Dearest, most Precious Sam,
Your entrance into our lives has been a tremendous blessing. At a time when Jocelyn was starving for affection you provided it, when even I could not. You helped her heal and made her feel beautiful. For that I will be forever in your debt. When I fell in love with my wife, I thought it would be the only time in my life that I would fall for someone. I thought that I was a one woman man. And for many, many years I was. In all my time with Jocelyn, I have never strayed, even once. And now, it seems that my faithfulness has paid great dividends.
When it came time for her to choose between the new love that she had blossoming with you, and the old hat that was her love for me, she miraculously chose both of us. She trusted me enough to bring you into our bed without reservation, knowing that as we each developed feelings for you, we would only let them enhance not hinder what we already felt for one another.
And I must say I love this feeling. Waking up in the morning, staring into two bewitching sets of eyes, holding the both of you in my arms, nothing has ever felt quite so right. But Dearest, I do not want you to feel like an accessory. I want you to know that you have become every bit as special to me as my own wife. I want to assure you that you are not merely here because Jocelyn wants you to be. You are here because of me also.
I know Joce presents herself as being a woman who gets her own way but believe it or not, when it comes to the big decisions, they are ultimately mine. So, she may have started this whole journey with you on her own during our brief separation, yes it is true. But I need you to know that the reason you are still here is because here is exactly where I want you to be. Sometimes when you know, you just know. And what I know is, even though it has only been a short time that you have been with us for, it feels like forever.
I feel as if my soul knows you, recognizes you from some other time and place. I feel that I was made to love you, Sam, just as much as I was made to love our Darling Jocelyn. You are precious in my eyes and I hope that you understand how much you mean to me. I love you more with every passing day. I can still taste your kisses on my lips and see your face when I close my eyes. I revel in the remembrance of your last orgasm from my oral ministrations.
How can one woman come to mean so much to two people in such a short timespan? How can one person claim two hearts for her own so quickly? I want you, Samantha, to be by our side forever. Jocelyn has been at the helm of my ship for so long, steering it, but I believe it is time we had a navigator. Sometimes in the past we have proceeded solely on a wing and a prayer. I am confident that your place in our lives, our bed, our home and our family, is fixing that about us, grounding us solidly in a beautiful reality of your design and I love it so much. Just as I love you so much Sam.
So, I hope I do not scare you off when I ask if you would consider doing us the honor of officially moving in with us? I know you have been here every night anyway but I feel that isn't enough. I feel it would be better if you could honestly call this place your home. I think it would also be a source of peace-of-mind for Jocie and I if we did not have to worry about losing you to New York whenever the Big Apple calls to you. But maybe you love it there and won't want to give it up. If so, I can understand and respect that.
Please let me know of your response by a return letter. I haven't told Jocelyn about this yet because I wanted to run it by you first and learn what your decision would be without getting her hopes us in case this is not something that you want. If you do decide to move in, I think we should surprise her with it because I know how delighted she will be.
Do not feel pressured Sam, to make this commitment. Please know that I will love you immensely regardless of what you do decide. Just because Jocelyn and I want you to be a part of our home, does not mean you have to want it too. Maybe this old Shadowhunter is simply jumping the gun, maybe it is too soon. I do not know. All I know is that this feels right. That you feel right in my arms, in my bed and in my life Samantha. And that is exactly where I hope you will always want to be.
With my loving tenderness and heartfelt appreciation,
the most fortunate Valentine alive!
Most Amazing Val,
It has been a short time since we have met, yet my heart beats for you and Jocelyn a thousand, a million, times harder than it ever has before. And now the baby, whom I love too, I want to be there when we teach her to ride a bike, at her first recital, to paint her nursery and to decorate it over when she wants to grow up. And I want to be there for every step of you and Jocelyn growing up, too.
I want to be there with you two through your adventures of life, good, bad, and insanely crazy. Never will I leave your side if I get the choice. You mean more to me than life itself, even more than coffee. Never had I believed in love, but now I do. I love you and Jocelyn. I really do. It's not like my heart is divided half-and-half between, or that it contains one more than the other. In my heart, my mind, I am made of my love for both of you.
So yes, very much, yes. I would love to move in with you two.
Love,
Samantha
