Beginning of the end.

Bella.

It didn't' matter to her that everyone was putting themselves in danger for her, she had the one she loved with her entire existence and the one she didn't love enough. Both loved her enough to risk their lives for her, one loved her enough not to leave her The army of newborn vampires were created to kill her and she didn't think about losing anyone but Edward. Or Jacob. The Cullen's and the wolves fought for her and she didn't once think what it would mean to lose any one of them. It didn't even occur to her that it could happen, she didn't try to stop anyone other than Edward. Or Jacob.

Victoria wanted to kill her and everyone she loved, she had to be stopped so the battle would have happened anyway, it wasn't entirely Bella's fault. When Seth whined and whimpered she was sure she had lost Jacob, so when Edward told her it was Sam she forgot to hide the relief she felt. Seth growled at her and Edward didn't bother to disguise his obvious disgust with her. It didn't matter because it wasn't Edward. Or Jacob, and she could breathe properly.

Bella didn't have to think about what the death of this man meant, she didn't want to think about it. To her it meant that Edward and the rest of the Cullen's would have to leave Forks, they would leave her when Jacob asked them to. He was the new alpha and he was going to make them leave. She had to talk to him, to make him understand why they couldn't leave her, she needed them. When she phoned him he hung up on her, she showed up and he slammed the door in her face or told her to fuck off. It only made her more persistent in her efforts, she was determined to make him see that they couldn't leave, he could not make them leave. He was angry with her and she wasn't sure why anymore. She couldn't understand why he was acting this way, why he was avoiding her or ignoring her.

Edward was becoming distant she recognized the signs, he left her once and she knew he was about to do it again. The Cullen's were upset with her and she didn't understand why, it wasn't like they lost anyone.

They were already preparing to leave and no matter how many times she begged they continued to tell her no. No she couldn't go with them and no they wouldn't stay. They were supposed to change her, supposed to be her family, supposed to keep her whole. She had to talk to Jacob before they left, they would see that this was better for all of them, they could work out whatever the difference was and stay. They could stay long enough to change her and then they could all leave together.

When she showed up to Sam and Emily's house she was determined to make Jacob see things her way. He was being ridiculous by staying mad at her for something she was unable to control. He fought for her because he wanted her alive and she was, he protected her, she just needed him to see that asking the Cullen's to leave would hurt her, he could never hurt her, he had to understand because he was supposed to love her.

He answered the door but before she could say anything Paul, the 'hot head' of the pack stepped between them and asked her what she wanted. He was intimidating but Bella knew that he couldn't hurt her, Jacob wouldn't allow him to. He was alpha now so Paul wouldn't dare hurt her, she was sure of it. She was even more determined to prove this to him, he still loved her and cared about her, they were best friends.

"I'm here to talk to Jacob not you…dog." She wasn't going to be afraid of some moody werewolf when Jake was standing right there, he was not happy to see her there but he would eventually get over this... whatever it was. When Jacob finally looked at her, he told her to fuck off and slammed the door right in her face she nearly gave up. But she remembered Edward and the Cullen's and she just couldn't lose them again, that was why she was here.

She banged on the door again louder and harder this time. This time a very angry Leah opened the door. Bella wondered why she would be so bothered by this, didn't she hate Sam? He left her for Emily so why was she so upset?

"In case you didn't get the hint the first time 'Bells' you're not welcome here" Bella stood there, she should be terrified of this woman, she was but she couldn't show it, she had to think about Edward, about Alice, she would not lose them, she couldn't. If standing up to the pack bitch was what she had to do to keep the love of her life then she would. She straightened out and looked Leah in the eye. She would not back down from this woman and Jacob wouldn't let anything happen to her.

"Haven't you done enough Bella? Our alpha is dead because of you. Emily lost her husband because of you. What is it that you want from Jacob anyway? Because we all know you're not here to offer your condolences or apologies." Bella hadn't been expecting this reaction from them. It wasn't her fault though, it couldn't be. They were trying to keep her and her father safe, this was not her fault, they were people and the wolves protected people. Emily lost her husband, maybe she would understand, she could talk to her. She could not lose Edward after everything they have been through. Her chest tightened and her heart hurt remembering the pain she felt when he left her the first time, she could not let him leave again.

"He told you to 'fuck off', I am pretty sure that means he doesn't want to see you. So why are you standing here on the doorstep of Sam's house, Sam a man you killed?" Bella wouldn't take this from her or anyone, she did not kill Sam, she couldn't kill them if she wanted to, they were all indesrtuctible the vampires and werewolves. They were going to have to talk to her eventually and maybe if she could make them understand she was sorry and that it wasn't really her fault, they would let the Cullen's stay. The door was shut in her face again. This time she would demand that Jacob speak with her. She couldn't understand why he was so upset, he didn't even like Sam at first. She balled her hand into a fist and banged as hard as she could. She could hear footsteps from inside, the door flew open she was a bit startled to see Emily standing before her. She looked even angrier than Leah, the scars on her face made her look scarier than she ever thought possible. She had to say something, they had to understand.

"I'm sorry Emily. I didn't mean for this to happen." She didn't. She was sorry. The look on Emily's face was like a slap to her own. It didn't seem as important to make them understand with Emily looking at her the way she was.

"You have nothing to be sorry for." Bella winced, the pain was everywhere. It was suddenly very obvious that even if she lost Edward over and over she would never understand Emily's pain. Bella was sorry. This was her fault. Sam was Emily's everything and it was Bella's fault she had lost that, she lost everything.

"My Sam died protecting you, he did his job and you have nothing to be sorry for." Emily was moving toward Bella her movements were strong, Bella took a step back. Emily was even more terrifying than the vampires and werewolves, this woman was angry and Bella was afraid. Everything she wanted no longer mattered.

"Jacob does not want to see you, he has taken over Sam's duties, their job is done, you no longer need protecting" Each word was a threat, Bella stepped back again as Emily stepped toward her. She could see Jacob behind Emily, ready to protect her. He would no longer protect Bella. She looked at everyone else, the grief on each of their faces was something she didn't see, something she should have seen first. She made herself see, she had to look at. This was her fault, Sam died protecting her and everyone who loved him was suffering.

"I don't care if you stalk Jacob anywhere else but you are no longer welcome in my home, on my front step or anywhere near my property." They walked inside and closed the door, she was left alone. It was her fault. She lost Jacob, she would lose Edward too, she would lose the Cullen's and her world would fall apart but no matter how much pain she felt she knew it would never come close to touching the pain that Emily felt.

Jacob wasn't upset with her for the reasons she thought he was, he hated her. It was written all over his face, he would never love her or feel anything close to love for her again. She tried to hold onto him for her own selfish needs and she hurt him. More than once, she broke his heart when all he did was love her. She got in her truck and drove away. There was nothing left for her here, she was no longer welcome.

She sat in her truck parked outside the perfect house of the most perfect family she had ever known. They were everything she wanted in a family. When the battle with the newborn vampires happened she was worried about Edward, she loved the Cullen's but she didn't stop them from fighting for her life. It was selfish, every part of her was greedy with a need for Edward, he came above everything else and it cost her. If they were leaving she would find a way to go with them, Charlie would have to understand that she couldn't be without them, couldn't be without him.

It was him that kept her breathing, she needed him and without him the air was sucked from her lungs. Without him she was nothing but an empty shell, hollow and lifeless. His eyes and his crooked smile would fix everything, it would ease the guilt creeping up on her, the sadness overcoming her and the loss of her best friend.

When no one came out to greet her she got out of the truck. She walked up the driveway and into the house. It was quiet, it was empty. They were gone. Her heart felt like it was being ripped from her chest. They hated her too. It was too much, she ran out and jumped into her truck. There was no more Edward. Her chest hurt and her stomach turned, he left her again and all she wanted was to be with him. He was supposed to love her for an eternity. They were supposed to be together always, this was not how it was supposed to end.

*If it seems a bit repetitive its because its supposed to be, if Edward is starting to sound like some drug to Bella, its because he is, she is doing horrible things because she cant think about anything but him. The need she has for him overpowers everything else.

I suppose I should mention that the story will bounce back and fourth between the two of them(Jacob and Bella) for a bit but it is Jacob & Leah.