Of all the bright cruel lies he told you, the cruelest is the one called love. Because even if the lie is beautiful, the truth is what you face in the end.
IKIRU. WATASHI NO TAME NI.
[Live. For My Sake.]
02. Secondo Azzardo
Sawada Tsunayoshi's condition is worsening day by day. Around three days after their marriage, Tsunayoshi has been sick and resting on his bed in Vongola Mansion with extra guards around the mansion to keep the Tenth safe from another family's attack.
A week after that, he has lost his appettite again and lost his weight for about 2 kg in a week.
Shamal has told him secretly—I really mean secretly—to be hospitalized and be ready to see and feel another dimension of this corrupted world. And he also told Tsuna's guardians for Tsuna to be hospitalized. For the best of him. But his guardians just don't want it because, why do you need to be hospitalized when the greatest and the most trusted doctors from all over the world are here especially to watch your health?
Well, Reborn and Hibari demanded him to be hospitalized. For his own good.
But, what can you do if your boss said "It's many against two. You guys have lost!" ?
Nothing.
Because he said facts. Not lies.
The doctors have really given up about him and Sawada Tsunayoshi is keep smiling even though many bad news and rumours about his death keep appearing. And Hibari can't stand it anymore. He decided to break through the barrier that Tsunayoshi had created long time ago.
Hibari walked to Tsunayoshi's room. It's already past twelve o'clock. Past midnight.
'Tsunayoshi must have been sleeping.' He thought. But he keep walking anyway. He opened the door slowly, try to not awaking the young boss. But what greeted him in the dark night is Tsuna's big caramel orb eyes that shine throught the night.
"Yo, Kyoya. Do you need anything?" he asked while tilting his head. Hibari nearly jumped backwards and screamed. Nearly.
"What are you doing at this hour?" he finally broke the silence.
"I should be the one asking you, Kyoya-san. What are you doing in my room?"
"Your room is my room. Your things are also mine, Hibari Tsunayoshi." Tsuna blushed.
"S-Shut up!" Hibari smirked. His wife is really cute.
"I want you to be hospitalized. No objection. Or I'll bite you to death."
"I will be dead sooner or later, Kyoya. No need to bite me to death." Tsuna mumbled.
"Do you say something?"
"Nope." Hibari glared at him but Tsuna didn't bother to catch the phrase in Hibari's glare.
"But I still don't want to." Tsuna concluded. Hibari growled.
"You must do what I said."
"What about this? You will keep watching me for the next two days. If my condition is worsening than today, I will do everything you said and I want to be hospitalized."
Hibari sighed before walked to Tsuna's side and ruffled his messy hair. "Fine. You better keep your promise." Tsuna giggled and hugged him.
"Thanks, ~" Hibari only sighed and thought why he cannot deny his wife even once.
-[x]-
It's already night—two days ever since the day the two of them made that promise.
"See, Kyoya~? I'm fine right?" Tsuna said with a playful tone. Hibari glanced at him.
"Not really. It hasn't been two days. We need to see it for the next two hours until I can say you are okay." Tsuna rolled his eyes.
"Mein Gott. It's only two hours. Spare me already." Tsuna sat behind Hibari and their back touched.
"Ne, Kyoya, what would you do if someone very important to you is gone?"
"I will wait for them to come back." Tsuna laughed. Hibari turned his head, confused.
"What?" he asked, feeling irritated.
"Nothing."
"You are getting weirder day by day, Tsunayoshi."
"I'm not weird." He giggled. "I'm just too cute~" Hibari smirked.
"..."
"You can tell me anything." Hibari said.
"... What if I died? Will everyone cry for me? Will they remember me as long as they live? Or will I turn into dust and dissappear?" Tsuna's tears poured down. Hibari widened his eyes and hugged Tsuna—tightly.
"Don't you dare do that to me. Don't you even dare to say it." Hibari growled.
"Don't you remember the day when you left me for a year? I was so pathetic at that time. Everyday have been disaster for me. Please. Just don't leave me." Hibari continued.
Tsuna hugged him back. "I won't." He smiled softly. "Even if I do, I will come back again and we will start our live over and over again. Promise."
They were chatting for hours when Hibari decided that it's the time for Tsuna to sleep. He carried him bridal-style and put him on the bed. He covered him with a warm blanket before gave him a peck in the forehead.
-[x]-
Tsuna
"Sleep well, I will see you tomorrow morning." He said to me after kissed my forehead.
'It's warm.'
Then he walked away. My hand tried to reach him but I only grabbed air. He glanced at me for the last time before closed the door.
"I don't want it. But, I'm sorry that I lied to you. My last lie." I whispered before drifted to sleep.
-[x]-
Hibari
I opened Tsunayoshi's door and stepped inside. I saw him still sleeping so soundly on his bed. I smiled as I walked to his side and stroked his hair.
"Tsunayoshi, wake up." No response. I shoke his body softly, still no response. Then I kissed him on the lips. He is still not budging. My mind screamed.
'Please... Please don't tell me..'
Shakily I brought my finger to his nose. Still breathing but in a low pace. Not good.
I took out my phone, searching a name in my contacts and pushed the call button.
-[x]-
Gokudera
This morning is so cloudy. The sun is hiding behind the clouds and I certainly have a bad feeling but I didn't know what.
"That bastard. Where did he go when we need him in this meeting!?"
"Maa, maa. He said he is seeing us later in the dining room. He is waking Tsuna up."
"Kufufu, let's shine bright like our skylark today."
"What's that, Pineapple!? That was so damn lame! Gyahaha!" The ten-years old Lambo cracked.
"Tch. He better take care of Juudaime!" Suddenly I felt vibration in my pocket.
'My phone..'
I saw the name that calling me.
"Tch." I pushed the answer button. "What is it?" I asked impatiently. I heard him growled.
"Tsunayoshi. Hospital. Quick." At that point I felt my heart stopped beating as I dropped my phone.
-[x]-
Hibari drove his car quickly to the hospital as he seldomly took a glance at the sleeping figure in the back seat.
He flinched when he heard Tsuna's breath hitched. He speed up his car and they arrived in hospital in no time. He quickly carried Tsuna and ran to the Emergency Room. In the first moment Hibari stepped out from his car, everyone there already knew who that was so it was much more easier task for him.
"Hang on, Tsunayoshi. I won't let you die. Never." He said as Tsuna was dragged away to the bed and the medication tools are being used on him in order to keep him breathing. That sight really broke his heart as he punched the wall beside him.
He waited and waited. Even until all of the annoying people came to his side and asking for Tsuna's condition, the doctors inside still haven't come out. He is very worried.
"Juudaime!" Gokudera punched the wall.
"How can this happen? Correct me if I'm wrong. Lung cancer stage 2A can be cured right?"
"WRONG!" Gokudera shouted as they flinched.
"What happened to you, Gokudera-san! You have been acting really weird! Tsuna-san told us his lung cancer is in stage 2A! Also, I have been researching that it was TRUE that 2A can be cured! What's so wrong about this fact!?" Haru shouted back.
"It's not 2A but 4! What Juudaime told you is a LIE! And you all buying it!" Gokudera cried as the remaining fell silent. Gokudera fell to the ground before shouting again.
"You all don't know right? His pain? His smile that full of fear and tears? He had been suffering for the past 5 YEARS! Get over it already!"
'No, he is never lying. He is the most honest and wonderful person I've ever met. He will make it. He must.' Hibari conviced himself as he sat down on a nearby waiting-sofa.
Finally the door creaked open. The man with white coat and green mask sighed.
"I'm sorry but... we have done what we can. I hope there's a miracle to help Juudaime survive this. Juudaime had asked us to move him to the biggest room of VIP room available. He said he needs to talk with everyone present. We will move him to VIP room in third floor with number 327. I will excuse myself now." With that last words, the door creaked open again and Tsuna—who is laying on his bed and wore a oxsigen mask— was dragged out. They gasped in horror especially Nana.
"My baby boy..." she cried.
Tsuna's skin look so pale and he can't breath normally.
But he is smiling.
That's what make them gritted their teeth in agony.
Their Juudaime is ready to accept the upcoming death.
It's so unfair.
It's so cruel.
How can such a kind person existed in this ruthless and inhuman world?
-[x]-
They are gathered in room with number: 327.
No one dare to speak. Only Nana, I-Pin, Lambo and Fuuta who is crying and sniffling beside Tsuna. Tsuna already woke up from his long slumber but he looks like a living corps. He tried to laugh at the jokes his guardians said but failed miserably.
"Is Verde here?" Tsuna asked weakly.
"Not yet. Does Verde included in this matter which you want to discuss, Tsuna?" Tsuna nodded.
"He is bringing something important to me. Something that I willingly sacrifice my life. Chrome, would you please?" Chrome nodded and put a sound-proof illusion so no one outside can hear their talks.
"I want to tell you something that I have been keeping for myself for the past two years. I have a sickness as you all know lung cancer." They nodded.
"Do you all know which stage I'm in?" Tsuna smiled. They nodded again.
"Of course Sawada! You told us, remember?! 2A, right?" Ryohei's fists are shaking. Gokudera only turned away.
"I'm in stage—"
"Juudaime!" Gokudera called. Tsuna blinked before answered with a smile.
"Yes, Gokudera-kun?" Gokudera's eyes widened before he kneeled down and cried.
"Please... try to live longer." His other guardians bit their lips and closed their eyes. Tsuna closed his eyes and still smiled.
"So you have told them, huh?" Gokudera nodded.
"Then I guess I will tell you another lie that I have been keeping." Tsuna turned to Hibari and gestured him to come closer. He held his hands.
"I'm sorry. When the day I've gone for one year, I was with Verde. Because I asked him a favour and my life really depends on it. I don't want to ignore it. So I chose to go to Verde instead. Since he seems to not caring anything about Mafia."
"So he really included in this, huh?" Reborn said as Tsuna nodded.
"I begged him to help me. Because he is the only hope."
"And you told Verde to lied to us that he personally invented something useful for the Vongola Don in training?" Tsuna giggled.
"Nope. It was his doing. I only told him to help me."
"That damn Verde." Leon turned into gun. Tsuna gulped.
"Well, please don't?" Tsuna begged with his puppy-eyes.
"Fine, continue."
"And I want to thank you all for the twenty years of my life, you all have been taking care of me. Even though you seldomly around, Dad." Tsuna stared at Iemitsu who just laughed and scratched his head.
"But... I really had so much fun..." Tsuna said half-conscious.
"Tsu-kun?" Nana held her son's hand. That's when Tsuna's breath became slow—really slow and soft. It's like he isn't breathing at all and his skin turned more pale than the way it was before.
"Call the doctor!" Gokudera snapped out of his daze.
"NO!" They turned their heads to Tsuna.
"Wait.." The door creaked open and a man with white coat walked in. Tsuna hissed in pain.
"Tsunayoshi, we need to call the doctors. NOW." Hibari demanded. Tsuna shoke his head weakly.
"Vongola." Verde opened his mouth. Tsuna glanced at him and smiled before he gripped his chest. Verde closed his eyes and opened the door widely.
"Come in.." He said softly. The Arcobaleno raised one of their eyebrows.
'Just who the hell Verde is talking to?! His attitude seems softer!' They thought.
A little girl stepped in. Hibari widened his eyes when he saw her.
The little girl appearance is really look like Tsuna. With big brown eyes that was gentle and friendly. A defying gravity hair at the top but curly at the remaining long hair. The difference is the hair is black not brown like Tsuna.
Tsuna stared at her and smiled.
"La mia bambina, Luisa...[5]" Hibari shocked.
"What?" he muttered quietly.
"La mia cara madre...[6]" the little girl answered with a warm smile as she walked and grabbed Tsuna's hand that was offered by Tsuna to her. She kissed Tsuna's hand and prayed. Tears were spotted on the corner of her eyes even though she is smiling—tried. Tsuna turned to Hibari and smiled.
"I'm sorry, Kyoya. I cannot fulfill our last promise." Tsuna's hands dropped weakly. And he whispered something that only the little girl can hear as he place his last best smile on his face. At that last moment Kyoya thought one thing :
'Promises are lies wrapped in pretty ribbons.'
To be continued...
NOTES :
[5] La mia bambina, Luisa means my little girl, Luisa (in italy)
[6] La mia cara madre means my dear mother (in italy)
[Edited: 07.01.15 - 04:59 P.M]
