As I Stand Here Watching
Chapter 2
Disclaimer: I own nothing here. It all belongs to J. K. Rowling. I just own the idea for this story.
Summary: Peter's thoughts about himself, his friends and the night that changed everything.
Warning: Does have spoilers for PoA and GoF.
Authors Note: Okay, I posted Chapter one to this over a year ago. Never really thought I'd ever add more to it. Just thought I'd leave it with James, Remus and Sirius, but then I saw the movie again on video, re-read the books again and ideas popped into my mind. Like this one. How does Peter think of himself? Of what he's done? Might even do some more on the other characters thoughts. If you have a character who's thoughts about Harry, the Marauder's and everything else going on, please feel free to let me know in a review and I'll try and do a chapter on them.
Casey: -. Shouldn't you be writing for your other story?
Snickers: I am, just coming along slowly.. besides this one's eating away at me like Sirius with chicken.
Sirius: o.- I'm offended.. I was really hungry. Rats can get boring you know.
Snickers: Oh please. We all know why you were eating rats in the first place.
Sirius: ô.o Point? Maybe I'll get lucky and find a nice, big, juicy one to play around with before I finish him off.
Remus: Sirius..please, be serious.
Sirius: ^^ I'm always Sirius!
All: ::groan::
Sirius: What? o.o By the way, what's this story about?
Snickers: Oh nothing.. just Peter and his thoughts about himself, what all he's done. Finding out his true self..
Sirius: A story about him!! That Rat?! Why?
Snickers: o.o; Well.. I've done one about you, James and Remus so...
Sirius: But...but....but....
Remus: Padfoot... love, calm yourself and let her go on with her story before you frighten the readers away. Or else.. there'll be no treat for you after supper. :: wryly grin::
Sirius: ^^;; I'll behave Moony! Really! ;.; Not teasing me are you?
Remus: :: whispers in his ear::
Sirius:: :: blush:: Remus!
Snickers: -. Moving onto the story now...
Casey: X.x Yes please..let's get it on.. I mean over with..
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Peter Pettigrew:
...... As I stand here watching, Lord V-Vo-Vol.. He who must not, no...no.. My...My Master is having me help him to rise again. I'm here, in a graveyard, wand in my hand, knife in my pocket, black cauldron near me. Death Eaters are nearby, off in the shadows watching. I'm glad they aren't too close. I'm not keen on them.
James' boy is here. Unharmed, as of yet. But I fear he will suffer the same fate as his friend. I.. I've kill the poor boy. I didn't want to! But the Dark Lord is powerful!! He would have killed me if I defied him. Just like he would have if I didn't hand James and Lily over to him. Harry as well. A baby, w-why he would fear such a small innocent child, I do not know but he wanted him. Remus and Sirius were to be next and...and... Sirius was right. I deserve death, deserve Azkaban, deserve the kiss of the Dementors. It..It's all my fault.
Oh Moony, Padfoot, Prongs where did it all go wrong? Dare I still even call you by those names? I know where it went wrong. With me, that's where. I was always the weakest one. Always needing help, always afraid, always stuttering as I do now. Just like I am at this moment, tying dear, sweet Harry to a tombstone, trying to mutter a sorry excuse for an apology, but all that comes out is a wheeze, and stutter. Like I would dare do anything to upset or make the Dark Lord angry with me.
I'm sorry James. You should never have made me secret keeper. I should have told you not to pick me, to take Sirius, but I didn't. I was too afraid. But, he's so powerful and you don't know what he would have done to me!! You don't know....you....you do know..... cause he did it to you. And I did it to Sirius.. I got him framed. I didn't actually kill him, but I killed the part of him that we all knew back in Hogwarts..I destroyed Remus as well. Leaving him alone to suffer all those years.. And Harry.. off to live with those relatives of his. Y-you know who.. I believe doesn't know about it. Or if he does, he dares not tell me.
Harry.....Harry you should have let Moony and Padfoot kill me. You shouldn't have spared me. I.. I know, it's my honor as a wizard that I owe you my life now in return, but, I'm scared to think that I'll never be able to do it.. I have to take blood from you Harry, it..it will hurt.. and I wish.. I wish I didn't have to but, he is so powerful and I am so weak.. not strong like your father and the others. You shut your eyes in pain and I cut into your arm, taking your blood and putting it into the cauldron for the potion.
They say, that your Animagi form chooses you.. mine choose me well..
I am truly a rat.
Please R/R!! Thanks!!
Chapter 2
Disclaimer: I own nothing here. It all belongs to J. K. Rowling. I just own the idea for this story.
Summary: Peter's thoughts about himself, his friends and the night that changed everything.
Warning: Does have spoilers for PoA and GoF.
Authors Note: Okay, I posted Chapter one to this over a year ago. Never really thought I'd ever add more to it. Just thought I'd leave it with James, Remus and Sirius, but then I saw the movie again on video, re-read the books again and ideas popped into my mind. Like this one. How does Peter think of himself? Of what he's done? Might even do some more on the other characters thoughts. If you have a character who's thoughts about Harry, the Marauder's and everything else going on, please feel free to let me know in a review and I'll try and do a chapter on them.
Casey: -. Shouldn't you be writing for your other story?
Snickers: I am, just coming along slowly.. besides this one's eating away at me like Sirius with chicken.
Sirius: o.- I'm offended.. I was really hungry. Rats can get boring you know.
Snickers: Oh please. We all know why you were eating rats in the first place.
Sirius: ô.o Point? Maybe I'll get lucky and find a nice, big, juicy one to play around with before I finish him off.
Remus: Sirius..please, be serious.
Sirius: ^^ I'm always Sirius!
All: ::groan::
Sirius: What? o.o By the way, what's this story about?
Snickers: Oh nothing.. just Peter and his thoughts about himself, what all he's done. Finding out his true self..
Sirius: A story about him!! That Rat?! Why?
Snickers: o.o; Well.. I've done one about you, James and Remus so...
Sirius: But...but....but....
Remus: Padfoot... love, calm yourself and let her go on with her story before you frighten the readers away. Or else.. there'll be no treat for you after supper. :: wryly grin::
Sirius: ^^;; I'll behave Moony! Really! ;.; Not teasing me are you?
Remus: :: whispers in his ear::
Sirius:: :: blush:: Remus!
Snickers: -. Moving onto the story now...
Casey: X.x Yes please..let's get it on.. I mean over with..
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Peter Pettigrew:
...... As I stand here watching, Lord V-Vo-Vol.. He who must not, no...no.. My...My Master is having me help him to rise again. I'm here, in a graveyard, wand in my hand, knife in my pocket, black cauldron near me. Death Eaters are nearby, off in the shadows watching. I'm glad they aren't too close. I'm not keen on them.
James' boy is here. Unharmed, as of yet. But I fear he will suffer the same fate as his friend. I.. I've kill the poor boy. I didn't want to! But the Dark Lord is powerful!! He would have killed me if I defied him. Just like he would have if I didn't hand James and Lily over to him. Harry as well. A baby, w-why he would fear such a small innocent child, I do not know but he wanted him. Remus and Sirius were to be next and...and... Sirius was right. I deserve death, deserve Azkaban, deserve the kiss of the Dementors. It..It's all my fault.
Oh Moony, Padfoot, Prongs where did it all go wrong? Dare I still even call you by those names? I know where it went wrong. With me, that's where. I was always the weakest one. Always needing help, always afraid, always stuttering as I do now. Just like I am at this moment, tying dear, sweet Harry to a tombstone, trying to mutter a sorry excuse for an apology, but all that comes out is a wheeze, and stutter. Like I would dare do anything to upset or make the Dark Lord angry with me.
I'm sorry James. You should never have made me secret keeper. I should have told you not to pick me, to take Sirius, but I didn't. I was too afraid. But, he's so powerful and you don't know what he would have done to me!! You don't know....you....you do know..... cause he did it to you. And I did it to Sirius.. I got him framed. I didn't actually kill him, but I killed the part of him that we all knew back in Hogwarts..I destroyed Remus as well. Leaving him alone to suffer all those years.. And Harry.. off to live with those relatives of his. Y-you know who.. I believe doesn't know about it. Or if he does, he dares not tell me.
Harry.....Harry you should have let Moony and Padfoot kill me. You shouldn't have spared me. I.. I know, it's my honor as a wizard that I owe you my life now in return, but, I'm scared to think that I'll never be able to do it.. I have to take blood from you Harry, it..it will hurt.. and I wish.. I wish I didn't have to but, he is so powerful and I am so weak.. not strong like your father and the others. You shut your eyes in pain and I cut into your arm, taking your blood and putting it into the cauldron for the potion.
They say, that your Animagi form chooses you.. mine choose me well..
I am truly a rat.
Please R/R!! Thanks!!
