Hey! This one contains spoilers!
Six months after the destruction of the Death Star Han and Leia got married. The day he proposed (sort of) was one of the days he actually felt nervous. Not knowing how to ask such question, Han Solo asked for Luke's help, of course the Jedi had no idea of what to do so; he ended up asking C3PO who had obviously mentioned it to princess Leia before Han could have even got a ring.
Leia went to find him followed by an excited C3PO; Han was having a conversation with Lando so he could get the ring for her.
"Sir!Sir!" The droid started to call him
At the sight of the princess and the stupid golden droid he knew Leia had been told about the proposal he would make. "I am going to dismember you and sell you in pieces!" he threatened him.
C3PO stopped walking almost immediately, what had he done now to be received in such a rude way by Master Solo?
Anyway Han didn't do what he said he would because Leia had run to hug him, he lifted her up suddenly relieved. "That's a yes, right?" he whispered in her ear
She grinned and kissed him sweetly. Lando laughed and winked at Han "I'll leave you two alone"
And since that day they had been always together, neither of them being able to stay away from each other for too long. Only when their son started to grow apart from them, their fights started.
"He's your son!" Leia would yell
"He's nothing like me! He hates me Leia" he would answer
After she sent Ben to train with Luke, who had told her it wasn't such a great idea, Leia started to avoid Han and secretly blame him, to be honest he also blamed her, just a little less. What really broke them apart was when their son finally gave into the dark side and betrayed Luke. That night Leia woke up startled and feeling like she would suffer a heart attack in any second, her husband also woke up. "What is it?" he asked worried and a bit annoyed
She turned to him slowly with her eyes full of tears.
"Ben" Han answered to himself
The next day Luke arrived. "What happened?" Leia asked weakly
Her brother looked broken, he finally shrugged "I am sorry, he has too much of our father in him. I tried Leia, but he had too much hatred and recentness inside of him, I am sorry"
After that he left without saying another word.
"He's not coming back" Leia said out loud. Han only nodded; he didn't feel like something would change if he spoke. He wasn't being careless just… scared. Since then the couple barely spoke to each other and when they did, well it wasn't nice.
Leia didn't sleep in their room anymore, she was now full time working in the Rebellion, it was her way of coping with pain, but Han just felt like she hated him and never wanted to see him again, so one day he decided to visit Maz without telling Leia, he returned a week later and she almost killed him.
"Did you just slap me?!" he yelled angry, the thing is that he didn't actually think it through and arrived in the middle of the night, he had guessed that she wouldn't be staying in the bedroom (as usual), so when he opened the door the last thing he expected was to be slapped.
"You are an idiot!" she yelled at him
"You hit me and I am the idiot?!" he replied
Leia shot him a warning glance "You left a week ago without telling me and now you just come back in the middle of the night?"
"Well yeah! First of all I never thought you'd actually notice my absence, I thought you'd be more comfortable without me standing in your way" he snapped
"You are an idiot" she repeated in a less aggressive tone
"Leia" Han insisted "you pushed me away a while ago, yet you want me to ask your for permission? What am I?...Your dog?Your servant? I am sick of you treating me like furniture, of you fully blaming me for what happened to Ben!"
"Stop" she said
"If I recall, the kid had two parents, so maybe you should blame yourself and not just me, try to stop playing the victim!"
"I am not being the victim, Solo!" she yelled with a lump on her throat "How do you want me to react if you left without even mentioning it? I had everyone looking for you only to hear from C3PO that you left with Chewie to visit Maz. Tell me if you don't want to be here anymore, but don't just disappear like an idiot"
Han noticed her watery eyes so he didn't push it, now he felt like an idiot for having talked to her in that way, he walked slowly to the bed and sat next to her; she took a deep breath and turned to him with the political face she would make to look impartial. "Do you want to leave?"
He stared back at her, he was sick of being there, but he loved her, he would have given everything to convince her of leaving, just the two of them but he knew that wasn't going to happen. Even now he hated himself for having made her cry, leaving now seemed the right decision "I might" he answered
His reply took her by surprise, the man she loved wanted to leave her, just like her son did, and her brother and now…him, the person she loved the most. She fixed her eyes on the pillows knowing that if she looked at Han she wouldn't be able to say what she was about to. "I am so tired of this Han, there's too much pain that time won't ever erase. We promised to look after each other and to love unconditionally but look at us! Even though we are next to one another we are… alone, so if you want to leave I wish that you would just leave, we can't keep hurting ourselves, if you don't want to keep fighting for us nor will I. Just know that... I love you"
Han felt a stung in his chest, he knew this wasn't a good time to leave, deep inside he didn't want to. He lifted her chin so their eyes would meet.
Han had never been good with words so instead of saying something he kissed her one last time. When they broke apart she looked down and took his hand.
Say something, he thought, please don't let me leave.
Say something, she thought, don't leave me.
Leia finally let go of his hand. Han stood up and left, really left.
I hope you liked it! Please review! And wait for the next chapter which contains the missing and necessary last scene of Han Solo and Leia :'( …. Did this chapter make you want to cry? Cause to be honest I almost did while I was writing it :P
