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Beckett's Apartment
The drive home was a blur; she drove home in pilot mode she just couldn't get over what had just happened. Once she made it to her apartment she went straight to the bathroom and started running the water she needed this hot bath after the hectic day she had even though it did end pretty good.
She stayed in there until the water went from steamy hot to ice cold, once she made it to bed it was around 12am, she was exhausted yet she couldn't sleep she looked over at her phone she was about to check her emails when she noticed she had a text message from Castle and Josh. She was tempted to ignore Josh's text and just talk to Castle but she knew she had to sort this out first but no way was she doing it over a text.
J: Hey babe, about tomorrow morning… I'm gonna be late only about half an hour, I just look we'll talk when I see you tomorrow. Night babe xx
She didn't know what he wanted to talk about but she wanted this to just finally be over, she hated being called babe she always felt degraded whenever one of her ex partners called her such tacky names.
K: Hey, umm sure that sounds good actually… only just got home from a case I'll see you tomorrow morning… night x
She could feel her body shiver in discuss after writing that text even though it was a simple 'x' she still felt like she was doing something wrong to Castle, yet she just made out with him and she is still with Josh…
J: hmm… you were with him weren't you…?
K: Don't Josh, you know he is my partner look I am tired this case was a big one and I need some sleep I'll talk to you tomorrow x
She waited about five minutes just in case Josh messaged again, she knew tomorrow wasn't going to be easy and she was just glad that he chose not to message back. She almost forgot about Castle messaging she opened up his message and couldn't help but smile.
C: Just wanted to make sure you made it home safely, and that I miss you already! I know, I know you're probably saying something sarcastic right now but I don't care because I get to say stuff like that now *sticks tongue out* ;) anyway sweet dreams and good night beautiful. X
God why did she fall for a writer the way he was with words how he made her heart flutter when he called her beautiful, even though it is such a cliche word to call someone that but it came from him, he called her beautiful.
B: Sorry, was in the bath but I am home, thank you for checking on me that's really sweet. Castle I have only been gone for two hours :) I'm sure you can't miss me that much. But I have to admit and if you ever show anyone this text just remember I do have a gun… but I do kind a like it when you say well, type stuff like that. Oh and also look after that tongue does some wonders! ;) Good night Rick x
C: bath? :O trust me two hours feels like a lifetime after I got to lay on the sofa with you… I promise I will never show anyone but I can't promise I won't bring it up all the time when it's just us two… Oh really? Well in that case consider my tongue locked away I promise you can unlock it next time I see you ;) Good night Kate x
It's safe to say that they both slept peacefully that night even though they were in separate beds they both had finally admitted their feelings for one another and they finally had a chance at least once Beckett ends things with Josh.
Next Morning Beckett's Apartment
Kate woke to a loud banging noise, she checked the time it was 8:00am she couldn't remember the last time she actually slept through the night it had definitely been a long time. She quickly got up the knocking just wouldn't stop.
"Hang on I'm coming" she yelled out as she stumbled to her door checking the peep hole before opening it was Josh well this is it she thought to herself. She unlatched the locks on the door and opened the door smiling up at Josh who looked pissed. He stormed in not even saying hello.
"Where is he?" he yelled
"What? Who are you even talking about Josh?"
"That writer, where is here?!"
Okay now he was pissing her off "Josh, I don't know! I'm gonna assume that he is well umm I don't know at HIS LOFT! What the hell Josh!"
"What do you mean what the hell? I mean come on Kate you telling me you seriously had a case that made you come home at 12 at night?!"
"Well for starters THAT CASE! Had something to do with my mother's case, which by the way if you had and decency you would have known but no because we never talk, I mean hell whenever I see you all you care about is getting in bed with ME you never just want to talk!"
Josh went to say something but Beckett continued
"Hell, Josh you're never here and when you are you act like the biggest dick! Castle is my PARTNER he is the one who is always there for me, he is the ONE who has helped me through my mother's case. And you know what JOSH, I can actually TALK to him and not have to sleep with him FIRST"
"KATE that's my job what do you expect me to just put you before my career and how can you say he HELPED you with your mothers case from what I can recall he reopened it and caused havoc on your world"
"I know that's your job but you know what when you love someone you compromise and this what we have now is not love, it's filling an empty space pretending that we might have a future but I need someone HERE. I need someone who LOVES me not someone who just wants SEX!"
"So what you think that writer dude, doesn't just want sex from you are you stupid?! Jeez you must love this having two men held on by string dangling in front of you!"
"Screw you Josh! How can you even say that when all you ever do when were together is hint towards the bedroom Josh I can't do this I don't want to do this anymore. It's over, let's be honest it was never going to work I just…. I don't love you and I am sorry it was wrong of me to lead you on I just can't do this anymore!"
"Oh please you never insist on just going to have sex instead of talking it takes TWO people KATE TWO!"
"I know Josh, but I can't do that anymore I DON'T want that! I want a relationship where I know that each night I come home they will be THERE. Someone I can lean on, someone who I can make plans with and no they won't push me aside. Josh I know how busy your job is but so, is MINE and I try SO HARD to make time for you but you never do. Josh it's over I'm sorry but this" she insinuates between the two of them "is never going to work I don't love you and I'm sorry but I know I will never feel that way towards you".
Josh made his way to the front door, he saw his duffle bag on the table quickly grabbed it, Kate realised that she never really stayed at Josh's so she had nothing at his place. "Good bye Kate" and with that he closed the front door, Kate was confused as to what to do she wanted to go and see Castle but she just broke up with Josh. She made her way back to the sofa the Captain had given her and her team the next three days off to recoup from yesterday she was hesitant at first but was grateful now. She decided to message her close friend Lanie she needed her best friend right now and she knew she would want to hear about her and Castle.
K: Hey Lanie, plans tonight? :)
L: Hey girl! Uh no everything okay? X
K: Yeah just need some girl time…
L: Kate? I'll be there in 5! No buts either, I'm free all day and there is clearly something going on I'll bring sweets you supply the wine! X
She loved Lanie, she could always count on her for being there when she needed someone to talk to, and the fact that Lanie told her exactly how it is always helped. She went to get changed and threw her hair up in a messy braid when she heard her phone go off she looked over to the screen to see that it was Castle, she couldn't help the small smile that spread across his face.
C: Hey everything okay? Sorry don't want to bother you just want to make sure you're okay... :)
K: Hi, everything is fine I promise long story short it's over between me and Josh I promise I will tell you everything when I see you. As for now Lanie is coming around for some girl time :) x
C: Good as long as you're okay and sounds good did you want to come around tonight? I promise no "funny stuff" although eventually when that does happen I promise none of it will be funny because Kate with you it will be perfect. Ooh girl time does that me talking about me? It so does, doesn't it? x
She could feel her cheeks burn up from the text he had just sent her he definitely had a way with words and an ego to match it but that's why she fell for him in the first place.
K: Really perfect? Cliché much Castle, tonight sounds perfect :) oh boy I guess they call it a girl time for a reason meaning boys will never know what goes on ;) see you tonight x
C: Definitely perfect, good looking forward to it, it's a date! bring your appetite :) it's okay I know you won't be able to help but talk about me I mean I wouldn't blame you ;) until tonight Kate x
She rolled her eyes at his text but couldn't help the smile spreading across her face and the butterflies in her stomach, suddenly there was a knock on her door "coming Lanie" she quickly made her way to her door.
