Hi Guys! I'm sooooo sorry for the delay in the next chapter! I have been busy with my other story and with uni! So I do apologise but better late than never! Here is the next chapter I have written so far, I do hope to get more reviews on this story and I do hope you like it, Once Upon A Time is absolutely one of my favourite TV shows, I love the magic, the fantasy and the great characters, I especially LOVE the Neal/Emma conflict and find it interesting. What I'm trying to delve into is the rocky relationship and the journey to get them back together, to get that trust back as they do belong together, call me a sucker for true love eh? Again I do hope you enjoy this chapter, please review, I sometimes like to add songs to my story so you can get the feeling and mood, the song I picked which I thought was perfect was Pink's "Just Give Me A Reason". Again enjoy

I DO NOT own the rights to OUAT

Rated M for mature content and language.

I feel sick, I feel the wave of shame and anger wash over me, anger at Neal for walking in when I tried to steer him off, anger at Hook for coming out and taunting but at the end I know deep down the anger is towards myself, anger that Neal walked in on me and Hook in my apartment. I feel the shame, guilt and anger hit my stomach all at once and I feel sick, like I might vomit. I stare at myself and then slowly turn around to look at Hook, he smiles at me as if nothing has transpired.

"So love, ready for round 3?" Hook looks at me cheekily smiling, really! Does he really think that after what just happened that I'm gonna do him again?!

I glare at him not blinking, just holding my stare, I grit through my teeth in response "Put your clothes on and get out of here Hook, or I might take that other hand of yours" he smirks and turns away making his way to the bedroom. I shake my head, I look at the hamper on the table full of clean clothes and quickly put some clothes, I need to get to the diner to meet Henry and Neal, I quickly put on my a green sweater and my pair of jeans, I stumble as I rush hopping on one leg as I attempt to get the other leg in my jeans, I grab my jacket and throw it on me as I look up I see Hook coming out of my bedroom with an amused look on his face.

"Get that look off you face" I scold

"Oh darling no matter how much you want to deny it, you and I both know that it's really yourself you're angry at, not me"

"Just get out of here"

He scoffs before leaving and I'm hearing the slamming of the door, I grab my bag and quickly run downstairs making my way to the diner. I'm running and by the time I reach Granny's I'm panting and gasping for air, my lungs ache and I have a pain in my side, I'm gasping for air as I try to contain myself, I don't want to look like a complete wreck when Henry sees me. I look at my reflection in the window combing my fingers through my dishevelled hair before taking a deep breath and entering, I enter the diner and look around for both Neal and Henry and hear the bell chime, I see them talking to each other in a booth, Neal with his back towards me talking to Henry who has a pancakes in front of him and hot chocolate. I make my way over to them as Henry looks up

"Mum! You're here," he smiles at me, a smile that eases the awkwardness between me and Neal, Neal takes a sip of his coffee not even bothering to look up at me, just looking out the window. I sit next to Henry, he idly chats away to his father as I sit there and order a coffee from Ruby, I listen to Henry as he talks about having Gold as a grandfather, and how enthusiastic he is to start a family tree, Neal sits there and laughs and chats with him completely ignoring me as if I'm not there, I feel the sadness grow in my chest and I'm fighting back the tears as he blatantly ignores me and doesn't even attempt to strike conversation. I fight back the urge to cry and smile

"Well you know it's almost time so we better get you off" I smile at him to which I scoot over to let him get out of the booth, Neal gets up and we all leave the diner, I see my father waiting outside, he agrees to take Henry to the library and ask Belle how to set up a proper family tree. I kiss him goodbye as my father watches me and Neal and begins to walk with Henry down the street. I stand there awkwardly with Neal; I wrap my jacket tightly around me feeling the cool air bite at me.

"So, you and Hook huh? Really Emma? Do you know the danger you're putting yourself in not to mention OUR son?" His tone starts to sound more acid like, his temper rising as I see he's trying to understand what happened this morning.

"Look what happened last night was a MISTAKE and I know it, it was the first and last time and it won't be happening again!" I justify myself

"This isn't something little Emma, we're talking about a man who slept with MY mother, who just recently stabbed my father, not to mention all the other crap he's done in the past and now the mother of my child goes and sleeps with him, I mean what were you thinking?" He looks at me as if he's trying to comprehend what's going through my mind. As we fight outside on the street I find my thoughts and speech have become unattached and I can't even form a straight sentence, I look down at my feet like a child who has been scolded by their parent, I'm about to apologise for my actions when Neal states something that makes the rage in my heart and soul soar.

"Do you know how this makes me feel Emma, you hiding something like this from me and going behind my back?" I don't even think it registered in his mind what he had said at first and then when the sentence escaped from his mouth he shut his eyes recognizing his stupidity.

"How you feel? You FEEL!? You wanna talk about going behind one person's back and lying, about deceit and betrayal, let's talk about how you left me to take the fall for your crime ok!" At this time the tears are welling in my eyes and I see the flicker of pain and regret etched on his face

"Let's talk how you could so easily leave me to go to jail Neal, I was 18, 18! And I loved you, I loved you! I would have done anything for you and I did, you were my everything and you promised, you promised me that we were going to go to Tallahassee and be together, I was happy and you left me!" at this stage I don't care if anyone hears me as I let the years of repressed anger and hurt spew from my mouth like a hose.

"You left me all alone in jail, I was alone, scared, young and pregnant" He looks up at me as I realise the tears are cascading down my face

"I thought I was doing the right thing Emma I thought I was getting you home away from me!"

"My home was with YOU! With you! And you took it away from me! You robbed me of a life and my heart and years with my son, so don't stand there and judge me and lecture me on my mistakes Neal when you have a lot of learning from yours" I see the pain in his eyes as I turn around and walk off, I see in the corner of my eye Snow or my mother as I should say bearing witness to the whole thing but I don't stop, I don't care, I just walk off to work and to hopefully forget my troubles.

6:00PM

I look at my clock at think I really should get home now, for the past 2 hours I have been making excuses not to go home, I don't want to face my mother and explain, or my dad who no doubt will want to go after Neal with his sword, I don't want Henry to ask as I don't want to destroy the good time he has been having with his father and most importantly I don't want to accidentally bump into Neal if he is there. I pack my stuff and make my way home, ever since this morning my day has been ruined, I can't concentrate, I can't even finish a sentence or thought without stopping to think of Neal. I grab my scarf and rap it tightly around my neck in an attempt to secure me from the cold, if only it was so easy to secure myself from my feelings, to wrap myself from the harsh pain of love.

I feel like there's no one who understands what I am feeling, what I am thinking and what I am going through, the night air is cold and the wind has gotten colder as I walk through the streets. I grow angry at how perfect everyone's life is but mine; Mom has Dad and I know it's selfish to be jealous of them but I envy how much love there is between them, I wish I had the same type of love with Neal again, Ruby is fine, Granny is fine, Henry is fine, Neal is fine with Tamara! Tamara has even moved here, it's like his life has gotten better, that it's all worked out for him, everyone's life is moving forward but I feel like I'm stuck, alone. I continue to walk lost in my thoughts when I look up and realize where I am, I'm at the docks, standing outside Hooks ship, of all places to go why have I aimlessly walked here? I question myself when I am brought out of my inner monologue.

"Well I've dealt with Lost Boys in the past but I've never dealt with a lost girl! I would have thought after this morning's event you would have tried to steer clear of me but then again I do admit, my charm has a habit of leaving you wanting more"

He cheekily smiles at me as he walks down the ship with a bottle of rum in his hand, his white shirt flows on him and I wonder how he doesn't feel the cold, his pants are tight and I scold myself for looking at him, the truth is no matter how angry I am with him what he said last night was right, on some degree he can relate to what I am feeling.

"Something tells me that isn't you're first bottle this evening?" I ask

He smiles "and it certainly won't be the last" he winks at me before taking a swig and I can't help but coyly smile

"However being the gentleman, I am more than happy to share considering you have been so concerned with my alcohol consumption, there's plenty more on the ship and plenty more after that" he stares at me and I don't know if he is talking about the bottle or something else, I look at the ship and see the lights inside and sense it's warm environment, better than out here. I don't know what makes me do it but I'm suddenly pulled into a whirlpool of rum and Captain Hook

Well there you go guys there is the second chapter, I know what some of you might be thinking, is this a Hook and Swan fic but no it is DEFINITELY Neal/Swan, what I am doing is going on a journey, there is a lot of unresolved issues that need to be discussed on either side and we will definitely go into that in later chapters. At the moment the feeling I have in mind for Emma is that while she is strong and independent she is still vulnerable and loves Neal, Neal who was her first true love, father of her child, she's sad and feels vulnerable so she is taking it out on Hook, she's using him but she doesn't see that it's actually doing her more damage, she's just hurt, hurt deeply. Again I hope you enjoy, there will be more and please review, it always makes me smile and have a great weekend!:-)