Hello again! This is my second chapter, it's probably a bit better than the first one, but there's a lot of content so tell me if it makes no sense. This chapter is now from Renesmee's point of view. Enjoy. xxx

PS: Again if you don't read/watch Twilight, look up anything you don't get in twilight wiki, should help!

I was in the forest, could smell the human blood. I raced towards the scent and there stood a man, bleeding copiously from his side.

"HELP me!" he pleaded in desperation.

I stopped.

I tried to resist.

I didn't want to be a monster. I. Had. To. Resi-

A gust of wind came my way, carrying the scent of blood with it and without thinking, I pounced at the poor man's neck, but as I did, I heard a roar of fury.

It was Jacob.

He jumped from behind me, throwing himself between my prey and I.

He'd risked his life for this innocent stranger.

We fought in a blur - it was all so sudden - and instead of biting the man, my fangs sank into Jacob's neck. I was subject to the temptation of real human blood and there was no way I could resist. Then suddenly I realised: Jacob wasn't moving.

With a gasp of horror, I backed away from his body, falling to my knees with the bitter realisation of what I'd done.

"Jacob!" I screamed. "NO!"

He was dead.

I had killed him.

My eyes snapped open and I jumped out of bed.

"Renesmee" I could hear in the background - it was my mum. "Renesmee are you okay?"

"Mum!" I half screamed from the shock, tears flowing down my face. I buried myself in her arms where I was safe.

"You were screaming in your sleep – were you having a nightmare?" she stroked my hair, trying to hide her worry.

I bit my lip…I was already shattered. "Can I tell you in the morning?" I asked.

"Sure, tell me when I come back from hunting." She planted a kiss on my forehead and went back to her room while I tried to convince myself this was only a dream… nothing more. I closed my eyes and attempted to go back to sleep but it didn't feel right, I just couldn't get the image of Jacob lying dead on the ground out of my head. So I looked at the clock, it was four in the morning. I went to the bathroom, trying to clear my head of its suffocating thoughts, went back to bed, and tossing in turmoil for hours until I finally drifted off to sleep.

I woke up at 7, still shaken by my nightmare. I went to see mom and dad in their room.

"Mum! Dad!" I knocked, "can I come in?"

"Of course!" I heard dad's low soothing voice say. "What is it?" he asked as I came inside the room and sat on the bed. Mom wasn't there, she'd probably gone hunting already.

"It's about … last night ... my nightmare." I paused, unsure whether I should tell anyone or not. His eyes were staring deep into my soul and I knew he was reading my mind. He knew about my dream. So I asked him the question that was nagging me without mentioning the nightmare. "Have you ever been scared of biting mom when she was human? Even unintentionally?"

He looked at me like the answer was obvious. "More than once!" he replied, the corners of his mouth lifted. I guess he thought this was a bit of a stupid question. Of course he had wanted to bite mum: he was a vampire! He carried on, "I used to hate myself for being a vampire because of how much I wanted to bite her head off and suck the life out of her!" he said in a joking way. "But now, I understand we were meant to be vampires together. I wanted to keep her human but that wasn't her destiny."

"Sometimes … I'm scared to harm Jacob in my thirst for blood. Even though I'm half human, I know he doesn't like the vampire part of me." Tears were filling my eyes again. I hated crying. It made me look like such baby.

"Renesmee, don't worry! If there's one thing I learnt loving your mother, is that strong love like yours and Jacob's or Bella's and mine, beats our blood sucking nature. And…" he hesitated, looked intently at me- I think he was reading my thoughts again- and said, "if he won't love you the way you are, I can always bite his head off for you!" he said, trying to lighten the mood. I forced a smile. It was just like him to try to make me laugh. After hugging and thanking him, I left his room and headed outside to think, hoping I would find mom on the way. She always made me feel better about myself.

I sat down on a tree trunk in the forest, and thought. I love Jacob, I always have, at first as a friend - my best friend - and then when I was about sixteen (in human years I was actually six), I started liking him more and more and our love escalated beyond friendship. It might seem weird knowing he was my mum's best friend, but for us it's normal. I am so used to it, and I love him. I just wish he'd love my vampire side as much as I love his wolf side.

"Hey hon!" mom startled me in my thoughts.

"Hey!" I said forcing myself to look cheerful.

"So, about your dream, what happened?" she asked curious as ever. I put my palm on her cheek and made her see the dream and my talk with dad, through my gift.

"Renee!" she exclaimed, "Honey! I can't believe you would even find yourself capable of hurting anyone let alone Jake!" I thought for a moment, maybe she was right, maybe I would never hurt Jacob and all this worry was for nothing.I even found it childish looking back. "I'll talk to you later. Let you think more for a bit" she said thinking, almost as if she was looking through me… or past me. That's when I knew Jacob was behind us, and I'd have to tell him the truth.

He could see right through my lies.

"Bye mum." I mumbled as she left.

"Hi Nessie." said the voice behind me. "How was hun... um… I mean yesterday?" he asked awkwardly, avoiding the only subject of discussion we fought upon.

"Good." I paused. He said nothing. We stared into each other's eyes. "Jake" I rushed, "you know I hate being without you, but I can't ignore the vampire part-"

"I'm sorry. You know I love you the way you are, I just wish there was a way to make you fully human!"

At these words, anger rose up inside me. How could he even think of changing me? I liked being just myself. "I like being half vampire! Why can't you just accept that? You obviously don't love me the way I am!" I shouted, losing my temper. "And for the record, sometimes I even wish I was fully vampire!"

"Nessie", Jacob walked forwards to hug me "I'm sorry. You know how much I love you, it's just… hard for me to love my natural enemy so much."

I paused, finally gritting my teeth. "Fine." I said as he looked intently into my eyes. And then he lifted the corner of his lips imitating a smile, and I reluctantly leaned into him and breathed in his welcoming warmth.

"So!" He said as he pushed back from our hug, "it's your birthday tomorrow, are you excited?"

"I guess so… I mean, I'm going to stop ageing after that day, and what human wouldn't want that?" I laughed, and we walked away slowly talking about the day to come.