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It has been going for almost two weeks now and Dean was seriously getting tired of that. He was starting to think that an angry Sam was better than this Sam. And a worried Sam was better. Hell, to think of it… Even a ready-for-a-chick-flick-moment Sam was okay compared to this new Sam. Dean had always thought that he knew his little brother fairly well. Not that Sam had never surprised him before. Sure, he did. But never as much as he did this time.
For the past two weeks, since they have dealt with crossroads demon, to be precise, Sam was acting differently. At first, Dean thought that his brother was possessed. Well, after saying 'Cristo' at least three times and receiving in return confused looks from his brother, Dean decided that possession was not the case. Two days without any attempt from Sam to kill him or any other innocent creature seemed to confirm Dean's decision. Fortunately, Sam wasn't possessed by anything. However, at this point Dean was seriously debating whether it was fortunate or unfortunate. He knew how to deal with demons but he didn't seem to be capable of dealing with Sam's moods. Now, after a week you can't call this craziness "moods", right?!
After crossroads' job his nice, caring, devoted brother transformed into a complete stranger. Yes, he was still doing research for their job, still found them new things to hunt but he was acting differently. He no longer laughed at Dean's joke or did it only half-heartedly. He no longer engaged in conversations with Dean. All interaction between brothers was minimized to discussion of the thing they hunted. Sam stopped commenting on Dean's ways of making money. Or his one-night stands for the matter. Not to mention the fact that Sam was more than ever before against Dean's attempts to call him Sammy.All in all, Sam was acting like they barely new each other, like they were colleagues who work together but aren't friends.
Sometimes Dean just wanted to get hold of his brother, shake him and shout "what the hell id going on with you?!". But he didn't dare. Something told him that it wasn't a good idea. Not right now, anyway. Dean understood that this change had something to do with him not answering Sam's question about the deal. But they've discussed it. Well, sort of, anyway. And Sam said that they were okay. Yeah, said a voice in Dean's head, and he also told you not to call him Sammy. Even such a fool like you should have realised that nothing was okay.
"Shut up!!!" – Dean shouted.
"I wasn't talking, Dean", a voice said from Sam's bed. They were in the motel, Sam looking for some new information about a spirit they were hunting and Dean lying on the bed, thinking.
"I didn't mean you, Sammy…er… Sam", Dean hastily corrected himself. "Just a voice in my head".
Sam gave him an incredulous look as if saying "You hear voices now? I thought I was the only one with the visions" but said nothing and turned back to his laptop.
Say something, Sammy. Please, Dean was thinking. But Sam remained silent until he decided he wanted to share some new information about their hunt. Which was two hours later.
Dean closed his eyes fighting back tears. This all was even worse than Sam leaving to Stanford. Sam not answering his calls. Sam never calling himself. But that time Dean at least new why Sam was doing that. He didn't know now.
Sam was shutting him out. Completely. Although, being physically present, he wasn't with Dean. Not at all.
Hell, I need my brother to come back. I can't do it if he is not with me. It's tough enough even when he is with me. It's just impossible, it's unbeareble when he is not…
TBC
Please, review! Even if to say that it's all completely out of character and doesn't fit in…
Annon. – Well, I think that Dean calls Sam "Sammy" when he is very worried about him (especially, if Sam was in some danger) or when he needs to feel that he is a big brother, that he has a family. I think that in the first series of the second season, he was so messed up, so desperately wanted to hold on to something, so sure that he had to keep "game face" for Sam's sake… And the only thing that he had to hold on to was Sam but he also couldn't (or thought he couldn't, more likely) tell Sam anything that he held to his big brother duties and his image of his baby brother whom he had to protect. And all this was expressed by him calling Sam "Sammy", it was especially obvious in 2.03 as it seems to me. And Sam seemed to understand Dean's inner turmoil as well cause he was much less against being called that. Well, that's my point of view, anyway. Sorry to bother you with this…er…. narrative.
