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Despite their silence only lasting less than a minute, it felt like an eternity. It was Robert that spoke first "you really do love me huh?" causing Michael to blush like a tomato, but managed to keep his head up, looking him in the eye. "Is it really that obvious?" he asked. Robert gave a slight smile then "just a little bit" which was then followed by another awkward silence. "Would you mind if I kissed you again?" Robert asked, and for an answer Michael locked his lips with Robert, any earlier awkwardness suddenly gone. This kiss was deeper and longer than the first one. Michael found that he had fireworks going off in his head. He had wanted this for so long, and wasn't prepared to let the opportunity go to waste. If nothing happened as a result of tonight, he could say he gave it everything he had. His tongue lightly touched Robert's bottom lip, asking, no begging for entrance, which Robert gave. Like with their training, the parabatai's tongues battled for dominance. Eventually they broke for air. Panting slightly it was Michael that spoke "We should probably head back before anyone notices we're gone" he said, which they did.
They both shared a room together, which resulted in both Michael and Robert lying awake, but trying to convince the other person that they had fallen asleep. Michael was just trying to work out what had happened. The man he had fallen in love with knew he had fallen in love with him and had kissed him. He knew they couldn't continue but he so desperately wanted to. He kept thinking of everything he knew about parabatai and thinking of any loopholes that would allow him to be with Robert. Even if there were, Valentine would never allow it and would (if he was in a good mood) just kick them out the Circle never to return. But this was Valentine so was unlikely to happen, so if he did find out they would both suffer terribly and Michael knew he couldn't do that to Robert. Add that to the prejudice and hate they would suffer from other Shadowhunters, which meant no one could know about it. Ever.
Robert on the other hand couldn't believe he had just kissed his parabatai Michael Wayland twice and had sort of liked it. He was till however trying to work out just how he really felt about the whole situation. He knew he shouldn't like it at all. It broke all kinds of rules and expectations and would never last. It just couldn't. He had kissed girls but he hadn't had a kiss like the one he had just had. He had known for a while something had been bothering Michael for a while, he had just not expected a declaration of love. Michael had been in so much emotional pain when he had admitted the truth. They had both known this couldn't, shouldn't happen but Robert had a feeling neither of them were going to let it go just yet. The consequences of having a homosexual relationship with your parabatai were ridiculously harsh, and, despite whatever feelings he may or may not be developing for Michael Wayland, Robert Lightwood knew that he wasn't prepared to face them, even if it did mean breaking Michael's heart.
