Allright everyone, i know chapter 1 was not very exciting but, all stories have to start somehwere right? So here is chapter 2, hope you all enjoy, please review, it makes my day!
I do not own Twilight, SM does.
Chapter 2: Alive
Jacob and I spent most of our free time together over the summer. We had both decided on going to Washington State, far enough away from home to be free. It was close enough if I wanted to go home for visits, and it was close enough that if the reservation needs Jake quickly, it wouldn't be an issue.
A part of me had hope for the latter. If the reservation needed Jake to come back, that meant that the vampires were back. I couldn't deny that I'd follow Jake back in hopes that it was the Cullens that were returning. It could anyone, but I would follow to see, even if it got me killed doing so.
The summer flew by effortlessly, and it was finally time for Jake and I to pack to leave for school. School would be a good thing. It would keep my mind occupied, and it would distract the hole that still was there in my heart, digging deeper by each day that passed. Jake helped but I could see in his eyes that even though I wanted to be friends, he was always hoping that I would change my mind.
I was broken though; I could never be with anyone again. I would always see HIM, and no one else. Trying to see anyone else would only hurt me more, and add more broken hearts that I hadn't wanted to be responsible for.
Jake and I spent the last weekend home hanging out in La Push while our dads talked.
Finally, we took of to college. It was almost fate that I had waited to go to school so Jake and I could be in some of the same classes. It was going to be great.
We got on campus on a Sunday afternoon to check into our form before classes where to start on Monday. The forms were four buildings in a square, two for the boys and two for the girls. In the middle were a few picnic tables and a Laundromat. Jake's form was right across from mine so we'd be spending probably all of out time together.
"So, I'm going to see my room, shower and get some sleep. I've got a cell phone now so call me if you need anything, okay?" Jake broke me out of my wandering mind. I agreed and he programmer his number in my phone and went on our separate ways.
My dorm was simple; luckily I had really good grades and testing scores so I got a two bedroom dorm. The front door led into the kitchen and then there were two numbered doors, I looked at my papers and saw that I was number 17 to the left. I was so glad that at least I didn't have to sleep in the same room as anyone else. They would probably call the ward two nights in to tell them I had lost my mind. My nightmares would scare anyone who listened, or they would just think I'm crazy.
I unpacked my suitcase and set my laptop on the desk the school provided. I didn't have much so it didn't take long. I sat at the computer and wrote an email to Renee.
Hey mom,
I'm all settled in my dorm. It's not as bad as I thought a dorm would be. Jake lives in the building across from mine. Sorry so short, but I'm ready for sleep. I love you.
Bella
She would worry if I hadn't sent anything immediately, but I was not in a chatting mood.
I showered and went to get in bed; I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow, drifting off into dreamland, or in my case as it always were, nightmare land.
I was in the woods. It was dark but I could feel the branches scrape my skin as I ran on full speed. What was I running to? Or from? I kept going, searching for something. That's when I saw her. Her red hair swung in the wind and she was staring at me, snarling. Only she wasn't looking at me, she was looking behind me. I started to turn around and.....
Bzzzzzz bzzzzzz bzzzzzz. My phone woke me up. I picked it up, shaking as I sat up, sweating and breathing in quick jolts. It was Jacob.
"Hey Jake what's up?" I asked.
"You're gonna be late for our first class, that's what!" He laughed.
I hurried and got dressed and went off with Jacob to class. School wasn't bad, although I had trouble concentrating because I was steadily living in that nightmare.
What did she want? Edward left me; she'd already done the damage. Maybe it wasn't good enough until I was dead. Who was she looking at? The person behind me? If it even was a person. It was probably the wolves, I thought. Maybe she didn't know we weren't together anymore. We weren't together anymore. It's that one thought that tore me to pieces.
The weeks went by with no more nightmares to my surprise. That made me happy. Jacob and I were doing well in school, and the semester was coming to a close. We had been invited to go to an end of the semester party, and although I'm not one for parties, Jake wanted to go very badly. In the end, he had convinced me to go with him so he'd know one person.
I owed it to Jacob. I owed him everything and more. When he was around me, it made the pain subside just enough to where I'd almost forget. It was as if he kept me going. It was as if he was the one person who cared enough, he was the one who kept me alive.
