodding back at him. He was seeking permission from me to go on.

His lips came crashing down on to mine in that second kissing me with a such passion and then I felt him push forward so rapidly he was roughly inside of me in an instant breaking my barrier. Edward whined and then I heard him take a sharp intake of breath. I let out a painful loud groan while trying to consciously suppress the sound but it was impossible. He was so deep within me, filling my insides as they stretched to capacity. I gasped and whimpered at once. I felt sob nearly slip from my lips but was able to hold inside. He was suddenly very still and his lips pulled from mine. I opened my eyes to see his own in pain and my heart ached at the sight of him.

"I love you Edward" I gulped breathlessly, my voice tipped with emotion. My desire emanating from me despite the pain.

I closed my eyes briefly and nodded gently, to reassure and encourage him on. He looked scared but his lips came back to mine and he kissed me deeply. I let my hand gently run down his smooth cold back to cup at his ass, willing him to continue. He did so. I could feel him start a rhythm and he began to pull in and out of me, slowly. My pain began to ease much to my surprise and a pleasure begin to build from deep within. The tempo increased gradually and I could feel my own body and hips begin to grind with his as we rocked back and forth over and over again. Edwards lips came to my neck and he buried his face there. My stomach spasmed when I heard him starting to moan and whimper. His desire overwhelming him. He groaned deeply between his near sobs, as the feelings coursed through his body and mind like my own. Listening to him like this brought me inexpressible pleasure and my heart throbbed for him. My lover. He gradually became louder and louder sounding more desperate as the seconds passed. One of his hands gripped on to my hip roughly as he rode out his orgasm, I came almost immediately at the same time, my hand grasping at his hair. Edward finished with a loud guttural moan before collapsing on top of me. His head nuzzled into the crook of my neck.

End of Flashback

Lying now peacefully after much needed sleep. I knew that our first night together was beyond anything I'd ever expected. And despite the circumstances of how it came about I knew that I did not regret it at all. The closeness we shared now, no one could ever take away from us. It was what I'd been waiting my whole life for. The closest to heaven both of us would ever get. Our bond was stronger and I suddenly realised that everything Edward did was for me. Every action, every thought, every plan was for my best interests. I knew I trusted him completely. Forever. He was forever mine.