"The New Moon"

Disclaimer: Don't own Remus or Sirius or anyone for that matter. tear

Author note: Thank you to everyone who reviewed the first chapter! Love to you all!

Chapter two:

Despite my protests, I found myself at a dinner party at James' that weekend. We were sitting in the sitting room, which was appropriate, and eating some finger foods that Lily had prepared.

"These are really quite good, Lily." I said, to break the silence. If there's anything I can't stand, it's silence. And when I'm nervous, I'm even more polite than usual.

"Thank you, Remus."

The silence continued.

I twiddled my thumbs, ate another mini quiche and looked over at Sirius. He looked quite nervous, I wondered why. After reviewing Lily's conversation with me, I wondered if she was only putting on an act about not knowing. Why would she come all the way into London just to tell me I'm a bad cook? We all know it! I was hoping tonight was not a way to get Sirius and I to talk about the dreaded incident.

Suddenly, there was a 'beep' noise from the kitchen and both James and Lily jumped off the couch. Clearly, the food was ready.

"No, no, I'll get it darling." James said, gently pushing his wife back onto the couch. He hurried into the kitchen and after a few seconds, poked his head out again and said, "Remus, would you come and help me?"

"Gladly," I muttered without thinking. "I mean, sure I will, James." And it was off into the kitchen with me.

Remus followed James into the kitchen and I was left alone with Lily.

"Sirius, how are you holding up?" she asked me.

"This is stupid, I never should have suggested it. Do you see how uncomfortable he is?"

"Sirius, if he doesn't face this, it's going to eat both of you from inside. You cannot leave love bottled up inside."

I stared at my hands, thinking. "Is it love? Am I gay, Lily?"

"That's a decision you have to make for yourself, Sirius, I can't tell you if you are or not."

I ground the palms of my hands into my eye sockets. "Bloody hell, the world is upside down ever since Remus got hurt. I've been having these really weird mixed feelings about him. And, I thought it was just that I was jealous of their relationship when Mary was going to marry him but maybe it was more. I'm so confused…"

"Don't worry about it Sirius, you'll work it out."

"I hope so, if not I gotta get away from Remus."

Just then, James burst through the kitchen door and bellowed. "Dinner is served!"

Lily and I rose from the couches and crossed into the dining room as James and Remus came out, bearing pots and plates of food. I sat down, hoping dinner wouldn't be too painful.

"Wonderful pork chops, Lily." I said, mentally hitting myself. Could I be more annoying?

"Thanks, Remus." She replied.

We sat in silence for a while until Lily dropped her fork with a clang and clutched her belly.

"What's wrong?" James exclaimed, looking worried.

Lily looked up and smiled at him, tears in her eyes. "The baby kicked."

James' eyes lit up, "Really?"

"Yeah, I felt it, ooh! There it goes again!"

James rushed over and placed his hand on her stomach, "I felt it…"

I watched this scene with bursting pride as well as sheer amazement. I had never seen Prongs act so sweet and tender. It was a very nice moment between the husband and wife.

"Well, that's lovely James," Sirius said around a mouthful of potatoes, I caught a hint of sarcasm in his voice, how could he be so insensitive?

I turned to him. "Don't you care about anyone but yourself?"

"Yeah, some people I have particularly strong feelings for."

"Really, who are they?"

Sirius stared at me and I felt his eyes burning into me, like he was trying to work out something inside my head. He looked as though he wanted to kiss me again, so I quickly said, "Uh, Lily, have you thought of any names for that little kick boxer?"

Lily giggled. "Well, for a girl, we were thinking Anne for my grandmother and if it's a boy, we were thinking Harry for James' father."

James beamed. "We can only hope it's a boy."

Lily hit him lightly on the arm and he grinned, obviously pleased that he had succeeded in aggravating his wife.

After dinner, Sirius and I apparated back to our flat. I always thought that when you left an awkward dinner party, you left the awkwardness behind. Well, not when you go home with the person who makes you feel awkward. I strode into the kitchen after hanging up my coat. Sirius plopped down on his leather couch and turned on the telly…full blast.

I winced into the open freezer, "Sirius, could you turn that down a bit?"

"No." Sirius says simply, picking something out of his teeth.

I smacked my forehead and took some ice cream out of the freezer. After spooning some onto a bowl, I put the carton away and walked into the living area to watch whatever Sirius was watching.

Sirius looked over at me, "Oh sure, don't get me any!"

"How would I know you wanted ice cream?"

"Well, the best tactic is to ask! That's usually how you figure out what people want!"

I wanted to know what it was that Sirius wanted. So, I asked, "What do want me to do, Sirius?"

"I don't know Remus…I don't know…" he clicked the television off and stalked into his bedroom.

"I'm so confused." I said to the empty room.

A/N: Ah, the sexual confusion, don't ya love it? LOL. Review, please!