Chapter Two

You know, those times when you're lonely and down and your head feels like it might explode? Those are the times when you can't be found.

Those are the times when Carlos find himself crying.

Then again, sometimes he found himself crying when she was around, but that was only because he knew that she was only going to be around for a short period of time before she left again. His girlfriend, Stephanie King. She had been accepted into a film academy in NY and was now there while Carlos was still back in LA, working on his music with his friends.

Big Time Rush had gotten really big over the past few months and he was busier than ever and that just caused his long distance relationship with Stephanie to become even harder than it was before. Sure, they called each other on the phone all the time, but the times that they mutually had off and were able to see each other were getting fewer and fewer as more concerts and more film festivals and projects came up.

Realistically, the two of them knew that the distance between them wouldn't help matters, but they were still willing to make it try.

"I want to hold you in my arms and listen to your heart beat." Carlos said into the phone, imagining his girlfriend grinning back at him, her face becoming flushed at his words. No matter how much of a tomboy Stephanie could be (and she did have her girly moments) she couldn't help but blush when Carlos was being really sweet to her.

"Are you falling in love with me or something?" Stephanie asked in reply.

That was the second time she had asked him that question and he could never be sure if she wanted a serious answer or if she was just fooling around. He supposed that he did love her, but it was still a scary thought, he was only 17 and she was his first girlfriend ever.

So the idea of him being in love with her, and the possibility of her not feeling the same way, scared him enough to not even try to figure out his feelings for her that went past a crush.

Carlos stayed silent, hoping that she wouldn't notice his lack of an answer. "You didn't give me an answer." Still, he was silent. "Carlos?"

Obviously he was going to have to respond in some way.

How the hell am I supposed to answer that? Carlos asked himself in a panic. But what came out of his mouth was, "I don't have an answer." His statement was true, but in the back of his mind he knew that he had feelings that he was afraid to put out in the open.

"Oh."

Carlos sighed and rolled onto his back, his phone still at his ear, as he moved an arm over his eyes. It's just one of THOSE days. He thought to himself wearily. You're not here. But, then again, you're never here seeing as you live all the way on the other side of the country. You know what's scares me the most, Steph? I think that now I'm fully aware of the fact that I am in love with you. And I'm pretty sure you have strong feelings for me as well.

"But what's the point?" Carlos whispered to himself. "When we're always going to be so far away from each other?"


A/N: You know what, ignore me the next time I say that I have a promise I'll keep, because with school and work in the way they usually don't happen. So while this chapter wasn't 3000 words as a minimum, at least I updated for you. (I'm at work, so that's why its kinda short, I'm pressed on free time.) I hope you liked it.

Cheers,

-Riles