Stars in the darkest nights
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Akira POV
"Oh crap" were the only thoughts in my head. There he sat, the oh so perfect person he was. What the hell was he doing here? Surrounded by his perfect life, he can't help me. Doing some breathing exercises Maki sensei had taught me I breath in out in out…right now I was seriously considering running away. But that was when he lifted up his head to look at me.
"Oh, hello Akira-san, are you in wrong room?" came his soft confused voice.
"Fuji-san, is this your dark secret? You take counselling?" I joked, quickly trying to drag the attention away from myself. I grinned. "Damm, don't let him see your weakness" went my inner voice. I calmly looked at him. Let me tell you something, no one in this school has ever seen me nervous or angry. Some have seen me sad, and everyone has seen me happy, hyper, or running away from someone I've teased.
"Lovely talking to you Fuji-san. I better leave in case the student you're the counsellor to comes…" I proceeded to walk out that door. I'm such a coward; I don't think I'm ready for this. 'Wait come here for a moment Akira-san" said Fuji, gesturing for me to sit down. I gave him an innocent questioning look. 'Make him think that you are still the happy person everyone knows.' My inner voice told me. Seeing that I wasn't going to sit down, he pulled out a piece of paper that made my breath get stuck in my throat. That was the piece of paper I put in the little blue box for counselling. "Umm, did you put this piece of paper in the box? Or Did Hisakawa-san prank you? This seems like something he would do …" Fuji trailed off, waiting for my answer. I made myself appear calm, but you do not know the panic going inside my mind. My heart seemed to almost jump out of my mouth. It hammered away in my chest. I'm not ready to tell him about my secret. I almost replied back "Hah. That Idiot Hisakawa kun is so going to get the biggest bashing off his life…" but completely against my usual character I closed the door quietly.
No more am I going to run away. It's time to face probably the biggest challenge in my life. I was so scared, I felt the walls I had put up tremble slightly. I'm not ready, but I'll just talk to him for now. "Make up your mind" my inner self went. I sat down, my hand sweating. "Well, I guessed I did" I said emotionlessly. Let's see how good Fuji is. I could see that he was definitely surprised, though he tried to hide it. Who would have guess that the cheerful Akira was sitting in a counselling room. "Umm okay," Fuji frowned as he shuffled his papers "Well, do you want to start off with telling me what's your problem?" He gave me his usual smile. Fuji always smiles, a bit like how I'm always happy. Odd. I fingered the bandage that covered my left arm. I can't unwrap it, something is stopping me. Is it fear, or am I ashamed? I smiled sadly, and laid head on the table. "Fuji fuji fujiko, how do I know I could trust you? What makes me think that you aren't going to blurt this out to the school, or that you'll blackmail me? Both me and my partner in crime Hisakawa kun respect your ability to influence people, tease and blackmail them." I shifted my head around to look at him. I laid there for a while, waiting for his answer. I watched him ponder whether to answer me or not. Finally he opened his eyes, this was the first time I saw them. They were a very pretty shade of blue, making me dismiss my theories that Fuji had no eyes. He propped his arm on the table and leaned his head on it. Staring of into space he started speaking,
"Akira-san, I've never told anyone this but." I sat up when he said this. Very interesting…I interrupted him "And so why tell me? People usually refrain from telling me things, because they're afraid I'll tease them about it. Are you sure about telling me?"
He looked at me with his blue eyes, and they seemed to control me, and I hated it. It felt like the multiple times when my parents would tell me what I can't do. This led into fights with them. I am myself, if I say that I don't want to follow their footsteps, that is my decision. I want to do what I want to do, not what they want me to become. My brother Akio who I really do care for, was what my father wanted his life to be. My dad married early because my mum was pregnant with my brother. He's now becoming a film director, which was what Dad wanted to be. I try to tell my dad that Akio doesn't want to be a film director, but doesn't say anything because his pride is too big. Then there's Mum, who keeps telling me not to marry early blah blah. Do I look like the girl to be all mushy and romantic? Ever since I could read, I've always skipped the happily ever after stories. There is no such thing as a prince charming. Even when I had a crush on someone, never have I allowed that influence my thinking. Never. I'm an independent Woman. I'd rather be a lonely cat lady than be tied down by a relationship.
"hmm yes, Your right I'm wrong. Happy much? Even I do draw lines as to when is appropriate to joke around. Now tell me your little secret…" I said the last part looking away; Fuji's eyes were pretty, but a bit creepy. "I like being right yes, but there was a time when I made the biggest mistake of my life" Fuji continued. I bit back a sharp retort of "What, did get someone pregnant?" Come on, once a joker always a joker! You can't blame me!
"I was silly at the time, I didn't realise the pain my younger brother Yuuta was going through. He was always over shadowed by my success. Around this area he wasn't known as Fuji Yuuta, but rather Fuji Shusuke's younger brother. He did not have his own name"
"Yeah, I know how that feels. I want more independence" I muttered, but I smiled and he continued "I only realised when it was too late, and I blamed myself. But also, if someone had just said something, just pointed it out, maybe things wouldn't have been so bad. Things are a bit strained now; Yuuta's moved out of the house and transferred schools. Somehow, I felt that if I could help someone, they wouldn't end up in a mess like I was." I suddenly felt so dumb; I never knew that Fuji had gone through this. He blames himself, but he stands up again and tries to solve the situation. What do I do? When I blame myself, I runaway and hurt myself to make me feel better. How pathetic. "Thank you Fuji for telling me this. It's quite personal, and you decided to share it with me. I fell, well, honoured. You're so brave, has any one told you that?" Fuji looked at me. "I don't think that I could ever have coped with that the way you did". Fuji closed his eyes and smiled. 'I probably would have hurt myself' I thought bitterly. "Let's both be happy now. Enough of this sadness. I guess our roles got reversed!"
"I guess you became the counsellor Akira-san" Fuji said thoughtfully.
"Akira chan's fine. You've let me know something important about your life, so call me Akira chan 'kay?" I said brightly, interrupting his thoughts.
"Akira, you still haven't told me why you came here…" commented Fuji, writing a few notes on a piece of paper with my name on it. I snatched the piece of paper away from him. "I was never here, fuji-san" I said smiling, whacking him on the head with the piece of paper.
"Umm, Akira. It's okay, you can *RIiiinnng*" the bell cut Fuji off.
"I'm so sorry Fuji, but I have to run. You can understand that the pizza at the Cafeteria is obviously more important than this little talk right? I'll see you same time next week?" I said standing up. Fuji stood up as well and tried to stop me. I ran through the door singing "If you're happy and you know it, clap your hand *clap, clap*." So my counsellor wouldn't have time to ask me more questions. I saw Fuji motioning to come back. I poked my tongue out at him, and happily skipped to the pizza waiting for me at the cafeteria. Next week, I will definitely have the courage.
Fuji's POV
I walked back to the desk and sat down. Today was weird. First of all, a girl came in with problems with her boyfriend. And even though I'm meant to help her as a counsellor in the school, I felt a bit awkward. Too much information, urhh. But the most surprising was Akira sa-Akira chan. She would be the last person to seek counselling. But today when I spoke to her, it seemed like she was on the verge of telling me what's wrong. I think I have to get her to trust me first. Even though Akira is quite well known around the school, and had a lot of friends. She didn't have any particularly close friends. I guess it's a bit hard when you're basically friends with everyone. I wonder who she goes to when she needs support? Hmm, wait, what if Akira just came here to ditch class? How could I be so dumb, Akira is really strong. She's always happy, calm, and never panics. When would she ever need counseling? For a genius, I'm pretty dumb. Sighing, I met Eiji outside the door.
"Fujiko, why didn't you tell me that there was pizza today? It's all gone now." whined Eiji, dragging me to the cafeteria. Even though I had just found out about it I replied "Because Eiji, I'm evil." I received a glare from the said boy. Smiling, I thought about how life was so wonderful.
I sat down, and saw the rest of the tennis team with pizza, while Eiji tried to pick the burnt pieces off his fish. Once every few singles, a glare would be shot in my direction. I myself had my lunch from home which I helped my sister make. It just meant that I could save money for the camera I really wanted. hmm, I could prob
"Fujiko, do you know where Akira-chan was at Maths?" chirped Eiji, cutting me out of me thoughts.
"Nope. Are you going to ask her out our something?" I teased Eiji. I couldn't tell Eiji the truth, because it was against the rules to tell anyone about the counselling session even though I felt she didn't exactly go there for the right reasons.
"WHAT!" he screamed, causing many people to stare at him. Before I knew it, the two evils, we would call it, Akira chan and Hisakawa san hovered by. Their eyes were intent on teasing Eiji about his outburst. Blah, they stole my job of being evil. I should ask them if I could join their little evil club. I searched Akira chan's eyes for any sign of sadness. None, but the pure happiness she had all the time, confirming my suspicion that Akira chan came to ditch her much hated subject of maths. I was about to tell her that I knew but she was faster. Once again she danced off singing a song dragging Hisakawa san with her this time. I caught a few lyrics of:
'Barney is a pedophile, in our imagination, he will come to stalk you home and leave you scarred for life." I smiled, Akira chan was quite creative. I wonder, are hisakawa san and Akira chan going out with each other? They seem quite close, because if they are, my lunchtimes will be filled with making their lives a horror. Mwuahaha.
Oh, I should stop being evil, my team is looking at me weirdly, because I've been smiling at the wall. "Is there anything you need" I said with fake innocence. Everyone ducks their head down and busies themselves with picking at their food, everyone except Tezuka and Inui that is. Tezuka sends a questioning glance at me, while Inui is muttering "Fuji stares at Akira…total of…11 seconds…" Everyone stars at me, sigh.
"Inui, do you really want me to tell them about your girlfriend? I mean, nothing is keeping me back from doing so…" Inui shudders and sees the look on our tennis teams looking at him with interest. Yes, they've forgotten about me! Tezuka on the other hand left the table for something geeky and smart to do in the library. I smile when Inui sends me a look of 'How did you find out about Michiko, my girlfriend?"
I replied "Oh, I have my sources, Inui." The team crowds around him, with the same evil look on their face as the two evils have when they are about to tease someone. Lovely…
Author's note: Do you like it? Because of my reviews, and people adding me to their favourite and alert list I finished this in a day. I'm so tired:) Please tell me if it's good, criticism is good. Don't be afraid to tell me if it sucks, I want to get better at writing!
