Hey Guys sorry I forgot to post the first chapter but to make it up to you here is the 2nd.
Prompts are welcome :).
Listening to Ed Sheeran while writing this. Love him! I loved the delena/klauroline/stelena scene with his song Give Me Love :)
Lately my journal had been my safe haven. The place where I could l be myself and not be judged. Or keep secrets. I smiled as i took it out.
January 17th 2010
329
I try to avoid Rachel.
She acts like she knows stuff ans it scares me.
I'd never had anyone find out my secret before. Even the thought of her guessing what was wrong with me was scary.
I can feel Finn slipping away from me and I just know it's that bitches fault.
I think I will talk to her find out what she knows.
I've had so much on my mind recently.
I have to give up 'Drizzle', as Finn affectionately calls her.
There is no way Finn and Carole would be able to support her without me there.
I hope she has a better life than mine.
"Miss Fabray? Are you feeling okay?" My science or english or whatever teacher asked.
"No. Not really. Would it be okay if I went to the nurse?" To be honest I didn't feel okay. But not for the reasons everyone else thought.
I'd been an emotional wreck recently. Feeling guilty about telling Finn that we had to give up 'Drizzle' up. He had been heart broken and didn't understand why I didn't want to keep her. Of course I didn't tell him the truth. I knew if I kept her that it would only be for the first couple of months of her life. After I was gone I knew my parents would not help Carole support my child.
Our child.
I didn't want to think about the future. It scared me.
"Miss Fabray!" My teacher said.
"Sorry zoned out." What was wrong with me.
"Her is your note."
":Thanks." I felt like running out the door but I knew I couldn't. People had starting to think there was something wrong, that I had depression but I knew that I would stay in this mood till my 17th birthday. A soon as I was outside I just let the walls fall down.
I hid in one of the cubicles and just let the tears roll down my face.
"Quinn? Is that you?" shit Rachel.
"Leave me alone."
"I've never had a life like yours before."
NO.
NO.
IF I DIDN'T LISTEN IT WOULDN'T BE HAPPENING.
"Well I have but I was 6 months pregnant when I turned 17."
"You sound like a crazy person."
"Quinn don't pretend you don't know what I'm talking about."
NO.
NO.
"Fine. You got me. I'm special, shoot me."
"I understand what its like."
"No you don't. You don't understand at all." Why couldn't she just leave me alone.
"Yes I do. I know exactly what you are thinking. You're wondering whether to put your baby up for adoption or to let Finn and Carole take her and hope that your parents support them. When I was pregnant I was wondering what their life would of been like if I was normal."
"But that's just it. I know I have to put her up for adoption. But your baby wasn't your boyfriends bestfriends."
"Wait what! You cheated on Finn with Noah!"
"If it makes you feel any better I was drunk and I'm regretting that night everyday now."
"Well if it makes you feel any better, my stories worse."
Well there you go.
Sorry this was supposed to be published last night but then FF was playing up and I couldn't log in.
I will try to publish the next chapter on Saturday/Sunday.
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