CHAPTER 2

CHAPTER 2

"Bella, I need to talk to you." I nodded and smiled like nothing was wrong. Ha, everything was wrong. The whole damn world was wrong.

"Sure come, on into the living room." He followed me into the living room, and sat down on the old armchair. I sat down on the sofa.

"Well? What do you want to tell me?" I let go of the whole I-don't-know what's-going-on look and glared at him. I swear if looks could kill he would have been dead.

"You know don't you? Alice probably told you?" He said quietly.

"Yes I know. And I thought you loved me, but apparently I was wrong. You don't love me at all do you?" I said, and I was positive he could hear the venom dripping from my voice.

"Bella-"I cut him off.

"Listen to me Edward Cullen, and listen well. I am a human, and I was never enough, and I never will be. I don't deserve you, and you don't love me. You don't have the right to love me, or at least pretend to love me, and then take everything I have away from me. It's not your choice to make. I don't care that you're leaving me to give me a better life. The life I wanted was with you, and since I can't have that, I am going to leave you. And you can do whatever you were doing before you met me. I was just a small distraction in your life and nothing more. So just go, and get the hell out of my life."

I was crying, and I fell on my knees, and I cried until my body couldn't produce any more tears. All the anger had disappeared, and I felt nothing but pain, and emptiness. He left so quietly I didn't hear him. He didn't even protest, or tell me this isn't how it should be or anything. It just made me burst into tears again. I was right the whole time. I wasn't someone like him could love, and no matter how hard I tried to change that, I couldn't.

I got up off the floor and wrote Charlie a note.

Daddy, please don't hate me when you read this. I love you more than you can imagine. But I can't stay here anymore, Edward left me again. It was wrong for me to come to Forks in the first place. This place has given me a lot of happiness, but it's also given me a lot of pain. And I can't stay here any longer and bear the pain. I am so sorry. I promise you that I am not running off with Edward. He's the last person I want to be with at the moment. Please don't bother the Cullen's about this. I will call you Dad, and I am sorry that I caused you so much pain.

Love Always and Forever,

Bella

I left the note on the table, and then I grabbed my bags, and put them in the truck. Alice was sitting inside the truck waiting for me. I just sat there with tears streaming down my face and Alice gave me hug, and for the longest time I just sobbed on her shoulder.

"Bella, Edward is going to leave. He's going to join the Denali Coven. I think he's on his way right now. He doesn't want to stay with us since this time you left him. He thinks that he's not worthy to be part of the family anymore. Which I think is true."

I panicked. He was leaving because of me, he couldn't do that. I couldn't rip apart his family. It wasn't fair to the rest of them.

"Alice, I can't do this. I am ripping apart your family. I am just going to go straight to the Volturi, and I'll stay with them. They can change me, and you can come and see me anytime."

"Bella it doesn't matter, Carlisle and Esme will understand. Emmett and Jasper will probably try to hunt Edward down and kick his butt. And even Rose won't be mad; she'll think that you have a lot of girl power."

That made me laugh, well as tempting as living with them sounded I couldn't do it. Deep down, they would probably still blame me.

"No, I can't." My voice cracked. "It's just that, even if they don't hate me, they all still know it's my fault he left. Because I wasn't enough for him, and he decided that it was just easier for him to just leave me so I can have a better life and so can he."

"Bella, that's not true you know-," I cut her off.

"No, it is true. Last time he promised he wouldn't leave me. And he did, or at least he tried to. The point is that I wasn't meant to be part of his life. And I don't think I ever will be." Hot tears were running down my cheeks.

"Bella, I swear it's not like that. They will love you, no matter what." She was doing her best to get me to go to the Cullens.

My resolve dissolved. I rather be with the Cullens then be with the Volturi, I knew that going to the Cullens was wrong. Maybe if another coven came by I could try to join them.

"Let's go then, I want to be a vampire in 3 days." I started the car and made my way to the Cullen Mansion.