I smiled in anticipation, as I logged into the chat; it has been three months since meeting Nate in that chat room and our relationship or whatever you want to call this thing, is getting stronger.
We talk every free moment we have;-which sadly is not much- and as crazy as it may seem, I think I'm falling in love with Nate, I know I finally lost it, I'm falling in love with a boy that I don't even know, but he has something that makes me feel safe and happy; a feeling that I haven't felt in a long time.
In my defense, we have become really close and I know more about him bedsides the fact that he loves Elvis Costello.
For example, he is the second youngest of four brothers; he loves writing songs and plays guitar, piano and the drums. Then, if he couldn't be more perfect, he is a hardcore Christian, and very proud of the fact.
I let out a groan when my phone started ringing, a familiar voice on the other end made me pull a face and roll my eyes.
"Hey babes wanna go out today?" I know that I should say yes, because we haven't gone out in a long time and I always blame it to my busy schedule, but to be honest, I really don't want to go out with him.
"Babe, I really don't feel like going out." I answer him, checking the screen if Nate was on.
"Babe please, let's go out? I feel like we are falling apart and you don't even care!" He is right; we are drifting apart and I'm not sure if I want to fix it.
"I know, Liam and I'm sorry but…" He didn't let me finish because he shouted into the phone "You don't care about me any more isn't it?" A moment of clarity hit me, this relationship was over.
"Of course I care about you, but …" And before I could say anything else he continue "...but not in a romantic way." I nodded, and realized he couldn't see me nodding.
"Yes, and I'm sorry, you are a really great guy, but I just don't feel the same way anymore…"
I took a deep breath and carried on, before I lost my courage "Liam I'm really sorry I wish that it wouldn't end this way; and I want you to know that I really want to be your friend."
"I wish I could Miley, but I don't think I can; but know this, if you ever need me I will be here for you." His voice was full of sadness and disappointment but I knew that this was for the best.
As if the day couldn't get any worse when I log In Nate wasn't on, a few minutes pass and the words I have been waiting to appear blinked on the screen.
ElvisCostello1Fan1 Is On.
And immediately he sends me a message.
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Hey! How it's my funny girl doing?
How Am I doing? That was a simple and hard question to answer, because I really don't know how am I.
I was about to answer but he beat me.
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Are you ok Ronny?
RainbowLover: Yes, I guess.
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Come on, you have to try a little harder if you wanna lie to me.
RainbowLover: What are you talking about? I'm fine, really.
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Yeah! Sure you are. Wanna talk about it?
RainbowLover: Well… I just broke up with Will.
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Oh… I'm sorry you must feel really sad.
RainbowLover: Actually there is the thing, I'm kind of …happy 8/
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Happy? I thought you really love him?
Well I guess that I was fooling everybody with the fact that really love him, well everyone but Liam.
RainbowLover: Well… I thought I did, but I can't get a guy out of my head!
Well actually it's two men Nick and him but I think it's better if I leave that tiny detail to myself.
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Another guy? And who is he?
RainbowLover: Nick!
ElvisCostello1Fan1: WHAT? Nick as in your ex-boyfriend Nick?
Wow I didn't think that he would remember the name of my ex, I really thought that he wasn't paying attention to me, Aww can he get any cuter ?
RainbowLover: Yes, now you see what my problem is? What should I do?
ElvisCostello1Fan1: I honestly don't know.
RainbowLover: Wow, Nate the magnificent it's out of words O.O Well that's a first.
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Yeah! I know, but I have the same problem ¬.¬
RainbowLover: Really? ElvisCostello1Fan1: Yes! I kind of still have feeling for my ex.
RainbowLover: Which one Marie or Destiny?
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Destiny… obviously.
RainbowLover: You know what, we should meet, that way we will be available to talk better.
This is it! I could meet Nate in person; I'm so excited, but what if he says no… Or worse - says yes; we meet and he doesn't like me…?
My doubts dissolved into nothing when I read his answer.
ElvisCostello1Fan1: I will love to meet you 8D
RainbowLover: Well meet me in the Starbucks near Toluca Lake, do you now the place?
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Yes I go there all the time. Meet you at six?
Yes! I can't wait, I'm so excited, I finally going to meet Nate; what would he think, when he finds out that I'm Miley Stewart? Would he like me for who I am, or because I'm famous?
Well, I guess that there's no going back now; I am tired of trying to kid myself and I am really dying to meet him.
RainbowLover: I can't wait 8]
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Me neither.
RainbowLover: Well see you later because right now I have to get ready. See you soon 8DD
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Wait! How am I gonna recognize you?
RainbowLover: I'm gonna be wearing a lavender brooch [picture in profile].
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Ok then I'm gonna wear a black hat with a purple feather to match your brooch.
RainbowLover: That sounds great can't gait. Goodbye handsome.
ElvisCostello1Fan1: Bye beautiful.
With that, I logged out and walked to my closet; trying to find something to wear for my date with Nate.
I decided to wear a white summer dress with silver touches [picture in profile] and silver sandals and some bracelets to add more bling to my outfit; I left my hair down, allowing my curls go wild because I like them that way; I apply some cherry lip gloss, put my silver earnings and my purse… and how can I forget my lavender brooch.
"Mom, I'm going to the Starbucks." I yell my mom from the front porch.
I get in my car and drive to the Starbucks; I looked at the clock when I arrived; it's just 5:15pm I guess that I was so excited that I didn't realize I was going to be this early; I decide to buy a Starbuck and wait for Nate.
As I was waiting in line for my Caramel Latte, I was looking around the store and I noticed certain curly haired boy sitting all by himself, at a table in the back far away from everybody. I quickly took my drink from Karla, the lovely cashier, I give her a quick smile of thanks and I try to go unnoticed by the curly angel, but I fail miserably because his angelical voice calls my name.
"Hey! Miley?" I want to ignore him but my eagerness takes the best of me and I turn right to see the seventeen year old god just staring at me. His gaze was so intense that I look to the ground instead of his beautiful hazel orbs, but when brown meet blue; a wave of feelings that I thought were long gone came rushing back to me.
Our moment was over when an old lady clears her throat, so I could let her pass to go take a seat at a table nearby, after she passed me, Nick being the gentleman he is, pulled out the chair for me to sit.
The first couple of minutes were full of an awkward silence; Nick wouldn't look me in the eyes and kept finding interesting things to look at across the room.
I couldn't take it any longer and decide to be the first one to speak "So… Nick, what brings you here?" And for the first time since I sat down his gaze meets mine.
He blushed a little before answering, "Well, I'm here waiting my date." When he said those words I felt so… jealous, and in that moment I totally forgot that I was there for the same reason.
I was trying to push the feeling of disappointment into a little box and shelve it away inside my brain; I was confused at the heavy feeling.
He gave me a smirk and lifted his eyebrow, I rolled my eyes and ground my teeth; There was that expression I loved and hated at the same time.
I took a deep breath before answering, "Oh! That's great." It was the only answer I could think of. He smiled slyly and asked "What bring you here Mi?"
Oh, I swear I could melt right there, It's been to long since he called me that. My stomach did a little flutter and I could feel my face getting hot "Well, as funny as it may sound, I'm here for the same reason as you – for a date." From his reaction I guessed that he wasn't happy with my answer, then again I could be imagining things.
After the awkward start of the conversation everything was like old times - just two best friends catching up. We talked about our work, family, our love life's; well in Nick's case, the lack of love life, and at some point, we even talk about the weather.
My eye caught my watch and I saw the time; 6:05 I realized that Nate should be here in any minute.
"Nick would you do me a favor?" I asked as I scratched for the brooch in my purse, I quickly looked up as I felt my fingers found the piece of jewelry.
He had a curious look on his face, "Well, that depends, what you want me to do?" I pull out the brooch and hold out my hand.
"Please would you be kind enough to put this brooch on for me please?"
I closed my purse and when I looked up; I saw Nick staring at my outstretched hand, staring at the brooch with a puzzled look on his face.
There was a frown line between his eyes and I had to stop myself from reaching out and smooth it away with my thumb, like I used to…
"Nick, what is it?" I asked after a minute of him silently staring at my hand.
He looked up at me, with a smile slowly growing on his face; He took the piece out of my hand and laid it gently on the table, grinning like a mad person, he let out a soft chuckle and ran his hands through his messy curls. Looking up at the roof, he sighed and when he looked back towards me, his gaze had changed to a look of intensity I have never seen.
I was getting impatient; I picked up the jewelry piece, collected my bag and made may way to the entrance "Wait." I could hear the desperation in his voice; as I looked up, I saw him take something out of his pocket and slip it into the band around the hat he was wearing… A single purple feather…
I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me, I blinked them one, twice, three times before my brain started processing what I was seeing. A million thoughts were running through my mind, what does this mean? I answered that one instantaneously…
Oh my goodness, Nick is Nate? My Nate? My rude cyber boy? My body seemed to be in shock, because all I could do was look at him, I couldn't find any words to say, I looked from his beautiful face to the feather, to the brooch and then back to his face.
He calmly smiled and took my hand "Yes Miles. I AM Nate." He nodded a couple of times and sat back, waiting for me to get over the shock.
In my mind, I went over all the conversations we had, and I realized I had inadvertently confessed to my ex-boyfriend that I still have feelings for him.
I finally regained my breath and said "So, you're Nate?"
He nodded again "Yes I am." he nodded again "Yes I am."
I tried to lighten the mood by making a joke "Well, you weren't very original with the name, Nate seriously? You use your character name in Camp Rock" his eyes lighted up and he gave a snort "Look who is talking, Ronny and Will? As the Ronnie and Will in The Last Song?" I pulled a face but didn't say anything, he was right…
He start playing with a napkin and look shyly up at me, "So?" He is Mr. oh so smooth with words and suddenly all he can say is, so? But I wasn't going to make this easy for him "So, what?"
"How have you been?" I rolled my eyes at his words, didn't we just do all of this? I was tired of all this small talk, I decided to cut to the chase and say what was on my mind. "Nick, did you really mean everything you said to me; while you thought I was Ronnie?"
He seem a little taken back because of my bluntness and after he regained his composure, he whispered "Yes Miles, I meant every word I said.'
I took a deep breath and my stomach started fluttering, did I hear him correctly? Did he just admit saying he still liked me?
He looked up at me with a pleading look "Wha… what about you? Did you tell the truth ?" I felt vulnerable in that moment, I felt so uncomfortable having my heart out on my sleeve, I know that if I said yes, I was risking my heart being broken again; It did not matter, I needed to be honest with him, the way he was with me a few seconds ago.
"Yes, Nick. I mean every word I say to Nate… well, I mean you."
He dropped his gaze and looked to be in deep thought, after a few minutes of introspection; he looked up, his eyes shining with hope. "Miley, could you… Would you… Would you like to give us another try?" he asked uncertainly.
Even though I knew this question was coming, it still took me by surprise; I shook my head slightly, I really didn't see the day ending this way. I was really tempted to say yes, but I was also afraid that if he broke my heart again, I would never be able to put it back together.
I think he understood my hesitation, because he took my hand, still holding the brooch and ran his thumb reassuringly over the back of my hand "Look, Miles, I know I have been a jerk and that I wasn't there when you needed me; I realize now, after not having you in my life, that you are all I ever wanted; every other girl gets compared to you, and they never make the grade. I realized that I truly love you and I will do anything to show you how sorry I am, I will do anything in my power to make you believe in me, to believe in us."
All my doubts flew out of the window with that heart felling apology, I was reassured that he was indeed sorry and loved me more than life itself.
His words left me breathless and as I stared into his eyes, I could see all the love he had for me inside of them, I slowly leant forward, coming closer and closer toward his face, with an inch to spare, I paused and whispered, "Only if you promise not to leave me standing in the rain this time."
His gaze kept dropping down to my lips and back up to my eyes, and when our eyes connected; all I saw was the promise of commitment, I dipped my head down with one smooth movement and our lips collided in a passionate, sweet kiss.
Who thought that a small talk in a chat room would bring love to my door once again?
This didn't go out as I expected but I hope you guys enjoy reading it.
And I guess you were right nileyfan1 xP
Thanks to emochanty for her help.
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