…numb.
by thenote
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Love... What is love? Love is to love someone
for who they are, who they were, and who they will be.
~ Chris Moore ~
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so bliss
Her smile stretched miles and miles.
…too bad it wasn't real.
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~Chapter Deux~
o*o*o* his discontentment*o*o*o
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"Do you know where Naruto Uzumaki—" she panted, only to be interrupted.
"We all know who Naruto is. After all, he is our savior." The nurse chuckled gleefully.
"—which room is he in?" she rasped clutching the newly built counter. How the civilians and carpenters had built the small, yet sufficient hospital so fast was still a little baffling.
"Room 17. It's the hallway on my left, go straight down and the eighth room on the right side is his." The woman smiled, tilting her head slightly.
"Thanks." She muttered as she paced down the wooden hallway, the soft, luminous light, given off by the melting candles, danced alongside the walls. The faster she seemed to run, the farther away the door seemed to be. Her bare feet trudged across the hard wood floor, giving her splinters, as she cursed Yamato for being able to use Wood Ninjutsu instead of something softer, like cotton.
Finally, her feet brought her to her destination. The door stood straight, and bold like a titan taunting her. Chills ran and up her spine repeatedly, causing her to shiver. What was she going to tell the boy—no, man. He had done so much for them…for her. Yet, she was still unable to show her affection for him. She couldn't ever think of him more than a big brother—but what if she gave him a chance? Maybe he could be the Sas—man she has always dreamed of…But what if he wasn't? If it didn't work out, wouldn't she just hurt him more than she always had? Suddenly, Sai's words echoed through her ears.
"But I think that you're the one who is hurting him the most."
Learning about Sasuke's execution had taken more than a few tears out of her, and then she learned that she was unconsciously destroying her best friend at the same time. It just seemed so…fake. Why hadn't he ever told her about his pain—why did he let her constantly gone on and on about her own?! So many promises were made…just to keep her happy...
'Naruto…' she thought softly, keeping her gaze low.
But, the worst part was, somewhere deep, deep inside her, she did know that she was hurting him. And when it was finally, bluntly told to her—she completely broke down, because she had already known.
'What a way to break a person, Sai' she smiled bitterly, 'I'm sure that's one thing you have learned from your time with us...How to hurt someone.'
Terribly.
Horribly…
…Unconsciously.
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Those few moments had seemed…fictitious.
Black.
Red.
Determined blue.
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CHIDORI~~~RASENGAN
.boom.
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"I-I don't want to fight you…I won't fight you—
teme."
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Screaming
"Get up and fight."
"I won't fight my brother!"
A pale hand, surrounded by blue sparks pierces an orange, fabric covered body, cutting completely through the small, depleted ball of chakra.
"I only had one brother—and his life was destroyed by your village!"
"You don't have to do this, Sasuke!"
"If you can't understand my hatred—my pain—how can you tell me that I don't have to do this?!"
"…because I do know.
I know what it's like to lose someone you care about, someone who cared about you—someone who you loved! I feel your pain Sasuke! I finally understand you! …But this isn't how I handled it—and you shouldn't do this either! As long as you keep doing this—hurting other people—the cycle is never going to stop!"
"What the fuck are you talking about?"
"As long as you inflict pain, it comes back! It's a never ending cycle in the world of ninja!"
"Hn. Such strong sophisticated words coming from the mouth of the dead last…How foolish."
The crimson splattered hand is replaced by a sharp, grey katana, causing the very amiable victim to gasp out in pain while clutching the sword.
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Oceans meet space.
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Onyx.
Crimson.
Thrashing
"Listen to me Sasuke! You're stronger than that! Do you think that your clan, your parents—your brother— would want you to destroy yourself?! Don't you think that they would wish something better for their loved one?!
That twisted man, Madara told me everything! Wouldn't you rather honor their last wishes instead?!"
"Che. These people destroyed my family—my clan! They deserve to feel the pain that I have felt!"
Tomaoes swirl viciously in a crimson pool.
"Those are the eyes that supposedly see all eh?(cough, cough) The mangekyou (cough-blood splatters-cough) eyes that Madara talked about…Don't you have to kill your best friend to get those? 'Cause I'm right here—happy and (cough-choke-cough) healthy."
Silence.
Only for a moment.
"Hn. I cut my ties a long time ago—you're already dead to me."
Katana shoves deeply through cut. More crimson blood pools around the two figures.
(cough-cough)
Obsidian.
Scarlett.
Gurgling. Blood.
"Sasuke, you're stronger than that! You're not weak enough to stay in the past! I know you!
I-I-I (gurgle…more blood splashes.) pr-promised Sa-Sa-Sa-kuura-chan that I'd bring you (cough)! An-and I nev-nev-never goooo backkk ooonnnn a (final choke. Body falls to the ground with a thump.) prooo-oommis……"
"…Che. I knew it. You're still weak. But still, I can't believe that the almighty Naruto Uzumaki loss to me this fast. You're just like your pitiful village—pathetic."
A pale foot, steps lightly onto the fallen body's fragile, broken arm. He adds more pressure when the body squirms, causing him to groan out in pain.
"I'd kill you now—but I want you to watch me kill your precious Hokage. And then maybe I'll go back to the village and burn it down for dessert."
His menacing glare caught the cerulean eyes of his former rival.
"Yo-you hate sweets, teme." The fallen one chuckled bitterly.
One perfectly shaped, obsidian eyebrow shot up. "You still remember that…? Che. What a loser...
I changed my mind. You're much to irritating to carry around. For the sake of our old friendship—our cut off bond—I shall make this quick and easy."
"Sa-Sasuke, wait!"
"…Hn."
Katana spirals down, with volts of electric blue sparks wrapping themselves around it, just waiting to pierce.
Penetrate.
Slice.
Kill.
Destroy.
"You think that you know everything—you think that Madara has told you everything right?
Well, you're wrong! You don't know about Itachi's REAL final wish—"
Katana stops midair. Holder of katana waits for a reply…but there isn't on—
…BOOM…
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A dark figure twitched uncomfortably under his oxygen mask, his forehead and eyes bandaged roughly. Blood soaked bangs are pushed to the side.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
The heart rate monitor displayed his pulse's significant drop.
No one had come to his room.
Not one person other than the—forced—medic had entered.
They had left him there all alone.
Purposely.
But his unconscious self hadn't taken notice…
…because it was currently blinded by the bleached, white light calling him.
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Her small, nimble palm slowly reached up to the door knob. A dark lump gathered up in the core of her throat, cutting off her breath. Suddenly, a loud, very obnoxious voice echoed through the room.
"Where the hell am I, dattebayo?!"
She shook her head vigorously, forcing a strangled smile on her face
Why was she getting so paranoid? This was Naruto, her best friend! Naruto, who always did things for others, and never hurt his friends! There was absolutely no reason for the situation to become uncomfortable.
Smiling she slowly turned the door knob, only to be interrupted by a soft voice that she knew very well.
"Na-Naruto-kun…You're awake…"
"…Hinata-chan?"
Nope.
Nothing could make this uncomfortable.
"You were waiting here…for me?"
"…Yes."
The strangled smile fell from her face, as her pale palm slid off the knob. Her bangs fell over her eyes covering the saddened, jaded eyes. Stepping back slightly, she turned on her heel and through one last glance at the wooden door before walking down the hall once more. A bitter smile found her lips, as she reached the end of the hall leading into the corridor.
She had, had her chance and she blew it. Naruto belonged with Hinata—they deserved each other, and who was she to take away his happiness?
"Because I love you!"
Hinata's confession rang through her ears like chimes. A more pronounced grin graced her pink, lips as she stopped short.
"Hinata Uzumaki…It has a nice ring to it." She chuckled as she headed back to report to her master.
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Disclaimer: Sadly, I do not own anything Kishimoto owns. If I did…this story would be moving a lot faster.
A/N: Hey guys! How are you people?! So this is the second chapter of "Numb" and all. Okay, so this seems a little short, but this is supposed to be a continuation of the manga, and the manga is always leaving us off and making us pissed. Sorry, but I have to make it seem like the manga! You're free to flame, but it'll just count as one more review for me!
I know that many of you are like "WTF! I thought this was a SasuSaku fanfic" and well it IS. But this is a realistic (meaning manga like) fanfic, and Sakura has to sort out her feelings about Naruto. You shall get SasuSaku, but heed my warning-this is a LONG fanfic where it shows how love REALLY happens. If you want to stick through this story, I love you. Well, not really, but I am THANKFUl!
My BF and I were having a debate, and we came to realize that there isn't such a thing called "Love at first Sight" because people who say that only love them for his or her looks! You fall in love when you get to know who they are, and what they stand for-not just because of what they look like.
Besides, I'm writing this for my own enjoyment, but if anyone would like to make some kind suggestions, I'm all ears-uh, well in this case, it's eyes.
The song that I was listening to while writing this was "Going Under" by Evanescence.
Also, "The Ticket to Infinity" is also being worked on. And thank you so, so much for reviewing the last chapter!
IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO MAKE ME HAPPY, AND YOU WANT THIS STORY TO BE UPDATED FASTER, PLEASE REVIEW!
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