It's the way that she looks at him with those emerald's that she calls eyes. The way that she just looks so broken- yet she's able to hide it behind a mask. A little to well to be quite honest. She still loves him. Surprisingly enough, she makes it really obvious. You'd think that Jade West would be able to hide how she's feeling a whole lot better and she can...but you don't blame her for not being able to right now.

But they're broken up. She's the one who set the deal down when Beck had had enough when they were arguing at your house. She's the one who ended up keeping her word and saving if he didn't open the door and take her home himself. She's the one that's slowly dying on the inside as she watches Beck kiss Trina with the same passion that they once shared. It's horrible, you know that. But you can't help but have that selfish side- the side that's glad that Beck has moved on (which also helped with getting Trina to finally shut up about making the Canadian hers). The side that is giving you that hope that you actually have a chance with Jade...but you know that it's just false 's no way that she can love you while she's still in love with a guy that has moved on and basically tossed her aside.

It's his life. You know that you can't blame Beck for moving on. He wasn't happy in their relationship. Although Trina is well...Trina, she knows how to treat her man right. Showering him with affection, cooking him meals filled with love even though she's a terrible cook (but its the thought that counts,right?).Although Beck is happy now, it doesn't stop you from wanting to hurt the guy for hurting Jade like this. The sad part is that you just know that he doesn't know what he's doing to her.

Your not sure how Beck and Trina ended up together. Heck, you thought that Trina was just speaking a bunch of bull that one night where she said that she just came back from a date with Beck and how it was just magical. But you were proven wrong when you found them making out on the living room couch, especially since Trina had stayed home from school, feigning sickness. You didn't even question Beck being absent either, you just thought that he was up really late working on the vintage car that his father had given him to drive, as long as he fixed it that is.

You weren't sure what to tell Jade when you found out. You wanted to tell her, but then you didn't at the same time. The last thing you wanted was for her to threaten you with her new pair of scissors or just laugh in your face at the thought of Trina actually winning Beck over and then having to prove her wrong in the end. It was a lose-lose situation in the end, so you decided to keep your mouth shut and let her find out herself.

Your not sure how many hours you spent with Cat, being that raincloud in her life, but she was able to give you that small bit of sunshine to keep you sane and your thankful to have a friend like her. You confided in her and she listened intently. She didn't call you crazy or hate you for liking her best friend, especially after her failed relationship. Heck, she thinks that you and Jade would make a cute couple..but she never did say if Jade likes girls like that, which is another bump in your so called hope. You really wish that your love life never ended up just being shattered pieces and false pretenses...especially when you haven't even attempted to tell her how you feel. But why bother when you already know that the answer won't be what you want?