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Chapter 2
The fear
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And when do you think it will all become clear?
'Cause I'm being taking over by The Fear
Lily Allen – the fear
My alarm woke me up again at 6:30am, a more reasonable time than when I had woken earlier. I couldn't help but wonder what fate had in store for me today. The nerves from the day before had a woken with me. I kept telling myself that this was right; I had to get it over with fast, like removing a band aid. I put the thoughts into the far back of my mind and grabbed my clothes and headed for the shower.
I dressed in my favorite jeans and a pale blue tank top, with matching blue flats. I pulled my hair back and pinned it to the side. I looked over myself in the mirror and then down at Mary's make up on the counter. I had never worn make up before, I had never found the need to. Being my first day I thought maybe it would help me make a good impression if I put on a little bit, but it really wasn't me.
Giving up on my make up debate I made my way out to the kitchen. Dad, Mary and embry were sitting at the table quietly eating their breakfast. Dad had his nose in the morning's paper, while Mary sipped her coffee. Embry I wasn't surprised to see, was destroying his enormous breakfast with ease.
"Morning everyone" I greeted and sat next to my dad.
"Morning Trin" dad replied still immersed in his paper.
I poured myself a bowl of cereal and ate silently. I wasn't big on meal time discussions and apparently they weren't either. I watched as embry finished off the last of his food and sat back patting his stomach, finally satisfied. I had no idea how he managed to put away so much food and still be as fit as he was.
"Hey em?" embry looked up at my nickname for him.
"Yeah?"
"Do you have some kind of bottomless pit for a stomach?" I asked.
Mary choked on the sip she had just take from her coffee, while I could see my father's quiet shakes of laughter from behind his paper. Embry chuckled when he realized my question wasn't a serious one. I think my slowly creeping smile gave me away.
"You could say that, why do you ask?" he finally replied.
"I was just wondering how you managed to eat enough food for all four of us" I shrugged.
I didn't get my answer, Mary pointed to the clock on the wall noting that it was about time we left for school. My nerves began to come back to light in my mind. I really hoped that I was ready for this. Embry rose from the table and grabbed his bag from the floor. I followed his move and ran back to my room to get my bag. I doubled checked by bag to make sure I had all my books and things. Once I was satisfied I returned to the kitchen where I had left embry waiting.
Dad had finally put down the paper and was now waiting for me by the door. He smiled at me and sighed pulling me into a tight hug. I could tell he was worried about this too, but I was positive now that this was the way to go. I had to remind myself that getting it over with quick was the way.
"You don't have to do this you know" dad reminded me when he finally let me go.
"I know but I want to go" I smiled at him.
"But you've only been here a day, you haven't even had time to settle in" he pressed on.
"Dad I'll be ok, besides embry will watch out for me" I nudged embry in the side.
Clearly he wasn't really paying much attention to what was going on. He looked down at me curious about why I had nudged him and then looked at my dad and nodded. I was sure he had no idea what he had agreed to but I didn't mind, dad didn't say another word. With that embry made his way out the front door.
I quickly hugged dad again and waved goodbye to Mary before running out the door after embry. He stood waiting for me next to what I had assumed was his car. He motioned for me to get in and I did. It was starting to drizzle and I really wasn't keen on being soaked at school on my first day. We hadn't been driving long, when we pulled up out the front of a tiny red house and beeped the horn. I looked over at embry confused. He nodded his head towards to guy running out the door towards the car.
When he reached the car, he pulled the back door open and jumped in shaking off the rain that he had just run through. I turned around and smiled politely at the new person in the car. He smiled back kindly.
"Hi I'm embry's friend Quil" he introduced himself and held out his hand for me to shake.
"Nice to meet you Quil, I'm Trin" I replied shaking his hand.
As soon as Quil put on his seat belt, embry drove off. I turned back around in my seat and listened as the boys talked about the football game from the night before. I found it amusing listening to their outrage at a bad ref call and how excited they got when they spoke of what they called an amazing play. I didn't understand half of what they were talking about, but then again I didn't understand football. Its not cos I was a girl, I just never really watched sports, let alone played them.
I was so caught up in their conversation that I didn't realize when we pulled into the school lot, but the moment I saw the other kids I started to freak. I found myself breathing faster and faster. My hands gripped the seat tightly by my side.
"Trin you ok?" embry asked poking me in the side.
I didn't reply right away, I was trying to compose myself. I wasn't doing to well. I knew I could make it through the day, it was just taking that first step through the door that I was worried about.
All the eyes of the students starring at the new kid as she made her way past them while walking to the office. The whispers of those students about where the new girl might have come from, what might be hiding in her mysterious past.
I worried about what they would think of me. La push was a small town after all and rumors are spread fast in a small town.
I was brought out of my trance by Embry clapping in front of my face. I looked over at Embry's concerned face, then to Quil's equally concerned face.
"I'm ok just give me a minute" I finally managed.
The two boys looked at each other and then back at me.
When I finally managed to get back under control I picked up my bag and stepped out of the car. Embry and Quil followed my lead. I looked over to embry insisting that he led the way, after all I had no idea where the office was and I was in no mood for waling around the school blindly.
I walked behind the boys as the took me to the office, neither of them saying a word but occasionally looking over their shoulders to make sure I hadn't passed out or anything. I kept my eyes looking ahead as we walked. I could sense the heads turning as we walked by and I could hear the muttered comments coming from the on lookers. I tried my hardest not to let it bother me. I tried to block it out, but trying is one thing actually managing it is another.
I sighed in relief when we made it to the door that read "office". I followed the boys inside and walked up to the old lady at the counter. She looked up at me over her rectangular glasses and smiled.
"You must be Katrina Moore, we weren't expecting you for a few more days" she said as he rummaged through her pile of papers.
"I know, but I really wanted to get started with school" I replied trying to sound believable.
She finally pulled out my paper work. She handed over my schedule and a piece of paper that I had to have all my teachers sign and return it at the end of the day. I thanked her and walked back out of the office with embry and Quil.
I didn't even get to look at my schedule before it was snatched from my grasps by Quil. He looked over it before handing it straight to embry. The two began discussing my classes amongst themselves. I took the opportunity to grab my schedule back off the and finally look over it myself.
1st maths
2nd history
3rd arts
4th lunch
5th gym
6th English
Turned out that I had all my classes with either Embry or Quil expect my last period which was English. I was starting to feel better about the day already. At least I was going to know someone in my class up until English, but that gave me the chance to make some friends, or at least I hoped.
When the bell rang I said goodbye to Embry and followed Quil to the math's block. There was no arranged seating in this class so I handed my form to the teacher and took a seat next to Quil at the back of the room. I was so happy that I wasn't made to introduce myself to the class; it would have been both embarrassing and humiliating to say the least.
I found it pretty easy to keep up with the class and before I knew it, it was over. I walked with Quil to our next class talking about the lesson before. It turned out Quil was terrible at maths so I offered to help him. He seemed a little too thrilled at the idea, but his reaction made me laugh.
Embry was waiting for us outside the classroom door. Unfortunately this teacher wasn't as kind as the one before. She made me stand up the front and tell the class a little about myself. I wasn't about to tell them my life story.
"Ummm I'm Trin and I just moved back here after travelling with my mum for the last couple of years"
It wasn't a lie, I just left out a lot of information. It was good enough for the teacher so I made my way back to my seat with Quil and embry. This lesson didn't go as fast as the last, but I never really got into history much. Class was a bore, the teacher rambled on about things that were really irrelevant to me. I was counting down the minutes till the bell, my next class I was really looking forward too.
Arts was my thing. I loved painting and sketching, it was something that moving around never stopped me from doing. I had given my old sketch book to my mother to take with her so she would always have something of mine with her, and so that she wouldn't forget me. I couldn't wait to get a new sketch book, La push was so beautiful and I just wanted to capture it myself.
Finally the bell rang. I practically jumped out of my chair, grabbed my bag and hurried to the door. Embry gave me a funny look when he made it to the door.
"I'm guessing you like art?" he laughed when I wanted him to hurry, "either that or you really need the bathroom"
Quil snorted and laughed loudly. People looked over at him funny, but he didn't seem to care. I guessed he was used to it by now.
Quil left us at the art room door and the headed off to his own class down the hall. I looked around the room; it was set out like a normal class room, but with painting easels set up against the walls. I handed my paper to the teacher for her to sign. She was really young compared to the other teachers I had today. She smiled at me and handed me the paper.
"I'm Miss Kinsey, and don't worry I'm not going to make you introduce yourself, its hard enough on your first day without all that" she laughed.
"Thanks I don't know if I could handle that again"
She smiled again and pointed towards the empty seat in front of Embry. I took my seat next to a tiny little girl with her nose in a book. She had her long black hair pulled back into a high pony tail. She looked up at me as I sat down. She hid closer into her book as I looked over at her.
I thought I should introduce myself since I was going to be sitting next to her for the rest of the year. I tapped her on the shoulder and she shyly looked over at me once again.
"Hi I'm Trin" I greeted her politely.
I hoped she didn't think I was being weird by introducing myself to her. She placed her book down on the table and turned to face me.
"I'm angie" she replied cautiously.
I was a little taken back by her reaction to me. I smiled at her kindly, hoping that she didn't think I was being rude or anything. She gave me a small smile back.
"So what you reading?" I asked pointing to her book on the table.
"Oh this, it's just a silly romance story" she shrugged it off.
"That's cool I like romance stories, maybe I could lend you some of mine" I offered.
"Really? That would be really nice thank you" she finally seemed to be comfortable.
Miss Kinsey called the class to order and gave us our task for the day. We had to do a black and white sketch on the person next to us. It turned out books weren't the only thing Angie and I had in common; she was a really good artist.
We spent the rest of the lesson talking about our favorite stories. It turned out she liked a lot of the same ones as I did. She was a really funny girl when she finally opened up; it was nice to finally have made a friend.
When the class was over Angie and I walked with embry to the cafeteria. Even Embry liked talking with Angie she had an interesting way of seeing things.
"I'm sorry about how I acted earlier" she started as we took a seat at one of the tables, "I've never actually had a friend before"
She seemed a little embarrassed about admitting that to me. I understood how she felt though. With all the moving around I had never bothered to make friends, it would only have been more upsetting when we had to leave again.
"Hey don't worry about it, I haven't either"
We hadn't been sitting long when we were joined by Quil and some guys I didn't know. They all sat down and talked animatedly about their previous classes. I glanced over at embry hoping he would see my confusion, I was glad when he nodded.
"Hey guys this is Trin, my new step sister and her friend Angie" he pointed at me and Angie then continued, "And girls these knuckle heads are Seth, Colin and Brady" he pointed at each of the boys.
I gave them a small wave; I was distracted by Embry's introduction. It was the first time he had actually said step sister. I felt all mushy inside. I hadn't expected him to think of me that way, but I really thought it was sweet.
It turned out that Seth, Colin and Brady were two years below us. There was no way I would have picked that by looking at them. They were almost as tall as embry and were just as built.
It was the first time I had noticed how similar the boys all looked. If you just glanced at them you would have thought they were related. They all had similar cropped hair cuts and where similar it physical appearance, but their eyes were all very different.
There was one other thing I noticed about these boys, they were all very warm. It was like they were all running a fever. At first I thought it was just embry, until I met Quil and then I thought it might have been a La push thing, but Angie wasn't warm at all. Now with these boys here and the heat coming off from them, it made me think there was something very different about these boys and I wasn't quite sure what.
I let it go thinking maybe I was just being silly. Paranoid was something that I never was and after what it had done to my mother, it was something I didn't want.
The rest of the day went by in a bit of a blur, at least until we got to English. I had started the day thinking that I was going to be alone in this class, but then I met Angie and it turned out we were in the same class. Things seemed like they were going to turn out ok. Then the teacher decided he would change the seating arrangement.
I sat on the left side of the class room next to an empty seat. It turned out the person I was supposed to be sitting next to was absent and had been for a while. I looked over to the other side of the room at Angie who was stuck sitting next to a really creepy looking guy. I felt really sorry for her.
To make matters worse, the teacher decided he was going to pull a pop quiz on us. I would have been worried if I wasn't fluent with shake spear. I heard some of the other kids groaning; clearly they weren't as well in tuned with Julius Ceasar.
When the lesson was over I walked with Angie to the parking lot. We discussed the new seating arrangements and the earlier test.
"And he smelt funny, could it have gotten any worse" she stressed about her seating buddy.
I couldn't help but laugh at her crazy hand waving as she tried to prove her point; it was like playing a really bad game of charades.
"Well at least he exists; the person I'm supposed to sit next to is M.I.A" I pointed out.
She shrugged; after all I did have a point. I said goodbye to Angie and walked over to the car where embry and Quil were waiting. I greeted them and jumped in the car. Quil jumped in the back and as soon as our belts were on Embry drove off.
"So how was your day?" Quil asked as we drove.
"It was better than I expected" I replied honestly.
It was true I was so frightened about what to expect. The fear of what people would say and the fear about what people were thinking, yet when I was there apart from the first moments I didn't really notice. It's not to say I wasn't looking forward to getting home, but embry had other plans.
"Hey hope you don't mind, but we gotta stop off somewhere on the way home" he said as we drove.
"That's cool" I replied.
We drove through La push and then down a dirt road. A cute little house appeared as we got further down the road. I could see that Seth, Colin and Brady had already arrived. I wondered to myself about how they could have possibly gotten here before we did. Embry pulled into the driveway and got out of the car. I followed him and Quil up to the front door.
Before I had even made it to the top I was pulled into a tight hug. When they pulled away I came face to face with a beautiful Quileute woman. She had long straight black hair and flawless skin. The only thing that stood out more was the three long, red scars that pulled the right side of her face into a permanent scowl.
"It's so nice to finally meet you Katrina, Embry has been so excited about having a sister" she smiled.
I looked over at Embry who had begun to blush a deep red. He was rubbing the back of his neck trying to think of what to say before just giving up and walking inside.
"Trin is fine, and it's nice to meet you to…. Uh…"I didn't actually know her name.
"I'm Emily, Sam's fiancée" she chuckled at my confusion.
Before I could ask who Sam was I noticed a tall muscular man walk out of the front door in nothing but a pair of cut off jeans. He was clearly older than the other boys but I don't think by much.
Sam wrapped his arms around Emily's waste and pulled her closer to him. He looked down at her with such adoration; I had never seen such love. He kissed her on the nose and smiled down at her, before looking over at me.
"well Trin, welcome to our home, I hope you don't mind hanging out with Emily for a little while its just the boys and I have got to go and run some errands" he said not once letting go of Emily's side.
"Of course not "I replied.
Sam nodded and kissed Emily goodbye before running off around the back to where the boy had all disappeared leaving me and Emily on the porch. That was different I thought to myself, things just got a little bit different again.
I turned to face Emily. She watched the boys go and then looked over at me kindly. I smiled at her, I don't think I had ever met someone so welcoming before in my life.
"Do you want to help me with dinner" she asked.
"Sure" I replied and followed her into the house.
This was going to an unusual afternoon, I could feel it.
And that's chapter 2, hope you enjoyed!
Kim xoxox
